something that baffles me.......people own guns, that are loaded, and then DONT kill themselves? What? Do the people like...not know they own loaded guns? Huh? I dont get it

>>81537723 (OP)
shooting guns is really fun, shooting guns with a club or friends is extremely fun, it's just another hobby community you can join to be around people

>>81537739
ok yeah i get that but do they like...not realize they can leave now? They are FREE! They aint stuck here anymore, they have the exit key!

>>81537723 (OP)
Home intruders

>>81537723 (OP)
i always thought owning a gun would be dangerous combined with crippling depression but it turns out, no, i've never had any urge to harm myself with it. if anything it actually makes me more confident and less miserable.

i don't think you should be pondering about gun ownership.

>>81537781
ok? yeah uh, i wasnt talking about that...why dont they shoot themselves?? THEY CAN ESCAPE!
>>81537785
Weird. id kill myself if i ever had had access to one lol
>>81537789
why not?

>>81537723 (OP)
I don't own any guns

>>81537723 (OP)
I was once suicidal, anon. Chronically. I have been hospitalized in the past for it. The day I realized that I could play life as if it were a videogame, I was no longer suicidal. The day will come when I put the barrel into my mouth, when things must end, but that day is not today. I haven't yet met my sacred and totally fucking insane goals.

Lesser men have dreams of financial success, rolexes and gucci slop, or of happy families and living a life that benefits their community. I have dreams of daughter-wives on the high sea. It will come to pass. Beyond that, I do not know. Yet.

I have been an atheist for 25 years, but I can only now admit that God Himself is leading me with visions toward my end, whatever it is. I see things that I know I have to seek out. I am moving 2000 miles across the country because of a single image that seared into my mind one night, out of nowhere. I traveled to the place where I knew my vision was likely from, and I sought it out. I spent hundreds of dollars just to try to find this image.

I found it, anon.

God isn't what people tell you He is. Or It is. God is fucking unknowable, just definitionally. To assume you can understand something that has the characteristics of what we would call "God" is fucking insane. He's honestly probably some kind of fish; or maybe an ichorous mass deep in the Earth, waiting for the day It will burst out of the crust; or a bacteria colony floating in space. I don't know. I'm really hoping it's the fish one.

All i know for sure is that I have visions and dreams that I feel are special somehow. I seek them out. I find them in life.

To bring on the sacred visions, you have to fashion your mind into a receiver, and be patient. There are ways of doing this I could teach you.

I believe in a world more real than this one, anon. It is a world of dreams. I am Fitzcarraldo. I am Don Quixote. I am alive, and I am telling you, there are giants to be slain out there

>>81537975
in a language you can understand, schizo fren;
Me and god dont get alon and have fundamentally different values. Ive seen sacred visions and feel nothing from them. A world of dreams is a burden to someone who hates dreaming, and seeing life as a game is a burden to someone who hates playing

>>81537739
Just say u wanna shoot niggas you honky white craka

>>81537723 (OP)
Same lmao. The only reason I'm alive is because of gun laws in Australia. if I was in the US I would've bought a gun and put a bullet in my head by now

>>81537723 (OP)
>he thinks there's a quick way out

>>81538385
meanwhile you beleive in fairy tales to feel better but hey whatever