>try to fix my life
>watch conspiracies
>start thinking everything's satanic, can't even walk when it's dark or sleep well, start thinking my soul is corrupted and i want to join the evil side.

Seems like religious thinking is not for me. I'll go insane. Seems like I'm too inherently mystical and fearful to believe in this shit without taking it too far.

>>81650663 (OP)
I generalize those around me as enemies or those who have what I dont and use it as motivation to achieve things. I live off of envy and pursuit for justice.

>>81650663 (OP)
right if it doesn't work and it fucks with your mental health maybe it's not the solution. i suppose some people could be hepled by the strict rules connected to some higher objective like religion but if you go schizo with it it may not be the best idea.

>try to fix my life
>watch conspiracies
kek

>>81650700
haha i dont know seeing the world controlled by psycho satanists lit a fire up my ass but i cant take it, its too much

>>81650663 (OP)
>>try to fix my life
>>watch conspiracies

Fucking what?

>>81650846
>have no life purpose
>world is controlled by evil niggas
>now i have to be virtuous, stop jacking off, help people etc

but obviously comes with despair, dread, powerlessness anxiety, paranoia etc.