I think we should talk about our feelings in this thread.

I feel consternated.

I am depressed, I need a better job

I hate everyone and want to die.

>>81616349 (OP)

Did you do one of those art exercises where you draw upside down?

I feel the need to shit
>>81616356
>>81616369
>>81616371
sorry that sucks

>>81616349 (OP)
I think I am in love again for the second time in my life and I am scared that it will end like the first time. If there is a god in this world then I will marry her.

>>81616369
What wagie hell has befallen you, anon?

>>81616349 (OP)
I feel really scared. I am moving out of the apartment my parents pay for. I should be happy because I'll be financially independent for the first time in my life, but I'm mostly anxious because my parents are hyper type-A and they get really, REALLY upset whenever things go wrong. I think probably the apartment will withhold the security deposit for some bullshit reason and my mom will go apeshit. Actually, they would have a valid reason to do so: when I went to take the posters off my walls, it tore some of the plaster off too. I have no idea how to fix that. Plus I'm spending so much money these days as I get ready for my big move, and there is so much paperwork to do but I can't right now because I need to finalize the job and I can't do it. I just hate how helpless I feel, it's like being a little kid again.

>>81616492
You have have made it this far, and you WILL make it the rest of the way.

>>81616485
I make $14 an hour at Ace Hardware working closer to 50 hours a week. Most of my coworkers are part time and make like $13
I have had interviews for better paying positions but honestly by the time my off days roll around I am simply too tired to do anything but rest. I am too introverted for this shit but the lack of money is really what makes it suck

>>81616492
just get a $10 jar of wall putty, fill the holes with it and then sand it down with a fine grit sandpaper, hopefully will save you a bit of cash!! :)

>>81616634
Ace hardware be charging like $3000 for a dented shovel on clearance and shit of that nature.

Love niceposting.

I'm happy because I saw my gf and she came to my graduation and I proposed and she said yes

>>81616349 (OP)
I hate my disgusting skinnyfat loose skin stomach so fucking much, i can't wear a bikini or anything low waisted or else my loose skin hangs over it. I feel so bad for being wasian while my boyfriend is pure white. He says he loves me and he doesn't care about it at all but I'm so scared he leaves me for an Aryan stacy. This is literally the only relationship I've ever had and I don't want to fuck it up. The closest gym is 45 minutes away and no amount of cardio has worked, I lost over 20kgs and my stomach is still fucking there, i wish i was a blessed aryan stacy with a snatched waist.

>>81616717
Surgerypill to lose the loose skin or keep crying about first world problems you fucking stupid cunt

>>81616732
Definitely taking the surgerypill once I can work to get the money for it. College first, unfortunately.

>>81616767
You're also crying while there's real femcels out there and you have to boyfriend

>>81616652
That would be helpful.
>>81616622
Thanks a bunch

>>81616802
We were both incel and femcel before we got together kek

>>81616686
Whoa. That's... Real... This is something real in a sea of irony.

I'm not gonna lie, I wish I could live in some void in a nice comfortable bed and be tired all the time. I just want to be relaxed, sleepy and isolated.

>>81617001
Makes sense but good for you!
>>81617084
Yeah I'm real forever always vro

>>81616349 (OP)
I have been feeling like absolute shit emotionally lately. Just demoralizing myself at every turn. Every chance I get. Telling myself I'm not good enough and never will be and that things will never get better no matter how much effort I put into self improvement.

>>81616369
I need a job. Last job I had was so shit but hey at least I was getting paid. I apply and apply but no dice.

>>81616686
Congratulations
>>81616717
Holy menhera. Only thing I relate to is the stomach thing and even then only slightly. I'm a skinnyfat manlet who has been working out lately and my arms/upper body sees improvements but nothing else does. I have a tiny bit of a beer belly and I want to improve it but nothing seems to work

>>81617270
Thank you anon. I'm quite happy.

Cute menhera gf is peak as long as it's not BPDemondisorder

>>81617469
Boy do I have a post for you.

Im stressed and worried. Impregnated a girl diagnosed with BPD after a couple months of dating, she's due in 2 months tops. Have only recently moved out and worried about money since whatever I earn is going to baby care. She has tried to be kind but having read up on the disorder I fear it's just a matter of time before she discards/cheats on /sues/slanders me.

Despite her apparent sweetness I've seen the red flags and beginnings of manipulation/abuse tactics yet I can't run because that'd look worse in front of a judge. Not to mention I couldn't abandon my baby with her like a subhuman. If that's even my baby since of course I'm asking for the paternity test. This is my biggest fuckup in life so far. If I make emotionally poor choices that's my fault but a kid doesn't deserve that kind of upbringing.

>>81617530
I'm a psychologist and (mostly because I'm not clinical) I have no fucking idea what to say or where to begin.

So sorry I really hope she gets meds and therapy to raise that kid right.

>>81616349 (OP)
I feel depressed and lost. I'm never going to be valued by anyone as more than just a tool to use or someone to extract labor from. I'm never going to be more than a background character in my own life.
I will watch short and ugly fucks have gfs and wives because they're normies, while never fitting in with the non-nt crowd either since I'm not their type.
I either die or reign my fate to fulfilling a greater purpose

>>81617530
Nta but I'm sorry to hear that anon. Bpdemons are scum. Normal women won't give damaged guys a chance however and are often boring and annoying, only really putting out for Chads. I hope it is your kid, I hope it's a boy, and I hope you can be a strong father figure to him

>>81616349 (OP)
I'm going through something that resembles a mental health crisis in function but I feel completely dissociated and automatic about it. I'm not going to explain the details of what I'm doing physically but trust me, it's top tier nuts, to the point I won't even post it "anonymously". It's all so compulsive. I feel like a marionette. I still seem so normal, even happy at work, with my gf, etc, then I use my free time to behave unethically. More than compulsive, it's compulsory - necessary, like breathing. I honestly believe I can't stop. My feelings on this, per the OP? Nothing at all, it's like having some kind of weird automatic tic or habit that it just happens would send me directly to jail if anyone knew about it.

>>81617530
You may as well bail my friend, I did the same shit then tried to soldier through it. Lasted almost 10 years. It wasn't worth it at all, though I felt so noble and heroic for my efforts at the time, as it seems you plan to. I wasn't treating her, the kid, or myself right most of the time. You WILL get so fucked up from this that you turn into an awful person who you don't recognize, and there's no coming back from it either. For me, I devolved into serious alcoholism just to make it through every day - obviously no good for anyone. I'm sure you think you're simply stronger than me, and you can handle it. I thought I wasn't worried about some bitch, I can't get fucked up, I'm stone cold bro, I can handle anything. Turns out that was not true. You CAN run, just absorb the child support payments, it's much better than what is going to happen anyway.

>>81616349 (OP)
I am 22 and I need to focus on getting the bag but I can't push myself to do anything and it's not social anxiety because I have pushed through social anxiety before no problem but this wen ever i try anything my body freez and My mind is taking me anywhere else

>>81618010
Have ya gotten tested for ADHD? I wasted years trying to find what was wrong with me or what I lack in willpower and it's literally just a bit of stimulants to fix your life overnight.

>>81617944
Thanks fren. I see you have been through hell. I don't care what happens to me but I want what's best for my kid.
>>81617633
Thanks mate. I really am gonna try to persuade her to go into them. She does take her meds but sometimes slips.
>>81617876
It's a little girl I've unironically named after my first waifu. The mommy issues are gonna be enormous

>>81618027
Yeah I talked to a psychiatrist and told me i have ADHD and prescribed me rubifen witch woked wonders but I can't afford it and I can't borrow money from My parents because mental illness just means you are retarded and nothing else

I feel angry because everyday feel like humiliation ritual.

>>81618103
Even coffee will do. Lots of strategies to deal with it, but in my experience meds do a lot of heavy work that routine and exercise just can't

>>81618138
I am not really a coffee Guy so monster energy here i come other people told me stuff like meditating helps but I am a Zoomer I will kill myself if I am left alone with my thoughts