Thread 81572723 - /r9k/ [Archived: 929 hours ago]

Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:14:53 AM No.81572723
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I really dont know how to cope anymore. Ive suffered mental illness for a decade/possibly
my entire life. I live in constant dissociation to avoid the intense anxiety and feeling I will puke at any second. All I can think about is myself and how to escape this hell, which really only exasperates the situation, but it is not possible for me to live normally, and the fantasy of fixing myself is all I have. Ive seen many doctors including a psych ward, and they just push me generic anti-depressants/anxiety meds. They dont give a fuck. It seems to me Im a dead end mentally, and I could not imagine passing this feeling to a child I love more than anything.
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Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:18:01 AM No.81572739
OP here. i love the smell of my own farts.
Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:21:08 AM No.81572753
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>>81572723 (OP)
that sounds fucking awful op, im so sorry...
have you tried exercise, reading, or even just basic breath-focused meditation? even just a little bit of a hobby like that can get the positive chemicals flowing in the brain, which might lead to you doing a bit more or just feeling a bit better for the rest of the day
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Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:22:33 AM No.81572759
>>81572723 (OP)
Sounds like (c)ptsd
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Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:25:47 AM No.81572779
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Get a job
Wash dishes and lift heavy boxes of stuff for money
There are places that will hire convicted felons and/or anyone with a pulse, if you aren't retarded you're already light years ahead of your peers
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Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:26:58 AM No.81572788
>>81572753
Ive done meditation and it definitely helps in the moment. Thank you for the positive message
Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:31:36 AM No.81572810
>>81572779
Im literally moving heavy boxes for a living lol its the only thing that gets me up because I cant neet any longer.

>>81572759
Maybe, I dont remember any traumatizing life events but I guess its pretty common to tuck them away somewhere. From my own research it seems most like a bad case of obsessive thoughts that just feeds itself endlessly
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Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:35:58 AM No.81572837
>>81572723 (OP)
I'm sorry to hear that OP, I wish there was a way I could help. I don't have the same mental illness but I'm pretty fucked up myself.
Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:37:39 AM No.81572847
>>81572723 (OP)
the depressing thought. seems like suicide is the best option for you
Anonymous
6/22/2025, 8:39:48 AM No.81572855
>>81572810
Make sure you're eating right and getting the correct nutrients, use good form so you don't injure yourself
Don't spend all of your money on alcohol/cigarettes/fast food etc
Let the thrill of the fight keep you going tomorrow and the day after that
Anonymous
6/22/2025, 9:17:55 AM No.81573027
Hard to tell what is going on. All I can assume is that you percieve that you are constantly being judged so you disassociate in response. It sucks that modern psychotherapy is terrible. Viewing the brain as just another organ that is a sack of tissue and chemicals is not the way to treat it. I can just wish you luck. You might want to check out Gregory horror show. Sounds unrelated but it felt good to binge that show when I was feeling anxious or lost.