>>81557466 (OP)I just realised I fell into the exact wordly trance as I promised myself not to. Why do I make myself suffer by being interested in talks of women, sex and relationships? Why didn't I keep to my own habits like anime, science, videogames and so on? I can't even get laid yet I stay here watching people have fun. It's painful. I gotta give up women I always want a girlfriend since I was 15. You realise how people who have sex they just ask each other to fuck? talk to each other while their genitals rub together? I need to become a monk