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How are you doing my fellow anons?
Enjoying the scorching summer heat?

>>81563227 (OP)
Its been OK, the recent rain cooled things off.
My new smoker is great, did wings yesterday. turned out perfect, if I do say so myself.
The landscapers are coming by in a bit to drop off some fill dirt and I should have the back yard all ready in just 3 weeks or so.
My wife is almost done wit her blanket and will be making me more socks right after that.
The kids are really enjoying the great weather, two of them walked to the lake just yesterday.

>>81563251
...why do you torture us so?

>>81563227 (OP)
>How are you doing my fellow anons?
Met an egirl who is looking for a daddy and hope we can have some fun sessions.

>Enjoying the scorching summer heat?
No, but my plants do.

>>81563227 (OP)
>How are you doing my fellow anons?
Miserable as fuck.
Today is ten years since I found my mother dead in our kitchen.
Was the worst day of my life. I have been waiting to join her ever since.
Finally played GTA VC for the first time in a decade.
Naturally, my PS3 doesn't play it; only my PS2.
>Enjoying the scorching summer heat?
Fuck, no. I HATE the heat.
Trying to not use my fan, as my shithole flat traps heat.
Naturally, it's cold as fuck during winters.

almost fell out in 90 degree heat doing my yard yesterday. I need to figure out about leveling. some of the tree roots are coming up and dinging the shit out of my lawnmower blades. not sure how much more abuse this thing can take.

>>81563227 (OP)
Hate it. Working at a car wash. The heat alone is bad enough, but the humidity inside the wash tunnel is murder. And I can't get anything done because every time I turn around, there's another slack-jawed yokel that "needs" a car wash "right fucking now."

>>81563227 (OP)
Turned 35 yesterday. I feel like i'm an inch away from death, with nothing to show for. You guys cook? I just made a mean potato salad and grilled some chuck steak.

>>81563227 (OP)
>How are you doing my fellow anons?
Everything's going great except some crush I have on a coworker I'm unable to act on (shyness and social retardation on my part). Cooming multiple times a day, playing vidya on my new RX 9070 and trying to be busy at work all seem to help but at weekends she's on my mind way more often than I'd want. Not suffering or anything, just merely annoyed at my lack of control over some of my thoughts. She's been very nice to me ever since I first met her 2yrs ago and I keep interpreting that as interest. Can't figure out how she treats other dudes because I'm only in her presence for about 5-10mins a day. I just wish I could reach acceptance that side of my life will never begin so I can completely focus on my health, finance goals and hobbies.
>Enjoying the scorching summer heat?
It's actually a pleasantly cool day here. This summer's been a lot better than others so far. Hate the heat tho I manage well being a lanklet.

I'm 36 and I feel closer to give up by the day.
I'm tired of playing the sad clown. I have a job, I have some friends, but I just live on auto pilot. There's nothing I'm looking forward. I don't even enjoy weekends anymore.
All I do is for escapism, be it reading or writing.
I think this pathetic attempt of pretending I'm a normal person is doing me some serious harm in the long run and I'm ready to lower the curtain.

I don't have a single thing to be happy about. I don't have any friends, nothing good happens to me, I'm ugly, and all my peers have a better life than me. I just want death.

The good:
Girlfriend
Lost a ton of weight/cant fit into anything

The bad:
Shit retail job

I have been an idiot thus far in life and squandered opportunity and relationships. I think if I can play from the field and get my CDL I will be better off rather than languishing in unskilled labor

>>81563227 (OP)
I attempted to reconcile with a friend that disavowed me a decade ago because she got the hots for me while she was married to a guy I fixed her up with after rejecting her. She was very polite and responded to me but when I asked if we can be friends again she said no. I'm not feeling so good.

If you asked me ten years ago what would be the thing to make me feel absolutely miserable I would have never said balding.
I mean I'm not a handsome guy but I always looked way younger and I always counted on that if I ever felt like getting a gf but now that's gone. Don't even mention the beard cope, because I literally cannot grow a beard. And anxiety only makes it worse, I think that by the end of the year I'll have to buzz it, I cannot really picture myself with a shaved head, I'll look like a terminal kid.
Best thing is, if someone actually told me this, I'd just tell him to buzz it already and don't even think about it. Easier said than done.
Oh and I also tried pills, they didn't work.

>>81565343
Why not get swole as fuck? Steroid swole even, nothing to lose

>>81565381
What's that going to solve?

I'm sore from loading

>>81564716
another victim of capitalism

I'm getting into writing and I really enjoy it. I'm writing something similar to The book of disquiet when it comes to format but from an ironic and detached point of view.
Besides from that I'm reading way more than usual. I read 15 books a year on average and so far this year I've read 16 already.
I barely play video games, watch tv shows or movies anymore.

>>81563227 (OP)
Dunno. Every day feels kinda the same, but I'm progressing towards my goals so all in all it's not bad. I'm gonna be a lv35 wizard this year, but I don't even know if I would want a gf at this point. I've done everything alone in my life.

>>81563227 (OP)
>How are you doing my fellow anons?
I'm okay. Just mastered a game on retroachievements and ate some chicken nuggets. Almost finished with the TV show I'm watching, so that'll get done on Monday.
>Enjoying the scorching summer heat?
No, I hate the heat. Anything above 69 is too damn hot. I had to mow the lawn and felt like I'd die afterward.

I feel like I'm about to lose al hope and I find it kind of liberating. I feel extremely calm these days.
You know when you were playing GTA and fucked up so bad or were just about to turn the console so nothing you did mattered at all? That's how I'm feeling.

>>81563227 (OP)
35
>How are you doing my fellow anons?
Good. Life is good.
>Enjoying the scorching summer heat?
no, during the procession on the Feast of Corpus Christi I got completely burnt by the sun

>>81563227 (OP)
Doing poorly and aimless with my life after all these years.

>>81563227 (OP)
aimful buteverything feels like I should've already been here at 5 years old

>>81563227 (OP)
>How are you doing my fellow anons?
procrastinating a fucking video game
>Enjoying the scorching summer heat?
my new bed room is right in the sun. thanks mom.

>>81563227 (OP)
>31
>Still live with parents
>Have like 120k in savings from never having bills
>Friends pretty much all have have gfs or wives so its starting to feel weird asking to hang out
>Never fucked
>Its 95 out and i grilled a burger that was too lean so it was dry
>Watching the godfather because i forgot everything about it
>just installed new can lights in my room so i have a decent sense of worth for a bit

>>81566193
Could you elaborate on what is this?

>>81568437
Me but 36.
I can still hang out with friends with gf/wives but when they have kids then it's over.

>>81568772
Loading trailers for UPS. I'm not looking forward to the heat in the next few days.

>>81568786
How do you like working at UPS? Did they start you as a driver right away? I want to get my CDL and become an OTR trucker but mail delivery does not seem a bad backup plan

Never been more content. Money is good. Have hobbies. Decided I wanted to travel 6 weeks a year to have something to plan and look forward to. Im at the point where a man needs to decide if he will succumb to the passivity of security or push into the unknown. I put less emphasis on the importance of life as I grow older while at the same time realising how precious some moments can be. I guess I just want more of those moments and forget about all the shit that makes life full of suffering. Because pain is just a fact of life for everyone. And that gives me resolve. I was built for going through it, I think I might be on the other side of fear now. The nothing to lose part of town. Feels liberating

>>81568786
Besides your work labor how is it on your job, your colleagues, your impression, how do you spend time etc? Your job seems comfy.

> have girl
> have friends
> have job
> have money
> have material possessions
> be haver of things
same old same old thread these days isn't it

>See +30 thread
>Have nothing to talk about
Can anyone recommend good unity tutorials? There seems so many but most aren't focused on RTS elements

>>81569069
>same old thread
Thats every thread on this shit hole.

>>81569173
Why Unity?

>>81569248
dunno. I just want something to make a 2d RTS.
As mentioned in the /vst/ thread
I actually want attempt making a 2d rts with EVE online elements (market simulation, pilots being spies/pricks etc).
Focusing on the aiplayers/bots.

>>81569265
That's actually pretty cool. So what theme do you have in mind?

>>81568821
I'm not a driver and afaik it takes about 5 years in the warehouse to have a chance to be one, unless you're lucky with the job openings. You can also be feeder driver moving the trailers around, which is $100k+ like package delivery. At least it's a path, not sure I'll reach it but it's something.

>>81568891
I'm skinny awkward autist and this is my first job with a boss. When I'm alone in the trailer and the work is light (like pic), I'm fairly comfy. But when it's busy, it's stressful. It's like being drowned in packages. I have to hope the supervisor sees and sends someone to help, because I have a hard time asking. The co-workers are fairly nice to me at least. I'm sure they sense something's off though.

I feel like a fool when I can't lift something and someone has to do it for me. A supervisor saw that the other day and told me to reload the mis-sorts instead; never did it before and I felt more foolish. I pulled the cart instead of pushing. I didn't even return with the cart because I wasn't sure how to make it past the narrow hall with the irreg train going around. Just awkwardly wait a few minutes for it to pass I guess.

I don't know if they're gonna keep me loading. They tend to put all the women in "small sort". I'm not sure if it's easier but at least it's less heavy.

>>81569312
You mean like set in space?
I'm trying to figure out how to auto generate systems & then list then for the ai to detect.
I'm using chatgpt quite a lot

Would you guys seriously date someone like this? Asking because of curiosity

>femneet
>late twenties
>never worked a day in her life
>terminally online
>alleged femcel but able to get one time dates from dating apps but nothing serious

>32
>never had a gf, not khhv though
>just miss every time a girl is dropping hints at me
>girl I work with
>bookish nerdy type
>if we're in the same place she'll place herself near me
>caught up to me once and mentioned how tired she was and that she needed a coffee, probably a missed hint
>she places herself in my orbit again
>work up courage to say hi
>chat for a while
>gives a smile and a finger wave when we depart
Iunno guys, is she flirting with me? I asked her what her plans were for the summer and she didn't mention a bf.

>>81569413
I wouldn't want to baby someone. Id like them to know how to live. They dont need to live on their own, but they should be able to buy things and go out
Also gotta be cute and not far.

>>81569438
This is bait
>>81569413
Depends, what else are you doing with your life?

>>81563227 (OP)
Still exercising daily before or after work (usually only on Saturdays is it 'after'), but I think I'm going to have to modify my daily runs a bit. Just really the same Sisyphean cycle every day, every week, every month, every year. Fucking hate Summer though; the only upside is that it's easier to sweat.

>>81569471
How is this bait? I just want one more good conversation with her before I shoot my shot.

>>81569331
I worked exactly the same job few years ago. It is exciting work once you get used to it. And people are usually nice to newbies who never worked before, so having a goodwill of others is a very good start.

Don't sweat it about not being able to lift up some packages, it'll come later. Think of it as a gym, because it will genuinely make you stronger, but give it some time. And don't feel bad about when someone does your job when you're not able to, it's not a big deal.

Job is one of your main priorities, but it is a BENEFIT and it can be truly fun.

And be careful around women, they sometimes don't mean well.

>>81569331
Are you a woman anon or just so skinny you cant even lift?

>>81569335
Then you should go look for video tutorials on auto generating systems. Try to do your own research, ChatGPT is not always reliable.

>>81569551
This is my arm
https://archiveofsins.com/soc/thread/33164602

>>81569528
Thanks. I guess it's not that bad because I keep going. I'm glad the money is coming but it feels really slow. It takes a week to see it. I still think about joining the post office but that's 60 hours supposedly, with no set days off. I don't know if I can handle it even if it pays better.

>>81563227 (OP)
Just another day. Grateful to be clean and sober. In two days I'll have 6 months (holidays and weekends included)! Looking forward to phasing up in my IOP program. Already averaging 5-7 meetings per week. Blew the "90-in-90" expectation out of the water. On step 6 in my Stepwork. Being mindful of the HOLISTIC aspect of my recovery. Enjoying (and being grateful for) the little things I get to genuinely enjoy doing on a daily basis (outside of the "structured" recovery stuff). Making conscious decusions through my Higher Powers' will for me one day at a time. If someone six months ago would have told me I'd have made it this far (which really isn't even that far at all), I'd have laughed in their face and told 'em they were crazy. Having a mindset of "progress over perfection" and "growing along spiritual lines" has allowed me access to a daily respite from the darkness that used to keep me down and out indefinitely...and that's a choice I get to make - on a one-day-at-a-time basis.

>>81570722
>Sober
Sober from what