why do i even still try to make friends anymore? even online is completely worthless.
im too retarded, autistic and inept to be able to talk to people. it never works out.
but im just so lonely that i keep trying over and over again thinking it'll work, like insanity
but the truth is i've never had a real friend, and i will never have a friend

maybe i should just embrace the loneliness, talk through image boards and live by my own presence only.
because im a retard who doesnt know how to not fumble people and doesnt know a single thing about social interaction

>>81592845 (OP)
I've found that I am entirely too critical on myself when talking to people and trying to make friends, it honestly becomes very easy when you're just in the moment and having fun. I promise man it gets good just keep trying

>>81592885
man i frequent discord servers often but i'll tell you, in my nearly a decade on the internet, i dont think i can really say ive had much of a one on one friendship with anyone, like dm together and/or gaming together, its as if im completely invisible, living in my own world. i'll admit that image boards and discord servers can be fun where a ton of people amass, but actual, real friendships have always kinda been just nah.

i do agree with u, i cooul probably benefit form being less critical, but as if that helps.

>>81592953
>frequent discord servers
There's your issue, I get it takes a lot to put yourself out there but it is 100% worth it, maybe try for a rec basketball, soccer, or running league, you'll get not only physical benefits, but also mental benefits, and funny memories to look back on.

>>81592992
my guy, what the hell do you think????
im autistic.
it is utterly HOPELESS for me to even fathom being able to have friends in the real world. oh how i have TRIED. i have not even had a single friend group in school. the last actual friend ive had was in ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. ive done martial arts but the only thing ive done was come in day in, day out, get my taekwondo green belt, and ZERO friends.
i TRY to approach people! and then it just fizzles out 2 seconds after i talk to them and then its super awkward and we never really actually talk again.

but i guess its just as hopeless for me online anyway.