Why is there no escape from my pathetic life? Why can't nothing get better? I hate real life and that's why I rely so much on connection online, I literally can't make my "bf" happy because I didn't cut his name into my arm and thought my cute doodle (on paper) was shitty, even though I stated before that I'm not okay with cut signs, I hope he doesn't use /r9k/ and is just a larper (because we met through a 4chan like server I was in and then got banned from because I wouldn't shove a brush handle up my pussy) I try to make him happy, but I just can't satisfy him, I just want to be in a world where people actually love me, where I'm not deep in depression, I feel delusional for wanting that.

He even said that he hated me (we've known each other for two days btw)

If your bf wants you to cut yourself dump that groomer and report him to the authorities

>>81642437 (OP)
My personal reaction to that information

>>81642467
I love him though, I attach to people for emotional support quickly which is something I need to work on

>>81642498
And how much emotional support does he give you?

>>81642513
Barely any, he only asks me for nudes and sexual favors, that's why I called him "bf" in quotation marks

>>81642521
Does that make it feel real? Like, if someone offered you kindness for nothing in exchange, you'd think they were just making fun of you?

I want to ask why he hates me even though we haven't known each other for a fucking week.

>>81642557
All I can tell you is that acting this servile will never, *ever*, make someone like or respect you

>>81642555
That would honestly be perfect, someone who loves me and doesn't expect sex in return, I can tell that my "bf" is manipulative because he says that if I don't do something for him then I don't love him.

>>81642437 (OP)
hey anon, i was in your last thread, still praying for you, don't worry there are lots of anons like me who want things to get better too

>>81642575
EVEN THOUGH I DO, I REALLY FUCKING DO EVEN IF I SEE HIS SHITTY BEHAVIOR AS SHITTY

>>81642591
You already know everything I could tell you. Ask yourself, what did you want when you created this thread? Sympathy? Solutions? Validation? An out?

>>81642574
Oh, I had to look up what servile meant, but I am a people pleaser who will do anything for someone to love me even if it hurts me, which is very much something I need to work on

>>81642637
I wondered if someone was going through the same thing as me and needed solutions, also this is a vent to here because I don't want to tell my friends about this.

>>81642675
>I wondered if someone was going through the same thing as me and needed solutions
It's /r9k/. There definitely are
>also this is a vent to here because I don't want to tell my friends about this.
That's perfectly fine. But if you have female friends you trust completely, I'd highly suggest you reach out.

>>81642437 (OP)
You should stop eating shrimp with these wimps and come eat lobster with a monster. ... No seriously, those people are demons, stay away from them.
And yes, there is an escape