i want to kill myself every single day and nothing helps at all and everything makes it worse every time, i dont know what to do, i have nobody in real life to talk to, therapy made it worse, meds made it worse, excersise isnt helping, nothing is helping. i need to die. i want to die.

>>81640489 (OP)

i know. life is fucked up anon. i hate god and everything. i hope you can find something that may give you a little joy like hookers or drugs.

>>81640517
i think im going to kill myself this winter by freezing in the cold

Become a martyr for a cause. Take a few people out while you're doing it. Literally just pick anything cause. You don't actually have to believe in it.