I just need someone to love, someone to look at, and someone to think about. My life feels empty without that. If I had that, I might be happier.

>>81554118 (OP)
a girl? what kind of girl could you love?

>>81554127
Someone who would be obsessed with me, someone who would never leave my side and push me to become the best version of myself.

>>81554160
that's very vague. what about physically? personality-wise?

>>81554188
>what about physically? personality-wise?
A normal looking girl and personality would be someone that can understand me

>>81554188
nta, but it sounds like you are looking for someone to describe you. why dont you talk a little bit about yourself?

>>81554336
I don't know how to describe myself as a person. I feel like I'm too bland, or maybe I do know but just can't find the right words.

>>81554336
i don't expect anyone to describe me, i just try to find someone who doesn't care about looks

>>81554359
being too bland can be a consequence of doing the right things everytime, or having a structured life. sometimes doing random dangerous stuff is cool
>>81554361
i dont get it, some days ago i saw a bunch of guys saying they didnt care and their threads got brigaded by some people saying men can't not care about looks. do you think you are ugly?

>>81554404
i just think it's unlikely (rightfully so), i have tried asking dozens of supposedly desperate guys and they all had physical standards i didn't fit. it's not bad to care about looks, i get it

>>81554442
...would you mind if i ask you what are you like?

>>81554453
i don't like being specific because it's embarrassing. vaguely, i am just every single undesirable trait that a woman could have lumped into one person, physically at least

>>81554486
>it's embarrassing.
i am sorry, didn't mean to be rude. when i think about someone undesirable, i think about someone who is fat, doesn't shower, overall unkempt. i'm really curious about what you look like now, but i see that it is a very sensitive topic for you, and understandably so. i apologize again

there are worse kinds of rejection, not having a partner is kind of the most trivial dumb thing. unless you can't afford rent on your own you don't even need one.

>>81554532
you weren't rude, don't apologize. yes, i have those qualities, aside from lots of other negative ones

>>81554118 (OP)
do you like feminine dudes that aren't like femboys or trannies? im desperate for a bf and im that although im probably uglier than you think

>>81554609
I'm not >>81554577, but have you considered trying to lose weight

>>81554609
but the qualities i mentioned are things you can change, so... maybe you can try working on them first? but, let's say there is a reason you have not worked on them. do you struggle with depression and / or BPD?
there is something positive about you, you sound very self aware and you sound like a nice person despite your situation

>>81554644
>do you like feminine dudes that aren't like femboys or trannies?
No, I'm not gay

>>81554662
sigh i thought this was supposed to be the faggot board

>>81554673
>>>/lgbt/
not hard

>>81554653
yes, i have been trying to for a long time but my willpower isn't strong enough
>>81554655
i know, i do work on them. i have good periods when i make decent progress but then i slip up and go back to how i've always been. i am not diagnosed with any of those, but i do think i might have some mild depression

and thank you for thinking i am nice

>>81554118 (OP)
There is no such thing as "love" in this world, my friend. Only suffering and pain.

What we call "love" is a chemical reaction in the brain based on wealth and genetics.

>>81554404
>sometimes doing random dangerous stuff is cool
Like what? Stalking people

>>81554685
>i know, i do work on them.
okay. so at least you are trying to change those things. would it be better for you if you had someone reminding you, or like to hold you accountable?
and yes, i think you do have depression, i have had several psychiatrists tell me i am fine but in reality all i want is to die. not having bpd is a very big plus. do you know how to cook? are you studying? what is your height?

>>81554704
a couple of car crashes would be fine too, maybe distribution of white substances

>>81554676
thats the tranny board

>>81554118 (OP)
Reminder that you are completely normal and actually human to feel this way. Don't let retards ni here or on the outside world tell you that "you're not missing out on much" or "it's better to be alone because muhhh heartbreak". I feel the exact same way as you and I have been for most my entire life. It is natural and human to want love, it's an urge in us similar to hunger or horniness except the need for everlasting love and bond is even more necessary and intense than other urges since it is designed to sustain humanity as a species. I hope we both find it soon

>>81554740
>a couple of car crashes would be fine too
I can't risk becoming disabled

>>81554729
maybe, depends how they go about it. i am scared that having someone restrict me like that would just make me fail harder. i would also be scared of disappointing them constantly and them getting tired of my antics, most people do not have that kind of patience

i'm sorry you feel like that, i have been suicidal in the past and i know it is very difficult. i hope you can get better

i know how to cook, i am decently good at it, i think. i am studying. i am 170cm

>>81554879
well, its not about restrictions, its more like encouragement. being scared of disappointing other people shows that you definitely care about others. and, anyone who cares about you would be willing to have that kind of patience. don't worry.
see, you are suicidal. i think you are drowning in that sea of anhedonia where you don't have any energy to do anything, and not doing anything makes you feel even number. you have to break this loop at some point, otherwise you'll end up a failed adult like me
>good at cook, slightly tall, not a neet
these are all awesome things anon

>>81554804
Thank you anon for your kind words