>>81631012 (OP)this forum is kind of the only place i can vent and it comes out in ugly ways
i can't really talk to any of my friends or therapists about how much it hurts being a virgin at 27, any time i have in the past i usually just get the same typical "helpful" replies so i just dont, ive learned to project contentedness, ive learned to seem like im happy single and prefer it rather than let anyone know the reality, that i try every day, so fucking hard to meet a girl, and it never works out.
I go to parties. I go out. I go to college classes. I have a job with lots and lots of coworkers. I'm on every dating app there is. I go to concerts. I go to markets. I have more female friends than male friends at this point. If anything it's the fact that I've learned to overcome my autism and become such a socially outgoing person - and still remain a virgin - drives me stark raving mad
so usually after another flunkout at the club or another party i left alone i just go on here and just say whatever i feel like is on my mind, it might not be the most healthy coping mechanism but its kind of all ive got