hi robots. i cant anymore, ive got bpd; anxious attachment, no sense of identity, the works and to top it all off im a tranny (not the kind you think). believe me ive tried all the self love, therapy, boundaries, whatever you want to call them. ive searched for an identity and ways to fix myself for so long and just fallen back into the same loop. i have nothing except for my autistic collections of things which will all find loving homes with happier autists. browsers are all censored, im at my lowest point. tell me robots, how do i go about ending it all? im trying to figure out the helium method but it doesnt make sense, maybe my brains too rotted from all the drugs.

>>81529546 (OP)
stopped reading at tranny

Unfortunately for you, right now, your feelings are normal for a young woman.

>(not the kind you think)
>still wants to join the 41%

This site is a good resource for suicide, Most of the methods are very risky and painful, you will probably end up a vegetable, especially asphyxiation. :

https://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/statistics-most-lethal-methods/

If you do it, you are proving every tranny stereotype true. Remember, YWNBAW.

>>81529570
im gonna fucking murder you nigger

>>81529546 (OP)
>maybe my brains too rotted from all the drugs
what drugs? if you really want to die and have all of these meme mental illnesses you probably have some pharma cocktail available to do the job

>>81529546 (OP)
Want to talk about it op. Why do you wants to kys?

>>81529615
meant im ftm not mtf but thanks, its also not agp/aap or sexuallike a lot i see here

>>81529657
I have tried but i seem to just wake up and throw up no matter what i mix, they have restricted my access to large quantities of pills or strong pill in general.

>>81529675
I have a completely broken brain i need people to be dependent on but i scare them away and end up completely controlled by them, i have no family no friends, going nowhere and im sick of the loop, the few people i did keep around treated me terribly. im a diagnosed transsexual and i cant really do much about that. also i have autism and have frequented this board since i was a young teenager if thats not reason enough.

You can murder me after I impregnate you faggot

>>81529742
>im a diagnosed transsexual
What do you mean by this? Do you genuinely feel like a man? Do you feel happier seeing yourself as a man? If you can't definitively answer those questions, detrans. I'm not saying this in a YWNBAM way. I'm being genuinely serious. It does not sound like being trans is helping you in anyway and detransing might genuinely help you and be a first step to recovering. I've read stories very similar to this from other FTMs and detransing genuinely helped them.

>>81529546 (OP)
do you look cute? would you be okay just being a sexslave for me?

>>81529864
i repped for a year living as a woman again it made me feel a lot worse. I do feel happier living as a man or as close as i can get but i wont ever truly be one.

>>81529546 (OP)
>to top it all off im a tranny (not the kind you think
What do you mean by that?

>>81529934
Be more specific. What exactly about it made you feel worse? Why do you feel happier as a man? What do you like about being a man? Were you abused in some way as a child?

>>81529917
nah im so miserable im pretty incapable of feeling sex feelings but at least i cant goon as at outlet anymore

>>81529951
i dont know how else to take it apart i suffer from gender dysphoria, onset in childhood, i feel uncomfortable and wrong as a woman. i wouldnt say abused more neglected but that led to the anxiety thing that ruined my life. i feel like i was born wrong and must suffer for as long as i am alive, and ive looked for other answers.

>>81530013
You didn't really answer my questions. It's fine if you feel like you can't right now, but do keep thinking about them. That was my goal, to get you thinking about what it really means to be trans. I'm only trying to help you.