Anonymous
6/21/2025, 3:52:55 PM No.81564041
>in mid 30s
>ugly beta male
>never been on date, had a gf, or had any woman show any interest in me
>was an ugly loser without friends all through adult life, including university and all my jobs
What a humiliation ritual. It kind of hit me again in the past day how totally discarded I have been by everyone in society, in every way after the age of 18. Going into university was hellish for me as an ugly beta male. I still remember the first week of university where there was almost a party environment on campus and I didn't talk to anyone.
Another thing that's hitting me lately is my previous job, which required me to go in the office for most of the week. I'd sit in this open plan area with people in their 20s and 30s who socialised a lot and I always felt so fucking awkward being there and being the outcast. I ended up always going to the random desks at the side of the building to work. I could never go to the after work social events and it had a stack ranking performance system.
Another horrendous memory that came up: having pair dancing lessons in PE in school at the age of 13 or 14 and being humiliated for weeks because all the girls were so disgusted to be near me.
I'm also really resenting having had to come into contact with the bottom 80% of the population. I'm not a genius but I have to be really fucking honest.
>ugly beta male
>never been on date, had a gf, or had any woman show any interest in me
>was an ugly loser without friends all through adult life, including university and all my jobs
What a humiliation ritual. It kind of hit me again in the past day how totally discarded I have been by everyone in society, in every way after the age of 18. Going into university was hellish for me as an ugly beta male. I still remember the first week of university where there was almost a party environment on campus and I didn't talk to anyone.
Another thing that's hitting me lately is my previous job, which required me to go in the office for most of the week. I'd sit in this open plan area with people in their 20s and 30s who socialised a lot and I always felt so fucking awkward being there and being the outcast. I ended up always going to the random desks at the side of the building to work. I could never go to the after work social events and it had a stack ranking performance system.
Another horrendous memory that came up: having pair dancing lessons in PE in school at the age of 13 or 14 and being humiliated for weeks because all the girls were so disgusted to be near me.
I'm also really resenting having had to come into contact with the bottom 80% of the population. I'm not a genius but I have to be really fucking honest.
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