>>81628357"Just dealing" is not really helping yourself. You are in an endless loop, and you need to escape that. Otherwise, you'll keep doing what you're doing until the day you die. It's not healthy. Find more long term solutions. I know it's a meme (it truly is), but therapy could help you to at least talk it out to someone not judgmental and have someone to say:
>uh huh, that's interesting, go on.You could get lucky and get that 10% that will actually help you by CBT with you. Another thing: exercise is medicine. Every time I look at new research, there's always a study that, when summarized says:
>Exercise: equal or more effective than medicationYou just have to find the thing that works for you. Running releases our endocannbinoids. It's like free marijuana.
Just whatever you do: DO NOT EVER SAY YOU ARE GOING TO HARM YOURSELF. EVER. They can commit you to the psych ward for that.