>day 102 of deliberately reconditioning myself into homosexuality because I'm tired of women and their bullshit and refuse to be celibate
>I'm excited because I believe I may have succeeded
>everything was going fine until last month I kind of had a little meltdown and abandoned the project for a little bit
>still not entirely sure what caused it but it lasted for several weeks
>completely killed my sex drive entirely, ended up developing a fairly strong averse psychological reaction to sex where whenever I'd watch porn or try to engage in a sex act I'd immediately feel nauseous and dizzy
>lately that reaction has died down quite a lot to the point where it's basically almost gone, sex drive still isn't what it used to be
>almost permanently deleted my porn collection at first but decided against it and recovered it from the trash a couple days ago
>horniness has returned somewhat but I no longer think about girls by default. my sexual thoughts are instinctually gay now
>my desire for sex is much weaker and more infrequent but now focuses on masculinity, not femininity
>have been able to jerk off to gay porn in small amounts and it doesn't feel like I'm forcing it or actively reminding myself to stick to gay porn anymore, it feels easy and natural atp
>haven't had sex with anyone since my last post but have been thinking about returning to it sometime soon, only without instilling any sort of quota this time around
>unsure if I'll be able to get genuinely into the sex or if I'll just kind of dissociate and wait for it to be over like I've been doing until now, but recent developments seem promising
>still can't get hard without playing with myself first though. baby steps.
I think I've finally done it. old neural pathways have atrophied, new ones have formed and now I'm working on reinforcing them.

I fucking did it.

>>81515656 (OP)
fuck, forgot to include the last installment

>>81296448

>>81515656 (OP)
Science has gone too far.

>>81515656 (OP)
you should start by fapping to femboys

Fuck off to >>>/lgbt/ and be homosexual there, retard

>>81515759
you don't understand what this means anon! it means sexual orientation CAN be deliberately altered, just not through the totally measures christcucks use. this is a huge discovery!

I did not read the post, but OP seems to look for suicide instructions.

>>81515656 (OP)
couldn't you create neural pathways to stop being attracted to anything in general? wouldn't that be better over all?

>>81515656 (OP)
I'm straight but I think it would be exciting to feel his stiffness rubbing against me, unfortunately I am not good looking enough to make a hot guy hard and horny

>>81515700
but fuck it, let's keep going and see how much farther we can take it.

>>81515719
femboys are too dangerous of a trigger because of their femininity. too close to girls. common misconception is that femboys are a slippery slope to gay shit but actually if anything they only hurt your goal if you're trying to actually become gay.

>>81516004
I suppose so but forcing asexuality is way harder than redirecting orientation. also I don't want to be alone, I just want to cut women out.

>>81516052
sniffies is calling you anon

>>81515656 (OP)
I did experiments like this when I was younger and now I'm comfy just being bi
The superior orientation bc I can do anything
Dealing with lust is an orthogonal issuw imo

>>81516203
>The superior orientation bc I can do anything
Including get aids

>>81516532
don't be jealous, if you're american you can find a sheboon in a spiffy

>>81516081
If you were attracted to women then its going to be hard to become attracted to masculine men all of a sudden. Most men can only branch out to femboys and twinks

>>81516734
>all of a sudden
I'm on day 102 of this project. I'll admit the transition from sexual fixation on feminine features to masculine features is extremely difficult mentally but it does need to be a very sudden transition, not a gradual one. otherwise you branch out to femboys, don't really venture much further than that and find yourself jerking of to regular women again. if you want to become homosexual, you need to cast femininity out entirely, at least at first.

>>81515656 (OP)
I just cranked it to Asian boys and then started craving to rape weaker men, I still cannot stand beards though.

>>81515656 (OP) You're doing it all wrong OP. What you have to do ease yourself into it. Best thing to do is to start by having sex with tranny escorts.

Start by fucking very feminine looking trannies with tiny dicks. Once your mind has adjusted to the idea of seeing another dick while having sex, you move on to the trannies with slightly bigger cocks. You suck the cock, to get used to the idea of tasting dick and feeling what a male appendage is like in your mouth. During this time, you allow the tranny to fuck you in the ass, so that you can feel some stimulation in your prostate.

Then you work your way up to trannies that have bigger and bigger dicks. If you let them fuck you in the ass, you'll most definitely have an orgasm through prostate stimulation, which I have to say will turn you radically gay. First time I had a prostate orgasm from a tranny fucking me in the ass, I couldn't go back to normal sex. It was such an amazing feeling. After that, I could have sex with men.

I started then visiting gay clubs and gay saunas and had sex with many men. And before you knew it, I was a fully fledged bisexual. But honestly, I'm probably a little more gay just because I've had sex with more men than women because it's much easier to get a man to have sex with you than a woman.

>>81515656 (OP)
i think you should just chill the fuck out and suck a dick. it's not that bad

>>81517763
>tranny
no you want a man trust me
>escorts
no don't do this
>sex with tranny escorts
no
>sex
yes

I conditioned myself through MLP, and now I'm a zoophile :-D let's go bronies !

>>81515656 (OP)
kek
didn't fuck a dude yet.
I'm happy someone else gets to feel the moment of going soft trying to push it into a dude that you actually like.
try not to kys chad

Stop being a fag and fuck some pussy.

>>81515656 (OP)
hello again OP I was wondering where you went

>>81515656 (OP)
I haven't been following your threads at all but if I managed to momentarily psy-op myself into being straight then you can likely do the reverse too.
I only went back to being gay because I came to the realization that women are even worse than men are, men may only see me as a sex object but atleast that can be positive, women just universally see you as a nuisance and have shit personalities unless they're fat and ugly, which that might make me shallow but FUCK that.

>>81516081
aw, coom on, Anon-desu.
The femboys deserve you :3

>>81515656 (OP)
aw anon, I'm so happy for you getting there. I hope you become a cute little bottom. What's your bodycount rn?