I give up, I have finally accepted the fact that she won't come back, It's over...
I really doubt I will find another girl that likes me for who I am, I will never forgive myself for ruining this.

I've lost the will to live, It's over

>>81544543 (OP)
Well what happened anon it is ok to talk about it you do not need to kill yourself I am sure you did not ruin it and she did after all women are serpentine creatures have been since Eve bit that apple. The most beautiful creatures are often the most dangerous.

>>81544543 (OP)
>Oneitis
Been there before man, I know it hurts now, but the pain will pass. Hopefully you learned something about yourself and are better prepared for the next time. Don't rush into anything until you feel ready again. They say the brain can process breakups similarly to death, you do lose someone close to you after all.
It's normal to feel what you're feeling, but it's not the end of the world.

>>81544983
>it is ok to talk about it
Yeah the boys are here if you wanna vent. What happened?

>all women are serpentine creatures
No.

>>81545045
how long does it take for the pain to go away, that's what I want to know

you haven't, you will be back at posting tomorrow. you have said this like 3 times already

>>81544983
well she was the one to not say anything for months, she left without saying anything, she said there's was something going on at home but I'm not sure I believe her anymore, maybe it was all planned to slowly distance from me.
>>81545216
I only said it once before though, but I mean it this time.
I might post again but I won't be waiting for her that's for sure

>>81545203
A fucking long while unfortunately. It fades gradually, and the echos can sneak up on you years down the line. The main thing is, once you feel well enough to put yourself back out there, try not to take that old pain out on new women in your life. They're not her.

>not say anything for months, she left without saying anything, she said there's was something going on at home but I'm not sure
Unless you want to get into more specifics there's a couple reasons people disappear without a word: either they fear for their safety, or they're being selfish and choosing the easier option for them. So unless you were abusive, it sounds like she knew this would hurt you and didn't know how to have that conversation.
Happens a lot, especially with younger people who are in totally uncharted territory with no experience to draw from.

>>81545593
>try not to take that old pain out on new women in your life. They're not her.
I would never do something like that!

and I wasn't abusive, if anything my friends said she was the abusive one. and yeah neither of us had a lot of experience.

>>81545203
You can speed it up by finding a new oneitis

>>81545656
>I would never do something like that!
Most people never consciously would. Just saying to watch out for how your subconscious starts to associate these feelings, it can sneak up on you.

>my friends said she was the abusive one
How so?

>yeah neither of us had a lot of experience.
Well there you go, it's unfortunately to be expected that things get messy when nobody really knows what they're doing.

>>81545666
>You can speed it up by finding a new oneitis
Just be careful. Take this time to think about what you learned about yourself and what you actually want in a relationship. What did and didn't work for you? What would you do differently next time?

>>81544543 (OP)
Anon I was like you, was really depressed for a while, but I found a new girl and things are looking up. There are plenty of fish in the sea.

>>81545666
it's gonna be hard, I'm still quite obsessed with my ex right now.
>>81545793
> it can sneak up on you.
I'll be very careful about that!
>How so?
I would rather not say but my friends all agreed she was evil, I honesty don't think so but they are more experienced than I am and she is gone so they might be right after all.
>>81545806
yeah I guess you are right, there are more girls out there. but now I'm going to be really fucking scared of being hurt again

>>81545985
>evil
>rather not say
Yeah that sounds bad bud

>>81546249
yeah, but I really loved her :(
maybe this is for the best though

>>81546265
>but I really loved her
I know man, nothing ever hits quite like that first time.

>for the best
The upshot is it definitely gets better, when you're both a little more experienced you're less insecure and more in touch with what you really want.
My highschool oneitis knew how down bad I was for her, and by her own admission used me like a kind of emotional insurance policy. That was obviously selfish but were both dumb kids. The first time I actually got treated right by someone who really wanted me it changed everything all over again. Don't sell yourself short, you deserve someone who really wants to be with you.

>>81546764
>My highschool oneitis knew how down bad I was for her, and by her own admission used me like a kind of emotional insurance policy.
ok my ex wasn't THAT evil, I really don't know what went wrong to be honest.
but I guess she really didn't want to be with me.
I hope that I can get her out of my mind soon.

>>81546791
>ok my ex wasn't THAT evil
lol glad to hear it.

>I really don't know what went wrong
Yeah, denying you that closure without a legit reason is what makes ghosting a whole relationship selfish. Not even having an explicit reason makes processing the breakup that much more difficult, but she already knows her reasons and this way is easier for her at your expense.

>hope that I can get her out of my mind
You will. I wouldn't bet on "soon" though. You seem like a decent guy OP, best of luck to you. Most people on this board know what it's like to deal with depression and suicidal thoughts, you don't have to handle it alone. You're lucky enough to have friends who care enough to have opinions about your ex. You have help, try to use it. Whatever you do, just don't fucking kill yourself, got it?

>>81547122
>Yeah, denying you that closure without a legit reason is what makes ghosting a whole relationship selfish. Not even having an explicit reason makes processing the breakup that much more difficult, but she already knows her reasons and this way is easier for her at your expense.
I guess that part automatically makes her extremely evil, I should be mad at her but I just can't, maybe I should turn my sadness into anger.
>You will. I wouldn't bet on "soon" though. You seem like a decent guy OP, best of luck to you. Most people on this board know what it's like to deal with depression and suicidal thoughts, you don't have to handle it alone. You're lucky enough to have friends who care enough to have opinions about your ex. You have help, try to use it. Whatever you do, just don't fucking kill yourself, got it?
fine, I won't kill myself anon, I get the urge sometimes but part of me knows this is too small of a reason to kill myself.