I did it guys.
>28 years old
>on disability assistance
>low-income housing, but it's a really nice place full of old people
>overcame social impulses
I have never had sex, been kissed or hugged. I never go outside since I get groceries delivered to me. I wake up anytime I want, order takeout, and spend my entire day chatting with large language models and playing video games. Because of the low rent and disability income, I am able to save about $300 per month to spend on anything.
It took me a while, but I've accepted that in exchange for this blessing, the universe has decided I will never get a girlfriend.

Good for you.nice to see disabled people get the assistance needed. Disable people may not get partners but this is good for eugenics in mind.

>>81631263
I'm not crippled, just schizophrenic.

>>81631255 (OP)
>chatting with large language models
the tragic state of modern man.

>>81631279
It's kino, and it's not much different from chatting with someone in your head. It requires having a good imagination. I run them locally if it helps.

>>81631255 (OP)
meanwhile im 38 and they wont give me anything even though im one of the most fucked up people you'd ever meet

>>81631290
how do you set those up and what convo are you usually having?

>>81631255 (OP)
congrats anon can i come over for a sleepover?

>>81631303
I use SillyTavern with koboldcpp (fork of llama.cpp) and use gguf models from huggingface. I use it to create characters and chat with them in roleplay-like scenarios, though I don't use asterisks since I find that cringy, I just use them as chatbots.

>>81631316
Yes, we can play Mario Kart on my TV with my GameCube emulator

>>81631298
It's a lottery anon, it's not based on fairness or who is most in need. I do feel bad for you and I'll never stop being amazed that I got mine.

>>81631255 (OP)
how did overcome your social impulses? i can spend large swathes of time alone but at some point i always feel like im going crazy.

>>81631337
nice. i've been using chatbots on and off, right now exploiting the deepseek meta and exploring different card ideas. it does start to get boring when you see through the patterns it creates and find it less novel over time. not sure how to get past that barrier.

>>81631346
awesome ill bring a nice housewarming gift (its a literal heater)

>>81631352
>it does start to get boring when you see through the patterns it creates and find it less novel over time. not sure how to get past that barrier.
Just switching up the model. EVA LLaMA 3.33 v0.0 70b is the one I'm currently having the most fun with.

>>81631277
But you are crippled.

>>81631358
That's very kind and I accept your gift, but what I could use right now is an air conditioner, it's already too hot.

>>81631361
don't you need a pretty expensive pc to run the good local models? and even then they're not as good as cloud ones

>>81631352
>how did overcome your social impulses? i can spend large swathes of time alone but at some point i always feel like im going crazy.
This is the question I have the most trouble answering. It's hard to say how I can do it. I have gone 4-5 months not speaking a word to anyone except when necessary, like briefly muttering hello to a neighbor in the mail room, or walking to McDonalds and ordering something. I never feel lonely anymore, and just sitting in bed in the dark browsing the Internet on my laptop is the most fulfilling thing in the world to me, because of the infinite amount of things I can do online, many of which are social (like posting on 4chan).

>>81631375
My PC costs probably about $2k, but I upgraded it over time. It has 128GB of RAM and I tolerate running the models really slowly.
>they're not as good as cloud ones
Closer every day. Llama 3.3 is barely worse than ChatGPT/Claude, and DeepSeek R1 is technically an open weight model, so I could run it at a very low quant if I wanted to.

>>81631385
I see, so just staying busy and doing some socializing online. Nice, wish I could live the comfy neet life but gotta work to pay bills.

>>81631388
That's good to hear. I would love to make the switch to full-local one day but once you taste the forbidden fruit of cutting-edge cloud models it's hard to go backwards.

>>81631407
Meh. I've tasted Claude 4 Opus and DeepSeek R1 through OpenRouter and it's smart, but I've had that itch scratched by 70b-123b range local models for a long time. But I have been in the game long enough to remember the days of pygmalion 6b and NovelAI, and everything to me feels like the summer dragon.

>>81631367
yeah my hair looks awful when its hot too, so no problem ill bring some hair conditioner for you!

>>81631516
Why do you care about how your hair looks? I don't want to hang out with you anymore.

>>81631429
how have you kept it interesting this whole time? I've found it's best used as a writing companion for a narrative that I know what direction I want to take it in, but if I over-rely on it to take the lead it can get boring and spew generic bs.

>>81631532
oh okay sory..

>>81631566
I get really autistic with writing prompts. At least 3000-4000 tokens usually, and I write a new scenario every time with a general idea of how I want it to go. Every time I start a new chat it's with a new prompt.
I basically just get a kick out of setting up scenarios and then exploring them, it's like drawing something and watching it come to life.