I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not even able to join the army because I'm a mentally ill freak. I'm a neet. I hate myself so much.

Relationships don't even make me happy too. I don't think I'll ever be happy or feel fulfilled. I don't know why I am here.

>>81537449 (OP)
>I don't know what to do anymore
Read Higurashi.

People care about me but I'm just ignoring them. I am a waste of oxygen. I wish my mom just aborted me. I'm unwanted anyways. She wouldn't have to suffer anymore. I'm so sorry. I'm useless.

I thought being loved would make me feel happy, but I don't think I am capable of that. I am so tormented. Everything is so repetitive it feels sickening.