What were the women in your upbringing like?

I'm starting to believe that almost all men that are losers/incels had abusive women impact their upringing.
For example
>Mother was emotionally abusive, occasionally physically abusive
>still very manipulative and toxic
>Consider my sister to be a childhood bully
>Aunt has always been very condescending and demeaning towards me
>Cousins very obviously look down at me, only just now are starting to treat me like a human

This has led me to exclusively pursue women that are willing to deal with my insecurities. If they are not extremely patient, forgiving, gentle, loyal, and supportive then I begin to fear them and distance myself. It's like I can't be with anyone who isn't just a robot programed to love me unconditionally. I'm only just now managing to somewhat undo my fears towards women.

women in my life / family were not abusive, but all the women i met after turning 18 were assholes

>>81648870 (OP)
Older sisters were bullying me. I have four older sisters and 3 constantly bullied and berated and nagged at every little thing I did and still do. Oldest one who was married by the time I was born, never did but tbf I barely saw her growing up. My mom was an angel however

>>81648870 (OP)
Mom was turbo crazy drug addicted BPDemon
Have 3 younger half-sisters.
Got along with oldest fairly well, but lost contact with her during teenage years
2nd oldest mom lost custody to the father, only really interacted with her off and on throughout my life. Wasn't weird for there to be 2-3 year spans I never heard from her.
Youngest is 16 years younger than me, I have mostly acted like a surrogate father when I happen to be visiting my mother.
Step mother and I were like oil and water when I was younger, we did not get along at all.
But she seems to have melloed out a fair bit and I have gotten more mature. Nowadays dad calls me her drinking buddy when I visit.

>>81648870 (OP)
Parents divorced pretty early mom was super abusive and crazy, sister was also a bit abusive

I was raised almost exclusively by women and they all treated me like shit because I was the only "dumb stinky boy" around. Now I just prefer for women to leave me alone, it's annoying that every new female coworker eventually has to ask why I don't talk to them.

>>81648870 (OP)
almost all of the women/girls in my life were extremely kind to me growing up, i think it was detrimental to my development honestly cus i didnt have anywhere near the same amount of positive male influences or friends in my upbringing

I'm a loser and yes Ive had plenty of abusive woman in my childhood. A lot of it comes down to that unfortunately.

>immigrant mom divorced my dad cause he quit his accounting job and downgraded to retail
>she got diff bfs throughout school
>they were always more manly than my dad and I felt like I got my dads loser manlet genes
>huge age gaps in her relationship older white guys
>mom would tell me to be more like them than my dad
>meeting her bfs children they all mog me in every way
>hey anon my dads fucking your mom haha
>mom forces me to be religious but shes a whore
>have no deep connection with either parent

>>81650542
>mom forces me to be religious but shes a whore
why would she do this?

>Mom would range from nice and overly affectionate to dismissive and sometimes violent
>even after she stopped hitting me, kept wishing I was taller, taking about how it'd be better for me to be fat instead of thin because that's more masculine
>talks about treating a woman well and providing and all that
>always felt like the nice parts were just a mask for feelings of resentment and not living up to expectations
Well, at least it gave me some insight into how women think, and it makes being single forever feel like a blessing more than anything else.

>>81650583
she goes to church every sunday, forces me to come

>>81648870 (OP)
>Mother tried her best, but was mostly emotionally distant and cared only about me going into the military.
>drank often, but now I understand why
>Aunts (bio-dad's side) treated me with contempt, with one in particular calling me a 'demon,' a 'devil,' and a 'terrorist' over the course of one summer simply because I wasn't quite like the other kids/cousins
>Aunts (mom's side), virtually non-existent. I visited her sister and her two kids one summer, but not again because there was a shootout nearby and I looked out the window instead of ducking for cover
>female cousins: got to screw around with one for a bit, but it was non-penetrative. We weren't blood-related, so it's fine. We don't talk today though.
Interesting thread idea.

>>81648870 (OP)
Grew up with a single mom until she died when I was 10. She was super emotionally abusive to me and berated and yelled at me over the smallest shit even when I was little. She really did love me and showed me a lot of affection but when she didn't give me that she could do everything she could to wear me down. After that I lived with my grandma and she was nice but she was retarded and never did anything to try to make me into a normal person. My other grandma was also a sweetheart but was not as involved and babied me way to much. Ever since I've been a mousey little autist with no self-esteem who has never had a girlfriend or fucked. I feel like I will never have a person who will really be close with me, make me feel safe and love me for who I am and i live in contstant terror of the world around me and inside myself.

>>81648870 (OP)
women my age were mean to me, my mom was emotionally neglectful but older women (as in girls in their 20s and 30s) were nice to me and called me cute, I had a good relationship with my female cousin we were pretty close growing up.

I don't hate women btw I'm just answering the question

I need to preface this by saying that I hate women.

>>81648870 (OP)
they all ignored me for the most part, until a tomboy was into me.
ever since ive been into dominant women,

Yes op your theory is true

My mom is a little bit crazy, smashing head against wall type of crazy, eventually spitting and hitting people. But my grandma and my aunt are fine, i need the three of them or i would kms immediately

mom was nice
aunts were nice
had no female friends or acquaintences though so when my cousins (older, younger, and my age) showed me attention and liked me i developed my first fetish