Met her on here. She was 19, I was 21. Said she liked my sense of humor. We started talking every night. Calls went from one hour to six. She'd fall asleep on VC, say it made her feel safe hearing me breathe.

I called her babe after two months. She said no one ever made her feel this seen. I gave her my Steam password, my Netflix, my fucking Spotify. I sent her UberEats when she was sick. Stayed up late helping her with essays I didn't understand. She told me she'd never been able to trust a guy before me.

She was broke, depressed, and stuck in a shitty house with a stepdad who hated her. Obviously she had a lot of trauma, maybe she had BPD who knows. I offered to pay for her train ticket to visit. She cried when it arrived. Said it was the nicest thing anyone's ever done. I shaved. Cleaned my whole room. Bought candles and snacks I knew she liked. She showed up in an oversized hoodie and smiled like she'd known me her whole life.

We didn't even have sex that night. We just held each other. She traced circles on my chest until I fell asleep. Woke up to her in my hoodie cooking. Said I was the only guy she felt "safe" with.

For 10 months it was perfect. Morning good mornings. Nighttime I love yous. Shared playlists. Photos of food. Inside jokes. Her name lit up on my phone and everything else faded. I wrote poems about her. I daydreamed about a tiny apartment, her in my hoodie on my couch, waking up together every morning until we died.

Then the signs came.

>>81518869 (OP)
Delayed responses. Short replies. "Sorry fell asleep." "My phone was on silent." Voice calls stopped. Her laugh sounded rehearsed. I told myself she was just stressed. Finals or something. I offered space.

One night she forgot to mute her mic.

I joined her VC and heard a guy laughing. Not just a friend laugh. The kind of laugh you make when you're touching someone. I said nothing. She muted. Then texted: "accidentally joined the wrong server lol sorry!!"

I knew.

It took me 3 days to get the truth. I asked, gently. She denied it. I pushed. She cried. Eventually she admitted it. There was another guy. She met him IRL. "It just happened." She said she "didn't think it counted because she didn't come."

He was taller than me. Richer. He bought her stuff. Took her out. Picked her up in his car. And while I was sitting alone in a dark room editing her photos and making playlists, she was bent over in his apartment getting creampied on the same night she told me she loved me.

I asked her why. She said I was "emotionally safe but not exciting." She said I was "too available."

I still remember the smell of her shampoo on my pillow. I still have her hoodie. Sometimes I put it on just to feel like she's near. Then I remember she gave me chlamydia. Got tested a week later. Positive.

I bought her dinner while she was cheating. I sent her flowers after she got railed.

I haven't spoken to a woman since. I don't know how to trust. I don't know how to believe anything they say. Every laugh sounds fake now. Every good morning text feels like bait. I see women posting selfies and all I see is a lie. A manipulation waiting to happen.

I gave her everything I had. She gave me trauma, an STD, and two years of lies.

I still miss her sometimes.

I hate myself for it.

What kind of games do you have on Steam?

Im Not Reading all that you cuck bitch

>>81518869 (OP)
I know this is bait and fake story but you wrote it cool buddy good job

>>81519038
I wish it was bait anon

Shit happens mang. Send it all to hell and work on yourself. Go to the gym, that's what i did. Almost daily night sessions alone at the gym for 5 months straight. Something about pumping iron that gave me relief. It didn't change much to be honest but my self image grew a bit to an extend that i can walk around in a sleeveless tank top instead of a huge baggy hoodie like i used to. Life goes on man we must pull up our pants dust ourselves off and get on with life,

>>81519072
yeah I have been going to the gym for a while now, this all happened like a year ago

>>81518869 (OP)
Trusting women in the big 25

>>81518869 (OP)
You don't want to hear it, but 70% of it is your fault. You're a retarded normie sex haver and you don't belong here, with volcels. 30% are the upbringing, culture, society at large, normie influences. 70 are you because you gave into it without any thought, analysis, questions, data, pattern recognition.
You never, fucking never do anything even remotely nice for women unless they do something nice first. And you never do more than they did. The lack of her interest and engagement with your advances from day one was a clear sign that she never wanted you in the first place. She is a typical whore and you're a typical normie retard. And it's another day that ends in y.
Peesonally I don't think that any relationships and women are worth it at all. I protect myself by staying in solitude I enjoy.

>>81518869 (OP)
go back to red dit you dirty wop

>>81519154
90% of the people here are volcels

>>81519178
Has fuck all to do with my post, you fucking retard.

>>81518873
If it helps, nobody will know or care that you lived or died, od the whore, or the normie fucking your pretend gf
So you should just brush it off like dust on your shoulder and never have contact with her again

>>81519246
that doesn't make it any less real to me-

>>81519110
With how easy women cheat, the only way to know if she's loyal if she's a 30yo khhv and even then I'd wait till marriage. I'd try and not get attached until we're at the altar. Sadly the women who don't cheat are either mentally ill or deformed.

>>81519511
I dated a 30yo khhv and she cheated

How'd she give you an STD if you didn't fuck?

>>81519643
We did fuck, just not that night

>>81518869 (OP)
>>81518873
>Most normal BPDemon
lol

>>81518869 (OP)
>>81518873
Life really is hell.

>>81518869 (OP)
Rope for 10,000 years edating discordfaggot.

>>81518869 (OP)
>She was broke, depressed, and stuck in a shitty house with a stepdad who hated her.
>latching on to the nearest stepping stone and immediately looking for the next one
Many such cases.

>>81520277
Seriously. Anyone reading this, if you are infatuated with someone you are messaging on discord, get the fuck put immediately. Nothing good comes out of discord relationships. Ever. Finding some normie Facebook bitch would even be better but any DM edating is paramount to an AI chatbot gf. It might as well not even be a real person.

>>81518869 (OP)
I was going to read it, but then I saw how long it was, so I didn't.

>>81520296
But the op met and fucked this girl

>>81518869 (OP)
>trusting a woman that you suspected of having BPD in the first place
Lmao

>>81518869 (OP)
You know. Maybe being an incel isn't so bad. I would not be able to handle something like this.

>>81519665
and that's probably why she left you for another guy, maybe sex was mid and she was bored of you so she wanted to switch up shit. It happens, I feel like you could of been more interesting and passionate with her. Women love passion and excitement, if you pull the stupid romantic nice guy that early you're gonna get played lol.

>>81520750
Don't women always say they want passion and romanticism?

>>81518869 (OP)
>Met her on here.
This was your first mistake, not even reading the rest of your post. Women are only here for easy quick attention from men you idiot what did you think you were getting into.

>>81520898
>believing anything a woman says
Anon you have to get your shit together. Her actions speak louder.

>>81519052
the baiter's fucking laziest denial possible.
saying "I wish this was bait" should permenently ban you from the site.
And yea, this is obvious bait.

>>81518869 (OP)
>>81518873
counterfeit and uranian

>>81518869 (OP)
Yeah, I'm not going to lie, this is entirely your fault. Don't get me wrong, I have sympathy for your situation, but it is 100% your duty to evaluate the girl's character and determine if she is worth investing any time into, and you failed to do that properly

>>81520898
Passion first then romantic, you started catching feelings way to early instead of naturally developing them with her. If that's not the case then probably she just sucks, you said she has BPD so obviously she's gonna treat you like shit and cheat, bad people are bad people, not much you can do about em.

>>81521170
How am I supposed to evaluate a girls character when she acted perfectly fine before all this?

>>81521489
It's easy to paint certain images of how amazing and perfect this girl is because you don't know any better, but the warning signs were there. Most of it has already been mentioned in this thread.
>Met her on here. She was 19, I was 21.
>She was broke, depressed, and stuck in a shitty house with a stepdad who hated her. Obviously she had a lot of trauma, maybe she had BPD who knows.
To begin with, even with relationships in real life, you are never supposed to commit this much to a girl when you're this young. You are not on the same biological time clock. A girl's life starts at 18, and a man's life starts at 30. We are not the same
But this is someone you met on fucking 4chan. All the while you are e-dating, you have absolutely no idea what this person is up to. There is no way to know if she is talking to random other dudes on the internet or getting up to other bullshit. It's foolish to ever take a girl seriously until after you have established consistent in-person contact. Only then can you start to get a glimpse of what this person is truly like
Let this be proof that you can't save these women no matter what you do. You think she can never do you any harm because you treat her like a princess and you think she will love you forever. It doesn't matter how beautiful or nice she is to you if you ignore the blatant red flags

im not gonna read (you)r fake and gay story written by chadgpt

brother, why are you so gullible

>>81521910
yeah chatgpt is writing about my ex getting creampied
>>81521989
idk she was my first relationship

>>81521998
im sorry that you had to learn it the hard way bro, dont let it make you to jaded, but now you wont get caught slippin again

>>81518873
she got bored bro