you guys ever feel like "holy shit, i'm real"
like "fuck me, whatever i do has repercussions"

its like i've just gained concsiousness

>>81622636 (OP)
I usually feel the opposite
Nothing I do seems to matter

>>81622636 (OP)
I was set up to fail by my peers and family members. So all of this makes sense.

>>81622650
well yeah, in the end nothing matters
but we're not there yet, we're right in the middle of it all

>>81622670
what makes sense?

>>81623028
I don't mean "I'm going to die, therefore nothing I do matters"
I mean "my actions never have any consequences on other people, my choices never impact my quality of life, nothing I do changes anything"

>>81623043
ahh, i see
can't relate, too many people depend on me soz :/

all actions have consequences, the people who's lives you've touched are forever changed.