>>81539001 (OP)As someone who is extremely avoidant of other people and who seriously cannot function in most social situations (I would probably have a public meltdown if I had to go on a dinner date), I really do look upon prostitutes favorably.
I lost all of my firsts to prostitutes when I was 22. With the first one:
>First time seeing a woman naked>First time touching boobs and pussy>First time fingering a woman>First time getting a blowjob>First time cuddling with a womanWith the second one:
>First time having sex>First time kissing Do I feel sad that I didn't do all of that the normal way with a girl who likes me? Of course. But I still really look back fondly on those experiences and feel grateful to have had them. I reminisce about her riding me in cowgirl chest-to-chest with me rubbing my hands all over her back and the wetness of her vagina crashing down onto my crotch in rhythm when I am feeling down. I look forward to kissing her and feeling my heart thump out of my chest when we start feeling each other's junk up when I am feeling demotivated.
I would absolutely still be a virgin now at 25 (still no interest ever received from women) if I didn't visit the (legal) brothel. It has such massive benefits on my mood in the afterglow and has increased my life satisfaction because I know what it is like to have sex and be intimate with another person. I have literally no friends, am distant from my family and my coworkers too, so closeness is not something I get to enjoy very often.