>have friends, family, girlfriend, education, career, house
>still want to kill myself
why

>>81606098 (OP)
work on your depression

seek help with talk therapist or a psychiatrist who can prescribe an anti depressant

preferably both at the same time so that when you stop taking the anti depressant you wont go right back to depression

>>81606098 (OP)
shit, I'm happy for you.

>>81606098 (OP)
because your life isn't making you feel fulfilled, very common in modern society

>>81606098 (OP)
Fuck off normfag sexhaver, you're not a robot

>>81606098 (OP)
probably kill yourself because that's fucking retarded

>>81606106
Already tried this I have been voluntarily committed into psych wards for long term stay like a month
And I talked to therapists and psychiatrist like three times a day for weeks and they couldn't fix me

>>81606112
thanks anon
>>81606115
might you have any idea why
>>81606126
>normalfag evendoe im mentally ill
>sexhaver
ok true but i only have gf because im extremely lucky not because im attractive or anything

>>81606179
it takes longer than that

really depends on what is wrong.

a hint as to what is causing your depression is in teh negative thoughts you are entertaining.

Something about your life is fucking you up. Unless you have a mental illness. Like bipolar or something along those lines.

Then you just have a shit roll of the dice and need to medicated 24/7

do you know the type of things that worry about your future?

>>81606202
i think there's something just wrong with my brain because ive been on and off depression meds since elementary school
i don't really know what i want out of my life, but being on meds 24/7 just to have a lobotomized semblance of happiness definitely isn't it

>>81606321
I see you refuse medications now

I am gonna explain teh science behind depression okay?

nobody else knows this so dont bother googling.

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Basically there are two primary emotions that run through you brain and stem every emotion you are feeling.

FEAR and LOVE

When you are depressed the balance of FEAR is greater than you LOVE

emotions that are FEAR based are sadness, anger, axiety, etc etc

All of these can environental factors which you need to anaylyze your own life over.

If the enviornmental factor is your brain from a shit roll of the dice. Then you need to SUPPLEMENT with LOVE. As you will have a constant drip of FEAR. from your mental illness.

you say you have been medicated since you were child. So either your life has sucked since then and its been feeding you FEAR. or your brain is fucked with a shit roll of the dice and you will always be fed FEAR.

medications are the easy suppliment. Otherwise you need to work on changing your enviornement to that its supplements you with LOVE.

things I know that feed you love:

>hobbies
>exercise
>medications
>loving physical touch (doesnt have to be romantic)
>cumming

if you insist on going it alone. Then you better fight for your life. And love is your only friend here.

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I'll leave pic related as another source of love but this one is really fucking hard to master

>>81606179
You're supposed to fix yourself retard.

>>81606098 (OP)
Make a child retard. It's not rocket science.

>>81606098 (OP)
Just kill yourself then, no need to think too much if you're dead

>>81606098 (OP)
i know youve had bad experiences with meds but you should talk to a psychiatrist and try a different class. im guessing you were getting ssri's and they really dont work for most people.
ive had success with self medicating psilocybin but thats quite risky.
electroshock therapy unironically can work as well.
apart from that extensive therapy with a good therapist and plenty of regular exercise are your best bet. also get your bloodwork done, vitamin d and other deficiencies can make depressive symptoms worse.

>>81606191
>not because im attractive or anything
I hope you fall into a mound of fire ants, fucking normiecunt

Its really simple, you either don't like these things in the iteration of them you have (gf/career/friends/family) or you have some other unmet need (self-mastery, meaning/purpose, sense of belonging, identity and respect are some common ones). You are never unhappy for no reason or something that resembles "no reason" like a "chemical imbalance", there is always a major reason for why.

>>81606098 (OP)
Because you're a pussy
>work on your depression
Depression doesn't exist, OP is just a weak minded faggot that can't handle the pain of existence, I hope he dies and burns in hell for eternity as his punishment for being a pathetic weak faggot.

>>81607845
>>81606106
Meant to reply here as well