Yeah, so I've reached the point where romance scenes in anything make my eyes water, like just on the edge of crying.
You'd think at 32 the mind would have accepted this loveless fate.
I can't just keep fapping, I need so much more.

>>81565537 (OP)
Porn is boring in your 30s
you need love

>>81565683
>Porn is boring in your 30s
>you need love
But that's not in the card for everyone so what's someone to do?

You need to be more attractive. I am attractive enough to get attention from a decent amount of women but I have grown wary of them because of bad experiences in my last relationship. I don't trust women and know they just want something from me and that they don't care about me as a person. I'm tired of playing their games so I just smile at their face and mind my business. I know there is a woman out there who could love me as i love them but im not holding my breath.

>>81565744
>I know there is a woman out there who could love me as i love them but im not holding my breath.
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>>81565537 (OP)
>romance scenes in anything make my eyes water
I don't think I've ever had that happen to me more than once or twice, while being shitfaced drunk. I'm 30 and knew I'd end up a wizard since my teens. It's just odd that I succeeded otherwise. I've got a useful degree, a pretty comfy job that pays well and I have two friends. Even my coworkers respect me and talk to me about women like I'm a normie just like them and I could walk into a pub and score. But I just grew up mostly being a loner and I never "learned" how to socialize with women. Now a my age despite being confident about most things I do, talking to women just scares me and puts me in this anxious state I can't be myself in. I'm basically the same as I was as a teenager in that regard. Too scared to talk first and when they talk to me I tend to give simple one word answers and my brain doesn't know anything good to say until after the conversation. This is how I tend to drive away even the women who seem to be into me. I'm not ugly and I'm very tall for my country's average. Most women behave nicely with me and some show signs of interest. But I can't seem to convert that into anything and I don't have much incentive to do it anyway, being introverted. I remember the Chads in my HS class groping and hugging the Stacies in my class. I have never groped or touched a woman my age in a sexual manner yet. Hugs with touching cheeks is the furthest I've gone.

>>81565739
You have to consider things you would never consider before
Maybe it is worth it for you to date a single mom
Maybe it is worth it for you to fly to SEA and marry a woman from Thailand or Vietnam
Maybe it's worth paying money to a match maker in your city
Basically if something was out of your comfort zone because you thought yourself above that option, you're not above that. If your choice is no love for the rest of your life or a single mom, the single mom is the better choice

>>81565901
>out of your comfort zone
NTA but I don't get this. Guys who do well with women are attractive, comfortable and confident. That is their comfort zone, they just build on success they've had since they were children. What am I supposed to do by comparison? Walk out into the road and get hit by a truck?

>>81565943
I don't think you understood what I was saying. I am not saying you should be confident attractive and comfortable building on top of past successes
I am saying do things you thought you were above in the past and cope with your diminishing options. Like if you vowed to never use prostitutes maybe now is a time to reconsider that rule you set for yourself

>>81565978
You're saying people should settle?
Do you think that's a good foundation for love?

>>81566571
I think it's necessary for progress
You have 0 momentum right now as a 32 year old. You have a loveless fate, and everything you are doing now will not change that, so you need to change what you are doing to build momentum
I mean I would tell you to sign up for Ballroom Dancing or Salsa lessons because dance classes always have more women then men so you would be a dance partner for many single ladies but I know you won't actually follow through on that line of suggestion. So I am bringing up ideas that are more realistic