My dad just died today but he used to beat the shit out of me as a kid, so I don't know how I feel about it.
Is it a "I'm glad the cunts dead" or "oh no, my dad's dead" what can I do to clear my head
>>81590679I don't watch him. Did he have a same feeling?
my dad was a massive jerk so idc, dont even know if hes still alive, the last time i saw him he owed my mom 30k lmao
>>81590674 (OP)I think you're feeling the right thing. Total neutrality. He used to abuse you but you aren't depraved enough to shit on the dead.
>>81590674 (OP)https://voca.ro/1ksM4nWbVqeU
Just don't think about it. I don't mean go into denial or be delusional. I don't mean repress it or be anal retentive. Just don't think about it. You've thought about it long and hard, I assume, so what is the point of thinking about it even more? You aren't going to reach some epiphany, you aren't going to achieve closure. There is literally no point.
He is gone now, and will be gone forever, the world will forget him. He has gone to dust like so many before him, just one out of billions. The world will exist 100 years, 1000, 10000, a million years from now, billions.
It is not as though you won't think about it again, you will, but every second of your life spent thinking about it is pointless, and you are permitted to throw those thoughts away and think about the future instead.
>>81590674 (OP)You should be glad, relieved even
>>81590706Yeah I thought I feel alright about it when I'd imagined it in the past but yeah I'm just neutral right now, I've not seen him in a long time & he messaged me a month ago to go have breakfast with him but I was too busy and now that's weighing me down a little, but then again where the fuck was he when that little boy (me) needed his father oh right sat up the pub or using me as a punch bag. Fucking asshole, I shouldn't need to feel bad.
>>81590715Lol i don't have any money or I'd have bought booze & cleared my head that way. I did go for a little walk but felt weird like I wasn't awake, a little dizzy so I went back home
Feel a little better now it's off my chest, thanks boys.
They're going to cremate him so thank fuck there's no funeral to go to, a room full of assholes no thanks
