>Stereotypical outcast khv for most of my life
>Never invited anywhere
>Every girl I like uses my lack of self-respect to friendzone me and use me for validation
>Dudes simply avoid me because I'm "weird"
>Desired being "normal" more than anything else, believed that having a gf and friends are whats missing for me to be happy
>Go on really long journey of changing my personality and looks, starting after high school
>Eventually get a few friends
>Few friends turn into friend group
>Start becoming sociable enough to make friends pretty much everywhere I go
>Still too autistic and not good looking enough for anything more than friendzone with girls though
>Workout like crazy, do combat sports, looksmaxx and force myself to use dating apps eventhough I never wanted to use them
>After one year, I get my first gf at 24yo
>Get left after half a year, turns out she's a hoe who plays with the hearts of men
>Back to being single and having no sex
>Take half a year to somewhat recover
>Now more confident in myself and also more experienced than ever when it comes to socializing
>Stopped idealizing love and relationships, barely even give a fuck anymore and just focus on things that can't betray me (like drugs, music, sports and so on), see real love as something that could make me happy but so incredibly rare that its pointless to focus on it
>Meanwhile, I notice people like a friends girlfriend and the sister of my best friend (who is engaged btw) hitting on me

>Also getting along really well with a cute girl I met 2 months ago
>Unlike my ex, she initiates hangouts all the time, insists on paying for me and not letting me pay all the time, seems to actually care about my feelings
>Eventhough I barely ever even text her and dont put any effort into getting closer to her at all (let alone being loving and caring like I was to my ex)
>Now that I'm a "fun" guy who doesn't desire a relationship, a family and all of this shit, they desire me
>Eventhough I got tons of redflags like drug addiction, no car, live with mom, broke, no degree and so on
>Eventhough their boyfriends love them and actually got shit going for them (such as not being addicted to drugs and actually working towards a stable future)
It's like I'm seeing myself from 6 months ago in them. The look on these girls faces, their bodylanguage and the subtle cues in the way they talk when their boyfriends show them affection. They're bored, sick of it, the only reason they're in a relationship is to adhere to social norms. These dudes are fucked simply because they want a normal healthy relationship and love their girl. Life is crazy

>>81596247
>>81596232 (OP)
Yeah it's kinda funny how life works like that.
I didn't become sociable until I stopped caring about wanting friends, then people want to be my friend but I don't care anymore.
People have a bad habit of wanting things they can't have.

>>81596303
>People have a bad habit of wanting things they can't have.
Its literally that. There's nothing women desire more than having the heart of a man. Once they have it, they don't care about it anymore. Why is it that women obsess over abusechad so much? Because he doesn't give a fuck about them. Literally one of my best friends is abusive towards his gf, beats her and screams at her when she annoys him. Shes absolutely obsessed with him, would do everything with him, literally lives in a traphouse with him when she couldve had a loyal man who provides for her, simply because she wants control over his heart, which he will never give away. And I can just tell, if he ever actually started loving her, her feelings would flip like a switch

>>81596247
I knew that post format of "I became a shit person and now woman love me" was just junkie delusions