Vent your feelings, order your drinks, pay with cash or cards

Suicide, arguing and fighting is against the rules of the feels bar

Things got a little better, at least that's something

>>81536398 (OP)
It's so hard to stop using dating apps
without them it would be literally impossible to talk to any woman who isn't a cashier or a waitress.
"social life" (clubs, """"healthy hobbies""", and anything "organic" doesn't exist anymore) and I JUST need at least a little womanly interaction in my life, just not to go insane

I recently matched with a girl who used to go to the same high school... the conversation is going pretty awkward, so I guess I will just forger about her

I'm not in the mood to vent but as shallow and generic as it may sound, I hope that good things will happen to you. Let's keep going on!

>>81537302
I honestly can't imagine any chat initiated through dating apps being "organic" though. But if you think so I don't see anything wrong in keep using them

>>81537566
I don't think they are organic either
I was just saying that there are no ways to get to meet women "organically" anymore... the dating apps are just a (shitty) replacement for me
I HAVE to talk to something with a vagina every so often or I go literally insane

>>81536398 (OP)
I'm just hate humanity for creating cat's and dog's because they're forever shackle to the whim of mankind needs. We as a species feels like our only purpose in the universe is to exploit and control, I hate that.

>>81537682
this anon gets it
there is just literally no way to meet women in real life anymore
if you didn't meet a girl while you were in school or college it's too late
every relationship that i know of started in school of some kind, it's such bullshit that nobody tells you that that will be your only opportunity to not be alone forever

and the apps
the apps don't even show you real profiles, it's all bots to farm engagement and ad revenue or worse subscription money
and if it isn't bots it's inactive profiles that they're using to farm your attention

there's just no good options, the powers that be have successfully nuked the average person out of the dating market by manufacturing a pandemic to kill all the offline options and making people dependent on matchmaking services that have no monetary incentive to actually work

Feel like it's unironically over for me. Just another schizo now.

>>81536398 (OP)
I'll take a rum and coke, don't feel like anything fancy tonight.
had a bit of a panic attack earlier
I'm moving out of my apartment soon and dealing with that. It is absolutely filthy and I desperately need professional cleaners to come in, but before that I need to clean it up as best as I can myself, and that's going to be super tedious
I also lost a good 3 thousand dollars recently, due to a combination of irresponsible spending and unexpected expenses.
I'm starting to realize how awful I really am. I sleptwalked through college, I hop around from one minimum wage job to another, I'm lazy, I'm not good at anything, I have no social skills, I have no prospects for a relationship, I live off my parents' money and spend irresponsibly, I'm overweight, I'm an alcoholic, and I live in absolute filth. If I had someone else to blame for this, it would make me feel better, but the fact is the only reason my life is like this is that I make bad choices. I feel like I deserve to get shot.

>>81538640
I'll bite if you let me. Why is it over for you?

>>81538681
A plethora of reasons. With this schizo diagnosis anything I say that people don't believe/don't want to hear can be labeled as a "psychotic state."

For example, I went to the Capitol( Washington DC on January Sixth, 2021, early in the morning.(see the attached photo). The date of the so-called insurrection.

There was no staging, no security checkpoints, no crowd, early in the morning. Later on, right by the ellipse, there was also only like three people - two in David's Tent, one security guard for a museum. In short - there was no insurrection, there was no protest. Is it possible I missed hundreds of people and the quick build of a staging area, multiple security checkpoints, etc? Sure, but not likely.

Since and before then, weird shit happens to me, and if I say anything about it to anyone they feign ignorance or call it a psychotic state. There's tons more I can say, but I can only really guess at what other fuckery is going on.