>last year of my undergrad
>still anxious around women due to being homeschooled, start shivering when a woman is even near me at times
>90% of my friends are autistic military people or political extremists
>vibrant hobbies, learned 7 different instruments and 4ish languages, write music as well
>too scared to bring any of that up in public or show people

I feel like homeschool and being isolated as a teenager really fucked me up, is there any way to come back from this or is it over?

>>81565985 (OP)
Just socialise more until you feel no anxiety, nigger, and be glad you didn't get groomed and wasted your time in some shit school.

>>81566013
This, like the skills you learned, you improve with practice

>>81566013
>>81566013

I socialize a decent amount (went to parties and lost my virginity last september) but it feels superficial. I also mainly hang out with men due ti both my job and due to the fact that I fall for women extremely fast.

I wouldve rather wasted my time in some shitty school if it meant I gained some more social experience, I like talking to people but it also stresses me out over what I should say or do since I went years without talking to someone who wasnt in my family

>>81566082
I went to public school but was still a social retard when I got out. working is how I learned.

>>81566102
I see... at least you had the greater opportunity however via classes or extra-curriculars. I wasnt allowed to even leave the house until I was 18 though with covid that was practically 20

>>81566102
This. Though I'm legit autistic and still awkward as fuck.

>>81566082
>friends
>non virgin
>milestones
You're worrying about nothing, it's naivety, inexperience, it's normal, it will pass.
I'm some hermit permavirgin that basically socialised online and the only thing that even remotely brothers me is dealing with people whose name I can't remember, since they're being awkward because they've forgotten mine as well.
>I fall for women extremely fast
Now that's a real bad one that may get you fucked up for a long time.
Remember that it's not your job to fix people, that you don't owe anything to anybody and that there's always somebody else to meet.
Don't ignore red flags my nigger, this also applies to friends.

>>81566254
Thats true. I just worry about it the more time passes, I turned 23 this hear and just feel behind many of my peers both socially and in terms of life trajectory.

Ill remember that though thank you, I can already see myself falling in with groups that probably arent the best according to some people. I dont know how familiar you are with further right sub-cultures and groups but Ive started to make my home in a few of those circles even if they give off fed vibes a bit. Datings the same, I dated a girl that cheated on me the minute we started dating so Ive learned my lesson, plus this chick I fucked just didnt align with what I want in life like having kids

>>81566196
school was pretty brutal for me. it only taught me to be avoidant and to mask. it laid the groundwork for my belief that I'm of a lower caste and would never be accepted by normals. so I only worked shit jobs in service industry and starting meeting people on my level. then I learned how to open up to them and not be shy.

>>81566328
Im sorry to hear about that anon. I have a friend who went through similar stuff in high school, it feels like its so easy to fuck up your life trajectory by not having high school go right

>>81566312
>I turned 23 this year
You're still plenty young.

>>81565985 (OP)
You are being dumb.

I was homeschooled my whole life. I have never even been inside of a school once. My mother used prot Christian materials for schooling. My only social interactions were at small churches and in homeschool groups that my mother made me attend.

I still went to college, got a masters, made friends and now am happily married and enjoying my career. I'm being real with you bro, just go out and DO IT. That's what I had to do. My first year in college was scary, but after the first few semesters you get used to socializing more.

Just do it bro, be a man, or you will regret it for the rest of your life. If I would have never taken risk, I wouldn't be married right now, or be half as successful.

>>81566380
Good to hear it worked out for you anon. Im working on it right now. Ive made friends easily enough though datings been a problem so far. Good to hear its not a death sentence with this background however.

>>81566443
Did your mother personally teach you or did you watch video classes?

Also, are you a Christian? If you were raised in a small Christian community it has it's massive advantages especially for dating.

>>81565985 (OP)
>>81566082
>>81566196
>>81566312
>terrible spelling and grammar
>thinks homeschooled kids have less social opportunities
>Thinks homeschooled kids "spend years never talking to anyone not in their family"
-2/10, worst LARP of the week

>>81566549
I cant post non-ascii and Im a phone poster so apostrophes and most punctuation is unavailable on my keyboard.

My family were fundamentalist christians at the time that I homeschooled. Their reasoning for homeschooling me was so that I wouldnt fall to so called worldly influences such as drugs or sex. so no I didnt have any social opportunity especially since my parents worked all the time so I was left alone in the house to study or take care of my sister. I wasnt allowed to leave the house without family either as my parents were paranoid and thought Id get kidnapped if I went out on my own.

Not every type of homeschooling is fucking great man

>>81566196
>I wasnt allowed to even leave the house
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
HO HO HO HO HO HO HO HO HO
I was homeschooled and I fucking wish I had two days in a row without a trip, an errand, a social event, a sport, a lab, or some other thing whee we couldn't stay home and chill.
Monday
>music lessons with other homeschool kids
Tuesday
>Art lessons with other homeschool kids
Wednesday
>Dance lessons with other homeschool kids
Thursday
>Science lab with other homeschool kids
Friday
>Coop with other homeschool kids
Saturday
>Homeschool baseball/soccer/basketball coop practice or game or both
Sunday
>Mass and squires with other homeschool kids
First Saturday of the month
>Charity event with other homeschool kids
Third Saturday of the month
>Homeschool dance at the social hall
It was never ending.
And COVID?
I GOT TWO WEEKS OFF!
we live in Georgia and that stuff was ignored by the end of week three.
And while it was going on?
Homeschool kids xoom conferences arranged by the parents so we wouldn't be isolated and lonely.

>>81566637
What state?
Pure curiosity

>>81566637
>Fundamentalist Christians
>That never go to church and never do church activities or church socials
lol
lmao, even

23 is young, don't start rushing, all you have to do is not idle and overthink.
>further right
/pol/ is already 99.9% feds and shills, moderate the hypotheticals if you join any Austrian Painting Fanclubs irl.
>started to make my home
New lenses won't be comfortable until they are, but you'll even stop getting too angry spotting a few peculiar wordings every time you're near a TV.
And remember that a few things are a matter of opinion, especially if shills keep making threads against each side of it.
>dated a girl that cheated on me
Shit like that is what made me so paranoid and hard to get, met some unsavoury characters, quite a bit of them, I'm just glad I dodged at least a dozen bullets at this point, I didn't get this bigoted not to try the full white wedding thing.
You don't really have to bang women, companionship alone already fills the heart, take things slow but not too slow and don't be afraid to end them.

>>81566637

>Their reasoning for homeschooling me was so that I wouldnt fall to so called worldly influences such as drugs or sex

Okay, this now screams LARP to me, or you are under aged and exaggerating.

In my personal experience, most kids who are homeschooled (including myself) were homeschooled because the public schools in their area sucked. That, or they lived on a farmer of sorts so homeschooling allowed them to help out in the family business.

Also:
>I wouldnt fall to so called worldly influences such as drugs or sex
Oh noooo you didn't get to fuck a roasty and accidently get her pregnant while becoming a pot headdddd it's so OVERRR

Your parents love you, and tried to protect you to the best of their ability. When you get older, you will see that a lot of public school idiots peaked in their high school years. Focus on the future, protect your virginity, be grateful your parents protected you from the horrors of public school.

>>81566690
This, I highly suspect that you are just a LARP.

>>81566510
No, there was an online curriculum I followed since both of my parents worked so I did that instead.

I am christian, though I dont really go to church anymore as the church we were in at the time was a very strict evangelical church that was probably the root of a lot of the issues Im facing now. Thats the reason why my parents didnt even really want me dating or talking to girls, I never got a real sex ed class either and any of that sort of stuff was heavily shunned or punished in the home.

I have a friend who has been wanting me to go back to Catholic mass (I was born Catholic) but I dont know if I can after that. I view the Lord with great fear that he will smite me down for how sinful Ive been and I think about it often, to the point where I dont even want to go.

Dating even just as a christian alone is kinda tough but this makes it worse. Im going to therapy to help it but its not really getting better

>>81566709
For this:
>>81566312
>not original
Jannies suck my balls.

>>81566725
>therapy
lol

>>81566725
What online curriculum?

>the church we were in at the time was a very strict evangelical church that was probably the root of a lot of the issues Im facing now
I do understand this if real, however you need to separate opinions of boomers from real Christianity & what the Bible truly teachers.

>>81566659
Fuck I wish man. My parents werent proactive and didnt put me in anything. Sure for the first little bit its cool because you can play video games most of the day and stuff but the more you realize youre missing out on being around people or making friends or possibly getting a gf, it becomes demoralizing. Good to hear yours was good though.
>>81566724
I dont know what to tell you, thats what they told me after I was already out. We slowly stopped going to church over internal political issues (family was on the praise and worship band and there was some bad blood or smth) but the ideas behind it stayed. What I said went beyond drugs or sex, sure I missed out on that and am sad I never got thr whole highschool romance experience but its the small shit I really miss, hanging out with friends after school, getting to try new shit, learning to flirt or be around women.

You can say its a larp all day man but I was fucking there, not all home schooling experiences are the same buddy

>>81566725
>catholic
>but not Catholic
>fears hell so much he never goes to church
LARP!

>>81566725
>fears god
>fucked a girl outside marriage
LOLOLOLOLOLOL!
Laaaaaaaame fake

>>81566759
It was a provincial one (Im Canadian) which was its own fuckshow like how none of the material was prepped ahead of time or how much of the assignments were unnecessarily long and it created an issue where many of the students were falling behind because of it.

My folks didnt want to spend the time to put together a curriculum so they just had me do this. It was all asynchronous so no lectures, just textbooks

>>81566675
Canada lol

>>81566808
This is a you problem. You have free will to do whatever. Not a homeschooling problem.

Once again, I highly suspect you are young and just acting out

>>81566846
Its a homeschooling problem if no one is facilitating it/actively discouraging it. How am I supposed to learn this shit or get those experiences if I wasnt even allowed to leave the house?

As for now Im working on it but I find myself feeling stuck. I dont know what I should be doing if anything at all. I have free will but I dont feel free or like I can really utilize it

>>81566882
For one, you can't lose something you never had.
>I missed out on the high school romance experience!!
>I missed out on x y and z!!!
You have no clue if you would've been a chad or not. Stop pretending that you know the unforeseeable future that you supposedly lost.

Bro you have the free will to forge your own destiny. You can stop being a passive observer in life and make some life changing decisions.

>>81566914
Like what? I joined the army, I guess thats something, I really enjoy it too honestly most of my coworkers are cool. Thats the most I feel Ive done with my free will however, I find it hard to find things that can break me out of that atrophied state.

Thats true however, I wouldnt know how I wouldve been and am acting on assumptions. Ive thought about what it wouldve been like for years, maybe Ive just romanticized it in my brain

>>81566953
>maybe Ive just romanticized it in my brain
Absolutely. Look around, people who peaked in high school are mostly losers later in life. Look bro, I'm not trying to tear you down.

When I was younger I had some of the same thoughts as you, but as I got older and began to compare myself to my peers that went to public school, I see no loses.

They have their own baggage both you and I completely avoided. Nothing is perfect, make of your situation as you will rather than romanticizing a fantasy in your head.

>>81565985 (OP)
As much as public school sucks and wastes time kids need to be socialized young and throughout their development. Your parents fucked up homeschooling is guaranteed way to make your son a weirdo. You missed out on too many developmental milestones to be normal now. Best you can do is mask and try to overcome your autism and anxieties through practice.

>>81567033
Thats true anon. A lot of the people Ive heard about that peaked are kind of fucking losers now even only 5 years out from high school.

We shouldnt be asking for easy lives anyways. Its bittersweet but a good thing about homeschool is I feel like Im able to overcome greater mental barriers and problems compared to others who havent built that resilience.

>>81566882
NTA
> How am I supposed to learn this shit or get those experiences if I wasnt even allowed to leave the house?
By being a fucking adult and doing it, you sniveling little punk.