>>81579213 (OP)My first crush ever was a boy. I have not had as strong feelings for a boy since then. I remember being at a middle school party and suddenly wanting to make out with him more than anything in my life. I went home that night and watched gay porn to see if I could masturbate to it, and I could, which confirmed for me that I was bisexual. I confessed pretty fast and he was hesitant at first but eventually returned the feelings. A few months later he told me he was straight. I lost touch with him in high school. Now I'm graduated from college and I learned recently that he makes out with men at random bars frequently. I wonder sometimes if I MADE him gay.