Thread 81639255

I am broken beyond repair. I cry daily now. And I can't find the will to do anything at all.
I have always been depressive. Now I'm at my limit. I feel like an empty husk, like a walking corpse

>>81639255 (OP)
what led you to this point anon

>>81639262
A broken heart, seriously. I'm done with everything.

>>81639255 (OP)
>I cry daily now.
I sincerely hope you're not a male.

>>81639278
How long had you been together?

>>81639299
I am.
I don't ugly-cry.
I used to rarely cry out of nowhere. But now, when I think about certain things at night, my eyes get very watery and a tear or two drop from my face.
It doesn't last long. I watch something in order to distract me. Or try to sleep. But I went from it almost never happening to a daily thing.

>>81639299
Not OP and I'm a woman but damn I hate when people say shit like this. Men cry and have feelings, and no anon, bottling up yours and then bursting out in anger doesn't make you less emotional than a guy that cries every day, get over yourself

>>81639319
Few months. But that isn't the point. I'm just done

>>81639255 (OP)
I'm sorry anon
But check this out

>>81639358
Amazing. No longer suicidal.

>>81639278
Same thing happened to me. I cried for months and I completely lost my shit when someone I was trying to befriend ghosted me.
The entire world seemed gray to me and it felt like I wanted to vomit my heart out but step by step I came back up

>>81639376
>I cried for months and I completely lost my shit when someone I was trying to befriend ghosted me.
I meant ghosted me after the heart break. That's not what made me ult

>>81639353
Why did you guys break-up? Can't you just avoid repeating patterns?

>>81639330
What's crushing you the most?

>>81639402
>Can't you just avoid repeating patterns?
It wasn't something I did.
I won't say more. But it wasn't the fault of either of us.
It's not just that we broke up. It's how deeply I loved her. I never had loved like that before, and I don't think I can do it again.

>>81639255 (OP)
Take vitamins. Zinc, magnesium, vitamin d, vit e, vit c, b complex, fish oil, selenium.
Good luck god bless.

>>81639255 (OP)
First world problems, this is so sad hope your broken heart doesnt starve you to death

>>81639427
That's cum turbo-booster pack.
>>81639404
The frustration. The loss. The fact that I see her in everything I do. The fact that I don't want anyone else. The loneliness, and the thought that I wasn't enough.

>>81639422
Was it incompatible personality types? Either way anon, there's always someone out there. Since he left me I haven't been the same either, but if I stop holding the belief he was really that special, it will be over. No one is really that good, it's all in your head. Focus on yourself and your loved ones

>>81639422
>I won't say more. But it wasn't the fault of either of us.
Then fix it retard.

>>81639422
That's gonna suck for you bro, girls get over this shit 10x faster than males it's just science. She's gonna be hopping on some other dude's dick in maybe 4 months max, and she's not even gonna remember your face

>>81639502
No it's fucking not, no one ever forgets their first love. All women's type come from their first, believe me

>>81639449
They have plenty of food in third world countries though, all paid by the white man

>>81639466
>Then fix it retard.
Anon... that's why I'm frustrated. I would have become president if that's what it took to fix it. I would do anything necessary. But it wasn't enough.
>>81639459
No, it wasn't. We had so much in common, that's why I love her.
>focus on yourself
Ha
But thank you for the encouragement, anon. I hope things get better for you. I don't regret loving her, even if it hurts now.

>>81639255 (OP)
>I cry daily now
I wish I still could do this, I wish I would feel melancholy but instead I just feel disgust with who I am and regret a lot of decisions that have me led to the point of writing this.
I hope it gets better for you.

>>81639522
>No, it wasn't. We had so much in common, that's why I love her.
>It wasn't either of us faults
Well damn anon what happened then?

>>81639522
>But it wasn't enough.
Then it's someones fault. If it truly is no one's fault then someone is being retarded and ruining their relationship for nothing, so it's either you or them.

>>81639541
Sorry. Won't share.
>>81639561
I am retarded, yes. I wish things were different.
The worst part is that I know that my sad demeanor probably makes her feel bad. And I don't want to do that. But I can't help it.

>>81639633
Dude just get your shit together and reach out to her instead of being a sopping wet cat. If you guys were really all that similar and loved each other so much it can't be over over

>>81639255 (OP)
things will get better anon, just keep pushing through and eventually you'll move on and learn to be happy on your own.
maybe one day you'll find another girl you like even more than your ex.
it's okay to cry and that doesn't make you weak, it makes you human.
keep fighting pilot, here's a choccy milk for you :3

>>81639633
Physically go see her IRL and fix things, if you are being honest about both of you liking each other and no one being at fault. There is absolutely zero reason not to.

>>81639422
>It's how deeply I loved her
>her
Why are there so many fags on this board?

>>81639633
>Sorry. Won't share.
There's no reason not to unless this is a giant larp.

>>81639665
based and titanpilled

>>81639663
>reach out to her
I have been doing this for months, anon. It's been dead silence. I am a mess now, but only after trying everything. I spergged out a few times, but she always knew I'm retarded. And that was only after a while of trying more normal approaches. Lol

>>81639457
>That's cum turbo-booster pack
Yeah can be but helps with depression too mate.

>>81639678
Show up to her door with a diamond ring and the deed for a house?
>>81639710
I do have an insane vitamin D deficiency. I have less than 1/3 of what a notmal adult should have.

>>81639753
>Show up to her door with a diamond ring and the deed for a house?
Who asked for that? A diamond ring can come after you fix things if you two reach that point where you want to be married. No, just talk it out in person. People don't listen and can shut off their brains through text.

>>81639779
I was just kidding lol
Yeah, maybe

>>81639789
Just do it already instead of pining for your lost love.

>>81639878
I wish I could kek

>>81639255 (OP)
I'm sorry anon, there is no hurt quite like when you're good on paper with a person and you really like them but it still doesn't work out for whatever reason and she's not a bad person either so you can't hate her.
At least now you can look forward to the future where you have hopefully moved forward, grown from this experience and started thinking about her less.
It might seem hopeless now but humans are meant to persevere and adapt to situations, you will feel better soon.
You will love again.
I'm going through the same thing right now internally and I'm thinking of just breaking it off for good before it gets to this point

>>81640061
>I'm going through the same thing right now internally and I'm thinking of just breaking it off for good before it gets to this point
What do you mean? Are you thinking kf breaking up with someone?

Thread was encouraging. Thank you anons. I hope she comes back. But I'm not as sad now, you helped.

>>81640073
Yes, it's a complicated situation

>>81640307
What's the issue? Don't give up anon.

>>81639913
You can and should. No more excuses. Get on it.

>>81640311
I just don't feel appreciated for the work I put into the relationship and I don't feel like the other person cares or puts in as much time as they used to anymore.
Which is fine, things happen and people change. Peoples feelings change.
That person is still a good person, I still respect them and wish them the best.
I'm just tired of crying over it and thinking of things I could do to fix it that will eventually lead to nothing.
It's complicated because they haven't really done anything wrong but I can feel that they don't feel the same way anymore and that they're just waiting for me to pull the plug.
I tried to not give up but a few months of the same thing is slowly making me resentful and I don't want to be that person.

>>81640446
It would be more productive talking about your needs to your partner, so they know what they can do to make you feel appreciated. That's way better than blindsiding them with an unexpected breakup when they think things are going well. Especially since they haven't really done anything wrong.

>>81640397
Ldr, anon...

>>81640524
There are these wonderful inventions called cars and planes.

>>81640561
Yes, but I can't show up to her hime unannounced.
I would go. But that is too unhinged. I even saved up enough to go before we stopped talking. I still have the money.

>>81640485
I will, there just hasn't been any opportunity to bring it up to that person.
They definitely know they're hurting my feelings with their behavior from conversations we've had before where they promise to be better and then go back on that promise time and time again with their actions. I wouldn't even be upset if they didn't promise those things.
That's true, I guess I didn't think about it that way. I need to give them the benefit of the doubt. I've been seeing their actions as intentional when maybe they weren't.

>>81640637
Honest communication is always the best. Don't be afraid of hurting each other, just think if your intentions for a comment are to hurt them or not.

>>81639255 (OP)
Have you tried having gay sex?

>>81640589
You said you'd do anything, so maybe give them a heads up or ask to meet them in a public place where they live.

>>81640829
>You said you'd do anything, so maybe give them a heads up or ask to meet them in a public place where they live.
she's not talking to me, anon. I can't give her a heads up. I legit would do it in a heart beat if said yes. If she responded. I reach out everyday.