I want to kill myself but I can't, I don't even know why am i even still alive, I've lived for 21 years and never even once enjoyed my life, it's been all agony since i gained consciousness at 3. Bullied since kindergarten, parents abused shit out of and i developed weird asocial disorder since then. Now I'm 21 autistic sperg i can't do anything. No friends, never had gf, no sex, failing at university no motivation for anything i was going to hang myself October 2023 but some kind of divine power saved me that night but for what I'm still loser living in agony.
what divine force? what happened?
>>81520684I had some strange entities approache me that night, I don't know it was my schizophrenia or occult rituals i was doing that time
>>81520673 (OP)If you believe in magic, fairies, God's, and demons you probably should remove yourself from life since you clearly aren't cut out for dealing with the real world.
You are a unique individual, suffered far more than any person your age should've. You hold an understanding of pain and strength that few could understand.
But I assure you, you're not the only one, and people like you are important BECAUSE you understand.
Hold on to it. Make it mean something.
>>81520673 (OP)>some kind of divine powerif you believe in divine powers i don't think you are clear enough in the mind to make such big decision
in other words, get help
