Anon if there is anything I can do or help please tell me what worries you. Im here for you Anon.

>>81528809 (OP)
hello vent anon! i hope you have had a nice day :D

>>81528809 (OP)
I wasted the day today. I had a lot to do and I didn't do any of it. I try to be a well-rounded person, but it's hard when I don't dedicate any time to improving myself.
Also I'm worried about money, I'm spending so much these days

Today I finally finished a project at work I've been stalling on for a long time and I went to the gym. Then I went to Walmart and picked up a pork tenderloin, some Heinz 57 sauce, and some new underwear. Then I went to McDonald's and ordered a small strawberry shake because they said they didn't have the smoothies at the moment which is what I really wanted. the shake was alright but it wasn't as good as a smoothie would have been.

>>81528815
I always remember you Anon and wish you good days. I love you so much Anon. Be safe. Be well.

>>81528853
Anon you dont need to worry much. Time you spent having fun or wasting is not wasted. Anon be well and think well and you will be well. Money will come and go. One advice I give you is to make a safe account for savings. Anon can i search and help you for savings? I wish you well.

>>81529091
I'm not in danger of losing all my money, I am just dipping more into my savings than I'm comfortable with

>>81529091
>I love you so much Anon. Be safe. Be well.
you are making me blush!! be safe yourself and i hope this thread lives long and nicely :)

>>81528809 (OP)
Aww thank you anon, i'm trembling and nauseous, you can't do anything about that so here's a bump fort yaaa

If you are an honest person who's taking their time to help others because I enjoy helping others then I like and appreciate you. If that's the case then I apologize for being callous last time I posted in your thread. I do not know if I misperieceived you then or not at this time, but you deserve an apology if I did.

Unfortunately there are those that use threads like this to ascertain weaknesses of individuals, collect data to target and take advantage of others and able to do it because they're any vulnerable state posting their vulnerabilities.

Because of this I have a initial distrust of your intent.

It would be helpful if you used to trip so I'm able to know a post is you, but that's totally up to you. It helps to have a trip in these kinds of threads because then others who larp responses as you are unable to do that.

>>81528809 (OP)
im starting to wonder if living is actually as good as people say or if its actually just better to die. i fail to see a point in doing most things.

>>81528879
Thank you for sharing your beautiful day. Anon I hope you work on your gym work much more! hope to see you healthy and happy. Much love to you Anon. Thank you.

>>81529096
I understand. Do you work a part time job anon or can you work? if you have much time its good to invest it in work. I know it sounds terrible to work extra. but its unfortunate how this life works. I hope you become rich anon!

>>81528809 (OP)
Yeah, sure. I choose to be single and identify as Asexual because women I've known in the past have caused me to feel like I simply wasn't good enough - regardless of what that meant or how it looked. I'm sick and tired of being expected to meet someone else's expectations of me for them. I'd much rather feel comfortable in my own skin doing what feels good and what works for me. And if that means doing it solo then so goddamn be it. Relationships suck and pussy is overrated. *Mic drop*

>>81528809 (OP)
yea you can get me a girlfriend you stupid fucking nigger if not fuck off and kill yourself

>>81529115
You are always the sweetest anon. May you too live long and nicely. I pray that you find true happiness in this life anon. I know not what you truly wish from this life but I ask God or the universe to grant to you in a beautiful surprise one day. Much love Anon.

>>81529294
Its okay Mike. I still have your Discord and I will add you one day but please worry not I understand. I know how cruel and weird some people can be here. I genuinely have nothing but love and support to all good people here. It warms my heart so much to know you truly care and I respect you a lot Mike for that. Thank you too. Also please can you explain to me the trip thing? like I put a name and then ## with a password? like this for example: Anon##Meow
?

>>81529728
>do you work a part time job
I'm trying to get one. I have a job lined up in August but I'm looking for a side gig
>I hope you become rich
I will when my parents die, but I hope that isn't for a long time

>>81529282
Anon please take care of yourself and get yourself checked dont stay like this. Please see if any medication can help or a doctor. are you having this because of anxiety anon? please be well :(

>>81529635
Death is the end of many beautiful things anon. we dont know what awaits us beyond this life anon. please dont talk like this. Anon have some good food you like or watch stuff you like. anon this is your depression talking and not you. please be well anon. talk with me about what you like anon.

>>81529730
I understand Anon. Please dont let few bad people kill your passion and need for finding love. Anon someone there is waiting for you believe me. Anon if finding love with a guy or a trans person works for you then go for it. anon you are not what people see in you that is wrong. people have so much expectations these days and porn with social media made it worse. anon please find your true worth with self love. I wish you the whole world anon.

>>81529745
You are very hurtful anon. I did nothing to you. I still wish you the best and I hope you genuinely find true love and a wife. or may you find someone as evil as you that will hurt you like you hurt people with your words.

>>81529754
I'm glad you understand. I am doing my best to perceive your words as honest, I really do want your words to be honest. I'm doing my best not to miss perceive and misunderstand you. That is what truly bothers me is being misperceived and misunderstood and being in the result of something I never intended. All I ever want is clarity and the opportunity to communicate and understand perspective if there is a fault or it is a miscommunication, misperception. If I make a mistake or have a fault I would like the opportunity to learn and grow through it because I have that same commitment to stay and work through it for her. From your words It feels good to be understood and not miss perceived. So I appreciate you for that. I think I would like to chill with you but there's no pressure for you to add me or not.

For trip code you are correct.
In the name field type
Trip##password

So for trip appleButt and password baloney you would type

appleButt##baloney

This will register your trip with 4chan and send the password through a algorithm encryption and put that ID assigned for your trip after your trip code. As long as you use the same password you will always have the same ID.

>>81528809 (OP)
I was stung by two flying insects yesterday and the pain is annoying. A small one stung me on my pinky. It didn't hurt much when it happened but it hurt more this morning and my finger was very stiff. Later on I was stung below the elbow by a larger wasp thing. I know it was bigger because it felt like I was electrocuted, it hurt like a motherfucker and it started swelling big fast.
Thankfully the new first aid kits the company gives us has sting relief pads and they work pretty good, pain and swelling went away quick yesterday. Swelling is back a bit and now I feel some of the pain. Hopefully I don't get stung today but it what it is. I forgot my wasp spray at home but I don't really like using that anyway.

>>81528809 (OP)

I', 40. gunning for a job but I have a dui and one assault charge intially as a felony, pled to mistomeanor, and expungeed. (spellimg)

idk. if I don't get this job, it seems like a sign that I should just give up in corporate.

I fucked up. no one to blame but myself

new job today?
just want to livee normally

>>81530276

today? Was emplyoyed at last job for 7 years

>>81529960
>Death is the end of many beautiful things anon
and also the end of many awful things
>we dont know what awaits us beyond this life anon
surely cant be worse than whatever this is.
>have some good food you like or watch stuff you like
copes are not going to work forever. they're already starting to not work anymore. besides whats the point if all im gonna do is escape from reality

>>81528809 (OP)
Hey, turning 30 next month. I hate myself. Last year at my summer job i fell in love with 15 y/o girl who has been orbiting me.
tfw she makes u pdf file
I was hoping that i will loose all feelings towards her during winter but when i did saw her yesterday i couldn t cope. It s over for me i should just kms

>>81530133
Thank you Mike for understanding and being genuine and thank you for explaining it to me. I will use Sol as my name and I would love to spend time and get to know you more ofc I do. Much love to you Mike.

>>81530201
Anon Im sorry that happened to you. please apply cream and ice. look up what to do online and you will find helpful stuff. Anon do you live in a city? its weird that happened to you.

>>81530254
You didnt fuck up and you still have many opportunities and chances. life is not a 1 job thing. anon i know that you can find the same position somewhere else for sure. but try your best to get this one anon. please focus and be calm and thoughtful! my prays with u.

>>81530276
>>81530302
Im sorry I dont follow. wish you the best on your job. please remember to take much care.

>>81530793
Anon then work on your reality...you make me sad anon. i dont want anything bad happening to you please anon. please know that at least some stranger somewhere cares about you and wishes you well wishes you to be good to be happy. anon there has to be something for u. maybe your pet cat cant live without you or your brother or your gaming online friends anon someone there cares about you...i care too...

>>81531059
Anon Its wrong what you are thinking and doing and this will get you in serious trouble and bad situations. Please know that you can find genuine love and pretty girls with legal age or even mature old women. Anon dont fall for this dark hole for it will bring trouble and sickness upon you. I genuinely advice you to try dating apps or maybe exploring kinks and such. Are you sure you are not into something? maybe blond women? big women? punk girls? maybe even trans girls? try to find a different hook Anon.

>>81531133
I know i know. Its wrong but not illegal in my country.
I have no desire for any other woman. Dont get me wrong its somewhat ez for me to get a hook up but i just cant get her outta my head.
She gives me attetion, looks at me like iam god with those big cute eyes. I dont want some dead eyed roastie. I want her to be my wife.
Ive never been into young girls i dont know how did she managed to turn my brain into this mush

>>81531074
My job is trimming plants. Lot of wasps and the like in the bushes and trees where I work. They don't like the disturbance I create trimming the bush they live on.
I've been running cold water on it throughout the day and I'll continue to do so. Thank you for your concern.

>>81531251
I hope you try to stop this anon. I dont know what to say or to tell you. Anon please know that I genuinely worry about you and people here. Also anon please know that some asain women can look pretty young and beautiful even at 40 or so. Some women can look young and they are around your age. Please know anon that the girl you think of is mostly just being friendly to you and likes you as a big brother or a father Please dont destroy this innocence of her. Anon I love you and I understand you so please dont do anything that might destroy a part of you. You know its wrong anon. I truly wish you can overcome this anon.

>>81531313
Im glad you are doing something about it. Anon the fact you are doing an honest job and getting paid improving your life and facing difficulties to feed yourself as an honest man warms my heart. I love you so much for this anon and I wish you become a professional at your job or start your own business. I can feel that you are an honest man anon and im proud of you.

>>81531481
> You know its wrong anon. I truly wish you can overcome this anon.

Yeah you r right. I will just push until its through and maybe i will be normal someday again.
Its just so hard to do anything when your mind is a total mess

>>81531647
Thank you so much anon for listening to me it means the whole universe to me. anon i know you can overcome this part of you and i know how lovely and good you truly are. The girl sees you as a father or a big brother please dont break her innocence and let her live happily in her life. Anon you will find love and you will overcome everything bad. anon please try exploring other parts of you other kinks or fantasies. maybe you are into something you dont know. believe it or not anon I myself into genuine cuddling and affection with love. It makes me feel so good to be loved by a partner and be told how much they love me Its more amazing to be than sex to be hold and loved. Anon I know for sure if you found anyone who could show you this it would change your perspective forever. Even if it was not a partner. Never give up on your quest to love and be loved you are only 30 anon life is full of stories for you. I love you anon and please be good.

i wish i could feel like i could do anything again.

>>81531832
you can. you can and you will anon. time is never up not now. A door closed and another opened. look right and look behind and everywhere, all the roads will eventually lead to a place a chance. I wish you everything good anon...

>>81531481
I don't know how to respond to such praise, thank you, you're too kind haha.
>I wish you become a professional at your job or start your own business
I have little ambition or desire in regards to my career. It's easier to simply work for a large landscaping company.

>>81531095
>i dont want anything bad happening to you please anon
but its not bad, it depends on the point of view. would you say that if someone who is in constant suffering dies, its a bad thing for them?
>anon there has to be something for u.
might be. but its most likely not something i want. call me entitled or whatever, but if my future is not something i want to live for then im simply not going to
>maybe your pet cat cant live without you or your brother or your gaming online friends
i dont deny there's people that care about me, i know it even if sometimes its hard to believe. but im not needed for them to stay alive and continue living. eventually, they'll get over it and thats okay.

I hate myself. I am so lazy.

>>81529754
>I know not what you truly wish from this life but I ask God or the universe to grant to you in a beautiful surprise one day.
it worked!! i managed to get up at a reasonable time today, for the first time in weeks...

>>81529960
>are you having this because of anxiety anon?
hey this thread still up :D. and yeah prolly, it was a slight inconvenience, i'll be well ventanon, I just got the timbers now

>tell me what worries you
I'm extremely lonely but I'm at a point where even hypothetically I wouldn't know how to go around fixing that. Venting takes more energy than the possible comfort it would bring, digging up old scars and thoughts that are best ignored. Trying to ask for help doesn't work because each persons circumstances are unique and their life status is a result of circumstances largely out of their control. Likewise trying to help others is dumb for previous mentioned reason and because it's not like words have an impact on people with problems they've been trying to solve their entire lives. Besides, more and more as I get older I start to believe what others have been saying, that people never really learn or change and that their thoughts and worldviews are mere post hoc rationalizations. Neurons decay, pairbonding becomes harder, a gazillion distractions competing for yours and your friends attention. And having "fun" or being nice is impossible when life is so fucking shit and your body is clinically decaying fast.

So what now? How do I "connect" to others? The world becomes quieter with each passing day, I just wish I could know what happened to the voices that died out. If they made it, maybe I can make it to :DDD but if they don't, then what chance do I stand of making life worth living? I do not believe you inherently need others to live a good life, but that's the way this hypersocial generation was raised

>>81531903
wow. i love you.

>>81534479
>I do not believe you inherently need others to live a good life, but that's the way this hypersocial generation was raised
both these statements are fundamentally untrue. this is the least social generation known in the history of mankind to the point we have loneliness epidemics. social media likes and surface level text from people never you never intend to meet and have never shared anything truly deeply personal with aren't a substitute for real socialization. it's all antisocial worships of personas instead of connecting with the self. the internet is a fantastic tool to meet people to connect with in person, to connect with people you have established a bond with whom you cannot see in person at the moment, or to find information. but this tool is misused to form hundreds or thousands of shallow 'like' connections instead of meeting people or staying in touch with those you have met.

you want to connect with others but you see it as pointless to involve yourself with the lives of others or have them be involved in yours because you don't want to dig up pain or use energy. however this is what is required to connect with people, sharing in their pain and joy. it is a mutual bond between two peoples that brings connection. they cannot heal you of your problems, but they can enrich your life. you are wrong, people can grow and change. they do often in fact. however you are also right, it's not words that do it. it's actions. words mean nothing if there is no caring actions behind those words. if your entire world view is to ignore the world to focus on your pain you can never connect with others or have a life worthy of anything.

i've been friends with a 15 year old girl for a few months because i am a 23 year old retarded man child and i like her a lot and i feel like we grt along well. she leeps compalining about boys her age and how she wants to have sex and yesterday she said that she really wants to have sex with me. i told her no and she was upset so then i said that i do want it but it's illegal. now she keeps talking about it and she's right i really want her and i'm really attracted to her. idk what to do. i really like her as a friend as well and i don't want to lose that

>>81535035
damn you really are retarded. anyways, don't go for it. 15 year old thinking 15 year old things. like, shit. her parent(s) probably trust you. i would say more, but i'd just be spitballing. idk. just don't.

It happened AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God fucking dammit this wouldn't have happened if I wasn't so poor. One of my favorite websites just went fucking down and I didn't archive it, because I couldn't afford another hard drive.

AAAAAAHHHH fucking greeedy niggers

Why even blueball people like that? "Your" website stops being yours as soon as others start contributing to it. It's like Facebooks policy of "giving your data" back. Delete your content but please not the contributions of thousands of individuals.