when I think about getting a job/education I just spiral into feeling sick, I'm overwhelmed by anxiety stress and just get no answers or reach any conclusion, everything feels like I will make the wrong choice and suboptimal choice and will regret it regardless and fall short, I am still doing it don't get me wrong but I feel I will just fall short
I don't wanna think about it or care, it's all bull shit
don't get me wrong, I want money and and income but all this is shit

2 decades without a job and only negative experiences in life will do this to you

>>81582590 (OP)
>when I think about getting a job/education I just spiral into feeling sick,

Bro I have a important exam 6 hours from now and every time I try to study i get the urge to take a massive shit it's like i have been molested by a book

>>81582685
> every time I try to study i get the urge to take a massive shit
Lmao sameeee.

>>81582590 (OP)
I think maybe I'm not supposed to get a "job".
I had a series of misfortunes after complying with the welfare office's inquiry about my job-ability and basically feel like they tried to human traffic me. and all their "advice" was worse than nothing.
I also got shafted on a secondhand marketplace deal, got sunburn and had my bike stolen right after.
I'm thinking of maybe not making good on my promise to "keep them in the loop". never relax.

>>81582590 (OP)
>2 decades without a job
Are you 20? You can't count the time you were a child as not having a job.

>>81582754
whatever gets you money, you do
I only need them for summer, then I will return to my studies
doing every thing in my might to not deal with branch of government
just terror

>>81582590 (OP)
Just do literally anything, and be secure and find relief in the fact that any choice you make will be better than continueing to do nothing

>>81582776
you have a literal whore mindset

anyway, work that doesn't make you think will get you out with the smallest amount of long-term damage.
don't do >>81582781 "literally anything" full retard, do whatever gets you out a shit situation absolutely minimally, with minimum contact and thus risk.

>>81582781
Doing nothing is preferable.
I have nothing but hatred and disappointment after decades of trying my harderst only to have fucking nothing to show for it and being in the same exact place if I were to do nothing.
My life would only be improved if I were doing nothing, my advice to anyone is to never fucking try, it's not worth it.

>>81582781
>Just do literally anything,
I am
>and be secure and find relief in the fact that any choice you make will be better than continueing to do nothing
"better than nothing" is not good enough though, here in lies the problem
I dont wanna paint myself in a corner again with no outs

>>81582783
being a whore is better than a hoe
whores get paid, hoes do it for free

>>81582915
how is that possible
I have genuinely not done anything and failed things repeatedly, giving clear results of my life
If I did and accomplished the baseline things I would have gotten somewhere
only make sense if you failed
else it makes no sense
doing shit gives you results