>what do you want for your birthday?
>what do you want to do for your birthday?
>where do you want to go for your birthday?
>what do you want to eat for your birthday?
Why has this been difficult for me for years? It may be the lamest first-world problem of all time. My mind will draw blanks and I'll freeze up, or I juggle a bunch of options and settle on nothing until the last second when I force myself to pick one. I'll have a decent birthday after that, but I never learn to prepare for next year. Everyone wants to help me have a nice day and I become the asshole leaving them hanging.

>>81651000 (OP)
go out drinking one day

ez fun

>>81651000 (OP)
>want
to be left alone
>do
sleep
>go
nowhere
>eat
nothing

i hate birthdays, a looming reminder of all the years i've wasted
my birthday is next month, i fucking dread that shit

My birthday is in two weeks and my family is already calling asking me what I want to do. I can't tell them suicide, so I guess we're gonna go for a meal and they'll ask me what I've been up to (nothing).

>>81651013
But go where and do what? There are three ways I can see to do that, and they're not very appealing.
>go with family to a restaurant that serves drinks
>try my best to be prosocial and participate in small talk
>more focused on eating food, enjoying the drinks, and waiting to go home

>go to a bar, alone
>maybe try to socialize but mostly sitting by myself drinking and twiddling my thumbs
>shrug and go home after a while

>go to a bar, supervised
>anyone I try to interact with is gonna notice someone keeping an eye on me

>>81651829
>a looming reminder of all the years i've wasted
The lead-up and day of is certainly underlined by the lack of movement.