I gave up and started taking SSRIs again...
time to become an SSRI zombie once again, anything is better than my current state.

>>81613151 (OP)
Don't do it bro. Try steroids unironically.

>>81613182
well, first of all I don't know where to get steroid and also I don't want to use them, d-don't they make your penis small?

>>81613151 (OP)
Try to switch to a new Gen antidepressant. Much better than SSRIs.

>>81613192
They make your balls a little bit smaller but not permanently, also they improve your mood.

>>81613151 (OP)
Are you just using them to cope while doing nothing to improve your life? If you don't change your situation nothing will improve.
Dulling your feelings is not a solution.

>>81613194
but don't I need to get prescriptions for that? and doesn't that involve going to therapy? ugh no thanks, maybe in the future
>>81613204
mmm I'll think about it
>>81613215
I'm just using them to be able to get up out of bed so I can improve my life, most days I can't even get out of bed! I'm not using them to cope years ago I did try to use them to cope and it didn't work, well it worked for a month but after that they were making me feel worse.

I just need a little push

>>81613248
You need a psychiatrist no therapy you can just postpone that, I do it even though I'M a psychologist

>>81613295
yeah I don't want a psychiatrist either, I'll stick to what I can already get, maybe in the future

>>81613248
>most days I can't even get out of bed!
Sounds like you have a chronic problem with giving into your feelings.
Why is it that you can't get out of bed?

>>81613362
because sometimes I wake up very depressed because I haven't gotten over my ex, yeah I often give into my feelings I can't help it, it sucks

>>81613450
Wait a second, you're taking SSRIs because you're SAD? I was on your side until this. You're an idiot, anon. You aren't depressed, you're SAD.
Holy shit I wish I could convey how angry you just made me. Like, jesus fucking christ, anon.

>>81613524
no man I am actually depressed I've been depressed all my life, I'm supposed to be taking SSRIs hell I even tried to kill myself when I was 7 and I've tried again many times, this break up just made things even worse

>NOOOO not tej antidepressant!
>u must feel depressed AT ALL TIMES because....... welll you just have to OKAY?

>>81613598
people are very against them because they really are bad for you, but me rotting in my room is even more unhealthy

>>81613151 (OP)
What is your complaint? There are much better and healthier drugs than ssri.

Why do people take antidepressants? Benzodiazepines and opiates are way better.

>>81613559
>I even tried to kill myself when I was 7
Why?
I ask this because the image you're painting of yourself is not that of a person who is depressed, the image you are painting is that of someone who is deeply sad.
There's a key different. Depression is something that happens to people who have no reason to be sad. You know, like a guy who has a good job, a wife, kids, but for some unexplainable reason he's just bleh, over it all. His life is good, but he's depressed.
It doesn't make a lot of sense for 7 year old to be depressed, not to diminish how you felt, though. It does however make sense for a 7 year old to be sad because of some shit that happened and they were never able to get over.
Which sounds like how you've described yourself. Someone who has not learned how to get over things and keeps themselves in a chronic state of sadness because of some inability to metabolize their trauma.

>>81613626
such as?
>>81613628
don't I need prescriptions for that?
>>81613630
because I had shitty parents and I was also bullied a lot I was done with life by the age of 7 but I'm too much of a pussy to kill myself.
hell dad didn't even let me go outside when I was a kid I spent all my childhood in my room alone and sad, my dad was abusive and my mom was just neglectful and on top of that, its like you said I'm not good with letting go, how could I let go of my ex? she made me feel happy for the first time in my life.

>>81613670
See, now that makes sense as to why you'd feel that way. Rather than hiding behind buzzwords like "depression".

It's not easy to explain how you would move past your ex, because in order for that to happen, you've got to start healing your childhood wounds. Not only that, but to you, she wasn't a person. She became a symbol of all the things you didn't have, and all the things you could have.
You can start by realizing that, the way she made you feel, well.. simply put, she didn't make you feel that way. They're your emotions. You made you feel like that. They're your feelings inside of you.
You don't need to move past her, you need to let go of her and what she represented. There's a difference here. You don't need her to feel that way again. You only need yourself.

There's really one hard truth, and one promising truth.
Your parents, although they did a lot of bad things, they aren't who created your sadness. You did that. It's yours, you own it, you created it, and you keep yourself there.
On the flip side, your ex did not create your love, your happiness, your joy, etc. You did that too. They're also your emotions that you created.
So, to move past her, and move past your childhood, you have to accept something difficult to accept, that you create the feelings that keep you in bed.
It's about owning that responsibility over your own feelings.
They are real.
You are not owned by your feelings.
But they're YOURS.

>>81613670
I asked what your complaint is i can give you recommendations based on that.

>>81613976
thanks, I really don't know how to respond to that but I appreciate it

>>81613976
>you've got to start healing your childhood wounds
but, how do I do that?

>>81614031
No problem anon. Just digest it. Sit on it, think about it. Don't expect changes to come over night.
>>81614041
It's not something that can be explained in a step by step mechanical process. But that's what I was explaining in that post. The first step is to accept that your emotions are your emotions. Your parents didn't create your emotions, you did. Your ex didn't create your emotions, you did.
The purpose of this is for you to realize you are in control of how you feel. You are not powerless. You are not at the whim of your emotions and you do not have to let them (your emotions) "win".
But there is a very real downside to this, and it's something you will have to grapple with; it's that you cannot blame other people for your feelings anymore. It's a double edged sword, you are responsible for your healing, but also responsible for your own pain. Which means you'll have to accept the fact that, while your experiences are very real, you are the one doing this to yourself right now. You're the one holding onto it.
And once you're ready and willing to acknowledge that, that is when you will begin to really and truly heal those old wounds.

>>81614204
I see, thanks anon, I'll keep your words in mind

>>81614263
You're welcome.
Good luck out there.

See you on the other side.

>>81614336
thanks, good luck to you too!

>>81613976
You're a good person and a good poster. You must be a respectful person

>>81614457
I agree, he is a nice person