>>81522650I think I'm going to eventually have to commit suicide over this. I don't want to think about this shit anymore. I'm 38 now, so I did a lot of time in my own head, and I know these wounds will never heal, and trying to get "help" seems pointless. I sorta had a suicide attempt once, but there wasn't any damage and nothing came of it. I really would prefer to do it with a gun to the brain. I think If I had access to a gun, It would already be done. At this point, I might as well at least wait until my mom dies.
Sorry to go on, but the floodgates are open. Like I said, I really don't talk about this to others very often at all.