i have been cursed by God with schizotypal
how do i cope?
i just want to be normal

>>81551451 (OP)
why would you post this again nigger faggot

>>81551461
because i am le sad

My mother is a schizophrenic, and there is nothing you can do - sorry!

>>81551451 (OP)
Force yourself into social situations you do not want to be in anyway.

>>81551513
I want to be in them but i do not understand them and that feels isolating

>>81551526
Embrace the feeling and go through the motions. You will learn how to be with experience.

>>81551537
i've been trying to do that but i still struggle despite the years of trying

>>81551451 (OP)
Don't really get what you're sad about, just the label? I'm schizoid (or at least on the path to it, too young for a personality disorder).
Nothing has changed in my life learning about this, felt relieved honestly, finally got answers to the reason I was that I was.

>>81551609
i am sad about the fact that i am a freak. Schizotypal is just a name for it, i don't care for labels

>>81551451 (OP)
God cursed you with schizotypal?
At least he didn't curse you with the personality of a fish

>>81551751
You and the 4 inch penis anon should get together.

>>81551731
Freak is a label, and you're sad about it.
I mean I guess I'm sad I'm so fucked up, I'm more salty than 'sad', pissed maybe, upset.
But theres really nothing you can do.

One time I thought "wow, I really am going to have to live the rest of my life mentally ill, huh?" I wanted to go as far as to check myself into a mental ward and undergo psychotherapy just so I could be kinda normal. I guess I stopped feeling depressed over it after realizing that the 'standard' doesn't really exist at all. Everyone has at least one thing wrong with them, and thats just reality.
As much as it would be nice for the world to be black and white, its really all just grey, its all grey, everything is fuckin grey.

>>81551861
sure but i'm more fucked up than the usual person

>>81551861
The main problem with mental illness isn't that it makes people abnormal, but that it takes away a person's chance to live a satisfying life.

>>81552210
And I'm saying that your idea of the 'usual person' is a but unrealistic. The point I'm trying to make is that you walk past people everyday that are suffering and struggling, schizotypal, schizoid, schizophrenic, etc etc etc.
Its probably less common, yeah, but not extremely rare.
>>81552391
This is really common sense I don't know why you're telling me this, the thing op is upset about is being a freak

>>81551451 (OP)
i love being autistic, normal is boring nigga haha
thank god im not like them

>>81552688
I see people all the time and their lives are better than mine. They are happier than me. They are more functional than me
>>81552769
what's so good about autism?

>>81552816
>They are happier than me. They are more functional than me
In some areas. But unless you watch their entire life 24/7 like they're a videogame character then you'll never really know.
You might have to grow into this 'freak' feeling though. Its annoying that nobody understands and the world is full of ignorant assholes that very well may be better off than you, its not fair, but such is life.
There really is nothing you can do but find a way to be content with it, and that usually comes with time.

>>81552838
how can I be content with it if i can't live a satisfying life?

>>81552769
Having autism is the worst, how the fuck do you manage to enjoy it, knowing how hard it limits you? I struggle with everything unnecessarily much due to it, mostly lack of energy and easily getting overstimulated.

>>81553083
Cause its literally the only fuckin thing you can do. Its cope or die I guess. Its a very 'life isn't fair' moment, which sucks, and things suck sometimes. You have to take shit on the chin sometimes. Its not fun.
I don't think you actually want advice though, I think you just want to vent.

>>81553115
and how do you cope then?

>>81553263
I told you, it takes time.
I sit and I think about it over time and eventually I will get used to it or solve it. Thats how I work though, different for everyone.
I also try not to tie my value to how mentally ill I am if I can help it. Try to look for positives even if there are none, try to think of literally anything at all that could possibly benefits even slightly