ryan and his wet farts edition

>>81651221 (OP)
Everyone below my post is a humongous faggot.

>>81651230
ryan don't be shy.. i know you want us all to get a BIG. JUICY. WHIFF

I MUST SNIFF

no escape from my stinky wet farts, foids

dykebots grandma pants

>he's got a horsie
ARREST HIM!
>he's working
ARREST HIM!
>he's ugly
ARREST HIM!
>he posts on 4chan
ARREST HIM!
>he's got a crush
ARREST HIM!

dear anon reading this
i hope you have a good day fwen, i love you
- me

talk to him gracie

>>81652352
oh.. i can't escape you

ooooh graaaacieeee pleeeeeeeaaaaase, can't yooouu ssseeeeeeeeee

>>81651248
You talk a big game but I can almost guarantee you that you'd be biting off more than you can chew. Don't fear the BRAP but do respect it or it'll be the last thing you'll sense before going to sleep for the last time.

>>81652352
Thank you brother. You too, I love you

I wasn't a fan of tofu but I just made a tofu-chili using smoked tofu (much more chewy in texture for a ground meat mouthfeel when crumbled into the stew). Combined with a bunch of champignon mushrooms for extra umami flavor and it's pretty close in taste with the real thing without all that animal fat. Bretty good but beware of the BRAP.

>>81651221 (OP)
Waiting for Mike to ruin this like he always does, it's surely his goal, someone in these threads must have hurt his ego in the past or something.

>>81656084
I've chambered some heavy ordnance just in case he returns but I think he's smart enough to stay away this time.
This kind of chemical weapon will melt right through any filtration system and kills, instantly. The only chance of survival is slowly building up a tolerance to these toxins over a couple of weeks but it's an odorous process.

>>81651221 (OP)
Um weird my name is Ryan and I'm experiencing wet farts due to fasting

>>81656084
How about not summoning him? But yes, someone here e-gaped him back in 2021. Probably gave him what they call "narcissistic mortification". Instead of using that chance to heal and get in touch with reality, he spent the next couple years deluding himself and in the end his narcissism won and here we are. I think he's immune to mortification at this point, he's actually cooked. It's a little bit sad but more funny than anything.

>>81656270
Did you take moda by any chance? Moda+Keto = wet shart central.

>>81656316
I know it's crazy but I kind of miss him. Not enough to read his rambling again but still. Maybe he went into dehydration mode?

>>81656420
No I've never taken whatever that is. I always get wet farts when fasting tho.

>>81656432
Why am I so attracted to frieren?

>>81656473
No idea, she looks cute?

I think now would be a good time to reflect on what a bunch of bullies you are and how you have no moral standing with anyone because you are literally sociopaths. Accumulating credentials won't change that. It will only impress other bullies.
You truly aren't fooling anyone. You aren't even fooling yourselves. When you pretend otherwise, it is *pathetic*.

I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I genuinely might be pregnant. I'm taking a test tomorrow to be certain, but this is the worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I cannot stop panicking. I can't breathe. I know this won't be met with much sympathy and I understand why, I just needed to get this out there somewhere because I am so terrified.

Notice how the only "spam" and filler is made by the narc to attack, belittle, mock, and be cruel towards me. Samefag tactics to create mob intimidation.

With this I am going to write a letter. That is the purpose of this thread, the thread that I am the one who often creates it for others to dwell in, to reach out to their person. To find connection and kindness from others.

To the letter thread,
Reading your letters I often hear you cry out, not just to yours, but the hurt you are feeling and the feeling of not being seen, understood, and cared for in such a simple thing as acknowledgement of that hurt from your person.

I want you to know you are seen. You are heard. If not by your person but by others hear who share in your feelings.

To be responded to is to be heard. That is a comfort others do for each other hear.

Unfortunately there is an individual who comes hear to manipulate, attack, threaten, to seek emotional turmoil through larping and driving emotions involving your personal information from your letters. He attacks me because I see when he narc larps and same fags to harm others. That is why he dislikes me being hear. Because I stop his ability to harm.

What I ask of you, my fellow letter thread companions, is to continue your letters. You can still Ignore his attacks or band together to drive him away, but it is more important you use this place to connect to others, that is why we are here in this "forum". To share with each other.

When I respond to your letter it is because of this.

I wish everyone (except the narc larper) the path forward to qualm their hurt, to bring resolution with their person, hopefully fulfillment and love.

If you write to me asking a question or seeking input to heal, understand, these posts to each other are in fact letters.

To each other,

Mike

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https://youtu.be/uG7u0HRwn2E?si=lV1mVyJgwuA58cUz
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>>81657088
Why would it not be met with sympathy?

I feel sympathy for you. All you want is to be heard. I heard you and I know you do not know me, but I am here for you, even just to listen and sit next to you.

ain't no one reading all that shit lmao

You guys ever notice how narcys use the same terms and insults that have been used on them in the past? It's as if they made a mental note like so:
>"Words that hurt people"
>"I know for a fact that they work because they hurt me"
One can train them like puppies. They become an extension of you. Nooticing this also gives you feedback on what things have injured them, if you just met them. They give you the blueprint on how to injure them.

Actually you can call me a sociopath, narcissist, whatever, and I won't care because I'm a normal human who does have a soul.
I think you must be projecting, but what do I know. Apparently you're the psychologist.

>>81657110
You're a middle aged fat faggot with bitch tits.

Bringing up sociopathy/psychopathy when no one ever calls them that, just because that's what they want to be. Every time.

>>81657615
Them they them they them they.

No moral standing. None. Whatever rationalization or deflection you want to try, it doesn't matter. No one cares. Everyone can see it, including you.
Try this: Just STFU and stop bullying people. There's your way forward.

>>81657110
Mikey-boi, didn't you plan to take some pills and dehydrate yourself a few days ago? Not blaming you for being alive but I don't like it when people pretend to be suicidal to get sympathy and then chickn out like that. Why are you still coming to this well? There's no water here for your kind of ilk.

Definitely not Maria.

Also, nice reddit spacing and using "hear" instead of "here" to trigger my tism. Multiple times, even. The gall.

PLAP PLAP PLAP PLAP GET BULLIED GET BULLIED QUEER PLAP PLAP

>>81657650
It's not really bullying if it's contained to THIS FUCKING THREAD you fucking tard. Gangstalking someone across all kinds of venues is something entirely different but you're too dense to understand this, right?

>>81657681
Here's how it works:
>"We're us, so fuck you."
That's their morality. They think that anyone with different morality is just faking it.

>>81657641
>xhe actually read it

>>81657110
Thank you and dont worry Mike, those of us who are real can see through the narc lies and evil intentions

>>81657694
Reminds me of a group of bible-thumpers with their convoluted value system that isn't based on logic. It's so tiresome.

>>81657716
Actually no, I noped out after a couple of lines because that wall of text is just too fake and gay. What do you take me for? A Mike's-wall-of-text-enjoyer?

Why do narcissists always accuse everyone else of being a narcissist?
Genuine people rarely throw out this insult, but it seems like the first word out of the self-absorbed these days, how very strange.

>>81657719
Yo Mike, you should change your posting style if you're going to same-fag like that.

>>81657777
Did you say: "Pose as a narc?" "POSE AS A NARC???"
You might get this reference if you're a fan of Dick.

>>81657777
narcissists recognize other narcissists and they're natural enemies, literally on sight, dummy

>>81657777
Nice quads, checked.
Funny that you mention that. The first narc I've encountered was all like "oh, you're projecting" and shit. Turns out you are spot on with narcs call other people narc to deflect from themselves. So glad I don't have to deal with that turd anymore.

>>81657991
You mean mike? He just posted a wall going on about narcs and shit

Can someone give me a QRD on who Mike is and why anyone cares

>>81658008
No, mine is an ex-colleague who pretended to be an engineer while being an average tech at best. He compensated for his lack of technical skill with dirty tricks like social engineering and using his "friends" to bully me tho. It back-fired. Hard.

>>81658042
He's a schizo wall-texter who endlessly talks to his "Maria" who is either dead or doesn't want to talk to him but he's not getting the message. Check the archive for more details but between me and you, don't. Definitely not worth your time.

Basically, Mike is an LLM that a bunch of dweebs used to pretend they're special before LLMs really caught on.

>>81658042
Mentally ill spammer
Refuses to go away
Loves maria
Maria doesn't even speak to him
He thinks she speaks to him through pop songs lyrics
Politely explains why he's not annoying to people whenever people call him annoying (which is a sign of something, but we know I can't say what illness, what cluster, what type disorder, we know I can't say it)

Dear Adrijus
I miss you I miss you I miss you please come back I do not know where to contact you I love you please use me rather than abandon me. I know you said I need to stay alive until December but how can I do it without yo
Sincerely your Hina

>>81657088
I know it's scary, but it will be okay. A thousand generations of women before you went through the same thing, regardless of what your circumstances are. Even if you regret the way it happened, I can promise you that you'll never regret the new life you may be creating. God equipped you to handle this moment in time.

>>81659419
Kind of strange that she isn't getting consoled by the father of her potential child tho, isn't it?

>>81659702
Of course. We are don't have to make excuses for risky behaviors and the consequences of it. She didn't ask for approval, after all. But circumstances are what they are now, and she's scared. Lately I'm trying to be more compassionate to people, even if I might disapprove personally of her choices.

>>81659780
I'm with you on that but relying on internet randos instead of people irl is still kind of fucked. I guess I'm not helping with this comment but I don't know her. Let's hope she has some irl people in her life that are just not available at this moment.

>>81657558
The narc knows who he/she is.
This is all based on actions that the narc has done and now he/she is treating others.
If you are making comments like >>81656215
>>81656215
>>81657594
>>81657939

I will judge you on your cruelty towards others.

Be kind to others (including me) and you will be treated kindly in return

>>81657638
This is words to the narc. I agree completely

>>81657641
I did and had a suicide attempt. I don't take kindly to being accused. I have been honest. Fuck off with your falsities and negative assumption laid on me. It is cruel.

My phone auto corrected the word. Gboard accuracy for typing has turned into shit on my phone so basically it auto corrected almost every word.

>>81657719
Thank you for your acknowledgement and speaking up against the shitters. I appreciate you.

>>81657791
This is what I'm talking about. I have signed with trip every one of my posts here and do not same fag. The narc does this and is such a shit person they can't imagine others to not be such shit like him.

>>81657991
Attempts to paint negativity on me. Fuck off. I am honest and those who take the time to see me for me know that.

>>81660419
Come on, that fart-post was funny and not really mean, was it? I just didn't want you to come here as you're constantly getting egged on by people much more nefarious than me.
Interesting that you ignored the post about the dehydration plan of yourself tho. Interidating.

>>81657088
>I am so terrified.
Stupid roastie. You get what you fucking deserve

>>81660482
Mike, you NEED to touch GRASS!!! The last post was definitely NOT about you!!! It was about some morbidly obese fuck who did enjoy torturing me when I was the "new one" in my current company who got fired for mishandling funds and sabotaging my work.

Is this that weird MBTI person that larps as an autist to make fun of real autists? I'm smelling a familiar pattern.

>>81660482
You don't have the emotional capacity to attempt suicide. You are incapable of the type of introspection that leads someone to doing that.
At best, you felt backed into a corner so you made a half-hearted attempt in order to secure narcissistic supply.

>>81660558
I KNEW it was YOU!!! I knew you were lurking here, like an internet panther, ready to pounce.
I'm not that Mike dude if it isn't obvious.

If Mike found a monkey paw in the past, what kind of wishes do you think he made?

>>81661255
>If Mike found a monkey paw in the past, what kind of wishes do you think he made?
Well, we know he didn't because he doesn't have his Maria

>>81658079
Fuck you.

I'm an individual who unfortunately is continually harassed by this fucker.

I don't care whether you know me or not.
I only ask that this fuck fucks off and focuses on their own shit.

I am not schizo.

Maria is my person I write letters to, just as everyone else writes letters to their person.

The difference is I am harassed by a narc fuck because I point out when he is larping and targeting others to emotionally manipulate them. He can't stand not being able to hurt others here and believes if I'm gone then it's his playground of abuse.

>>81658105
I am not mentally ill. This is an attempt by the narc to influence others opinions of me.

He is an asshole manipulative piece of shit.

He same fags and acts like multiple people that hate me and say horrible shit about me. It's 1 person. I wish he would fuck off and mind his own business. If he has a letter to write genuinely he can write it. Instead he stalks and harasses me, making posts about me, and attempting to manipulate others view of me.

I do not think she speaks through music. This is a lie. I have never once said this.

>>81661914
Will you finally just kill your fucking self or what?

>>81660486
How about you keep your negative words to yourself.

>>81660558
Fuck off. You don't know me and are just being an asshole who is attempting to make others think this of me.

I have spent many years working on mental and physical health. More than anyone else I have known. I work hard to understand and grow as a person.

The only one backed in a corner is you because this is all you can muster to try to influence how others perceive me.

Fuck off. Write to your own person and don't write to me unless you are kind, have supportive input.

>>81661914
>Tells others to keep to their own business
>Narcisstically assumes that every post is about him because he's the main character and other people don't exist in his "game".
Jesus Christ how can one person be so fucking dense, ffs?

>>81660550
Again, fuck off. All your second paragraph does is attempt to influence others to perceive i am some ass hat in another thread.

You know I have my trip on because of people like you so everyone always knows a post is mine.

>>81661932
How about you keep your cruel words to yourself and swallow your own poison?

Write to your person and stop harassing me.

>redditspacing
another mike classic right into the trash

Alright, officers, I've tried my best to get him to correct his ways but he just won't listen. Do your thing with him, I'm fucking done with this.
>"He's a tough nut to crack".
Yeah, no shit, more like impossible to crack without applying torture (in minecraft). Fuck this (please excuse my French) shit.

Call me crazy but I can feel it...is it possible? Can he be buckbroken into mortification once again? It's his, and the letter thread's, only hope...

>>81661981
You can't seem to keep your negative manipulative words in attempt to make others perceive me differently to yourself.

It is clear what you are doing and honestly is shows what a pathetic spineless child you are.

Take a timeout and stop throwing a tantrum yelling at me from the monkey bars. This isn't middle school.

Literally write to your person or stfu.

Don't write about me further. Any additional negative words about me from you only shows your intent to be a narc fuck.

>>81662018
NTA but you were literally suicide baiting less than a week ago because you confused yet another obviously unrelated attentionwhore with your schizo-limerence Maria. I didn't want to make fun of you too much at the time on the off chance you went through with it, but jesus fucking CHRIST how pathetic.
I really hope this whole thing is a preciousleaf-tier LARP.

>>81661981
Layers upon layers, an onion of cope
No one has the energy to keep up nor do they give enough of a shit to correct him on every point
That's how
The last time someone actually went at him without letting him off the hook he left for 2 years with his tail between his legs, couldn't be me though, dgaf

>>81661967
How exactly do you work on your physical and mental health? By grooming dumb molestation victims online and being a fat narcissist? lol

>>81661255
>Mike wishes for all the narcissists he's ever encountered in his life a slow, painful death.
>Mike get's really bad sepsis that is antibitoic resistant somehow, and inevitably succumbs to his infections.
>It doesn't even register to him during this that the wish would effect him too.
>r9k loses like three posters due to the wish. One of them being Mike.
>The quality of the board increases marginally.

Does does Mike do half the things people say, or are they associating others with him and making shit up because they dislike him? Curious since he seems to do nothing but talk about Maria and assume everything is about Maria, but not much else.

I remember earlier this year "some anon" from here told me I was green with envy or some bullshit for pointing out how schizo and off the rails Mike was. She claimed I wish I could fly as high as he does and accused me of trying to create a narrative around him being mentally ill.

Where the fuck are you NOW, Anon? LMAO

>>81662233
I'd say it's 90% true based on how he treats people in the threads, and archived posts regarding his nasty behavior. 10% of it is embellished. He just isn't that interesting. It's just annoying when he lashes out at random people who he thinks are talking about him when they are absolutetly not doing that. He'll respond to someone clearly writing about someone else. Using different names entirely, and will accost them like a schizophrenic in a wal-mart convinced the shelf stocker is gang stalking him. It gets old. And annoying.. So people understandibly shit on him for his behavior. Just the way it goes. Act like a fucking retard. Get treated like one. Or in this case, a spiraling narcissist who unironically thinks every post is about him, and his unique situation. Causing him to lash out at random people stopping in to write a post, or a regular poster.

Lots of based takes in here lately

>>81662379
A lot of shut the fuck up.

this is an abysmal letter thread

>>81662449
>A lot of shut the fuck up.
You mad?

I hate you all I hate you all I hate you all I do everything I can for you and you spit on me for not being normal and happy like you

>>81662484
>this is an abysmal letter thread
When exactly in recent memory has there been a good one?

>>81662486
Fucking obviously you dumb fucking cunt.

>>81662501
Literally kill your fucking self you dipshit. You have no fucking problems at all.

>>81662560
>Fucking obviously you dumb fucking cunt.
ahahaha gg fag

>>81662567
Shut fuck up bitch go choke on small plastic parts you're mentally too young for... Retard

>>81662100
Fuck off. I was having a very difficult time. No need for you to be an asshole

More manipulative narc to say how I feel about her is limerence when I have specifically said it is not in the past when you tried to manipulate percievement of others towards me. Again. Not schizo this is only more narc manipulative percievement to say I'm someone I'm not to make others think bad of me.

You are pathetic. Spineless narc.

No need for your words. They are only more clear manipulative attempts.

Stfu

>>81662132
I've only taken a break for several months before. You don't know me and are just casting shade. No need for your words. Swallow your own poison and stfu

>>81662144
I do not groom and am not fat.

This is only more negative manipulation attempts to influence how others see me.

Why would I discuss this with you? I don't like you and have no reason to. Fuck off and stfu

dude lmao he's in full meltdown

>>81662233
I did have a suicide attempt. The rest is a narc samefagging and acting like he is multiple people because he is butthurt about what a fucktard he is and can't handle not being able to narc and manipulate others here.

>>81662697
He'll pull thru, maria knows he's a good person o algo

>>81662702
So, you failed your attempt? Why are we not surprised?

>>81662248
I am thankful for her. With how much you talk about me it's clear you were here to suck on my heavy balls.

Go on, open up and show me what a little bitch you are cunt.

>>81662714
You and she would be perfect for each other, Mike. I genuinely mean that . . .

>>81662344
Fuck off with your lies narc.

How about you stop talking about me

You are the problem. You create posts about me and spam here.
Stfu and I won't have any need to respond to your lies.

You choose to make lies and throw a tantrum that one believes you so you keep spamming same fag

How about you write a fucking letter, the actual purpose of this thread.

Or do you crave to suck on balls so bad that you can't handle your micro penis prejac and make little squirt squirt cummies on your panties?

>>81662379
The only based take is that the narc is is a pathetic spineless little bitch that has bruises on his knees from now much he swallows my loads.

The only reason he stalks me and lies about me is so he can look at me and open his mouth begging for my cum.

>>81662522
It would be nice if the narc would stfu so there is no need to respond to his childish tantrum samefagging. I think he needs to take a nap.

>>81662697
Only responding to each of the narc faggots lies and attempts at manipulating how others perceive me.

>>81662776
Mike lmao I don't think people perceive you the way they do because "the narc" is running a campaign against you ..

maybe it's because you're a narcissistic shitter who keeps spamming and schizo'ing?

>>81662804
More lies.

How about you stop spamming about and at me and write a letter to your person.

I was very clear in the letter I wrote today. How about you read it again.

If you don't want to do that then stfu and focus on your own life instead of obsessing over getting my attention so you can get another dose of my juice. >>81657110

>>81662850
>I was very clear in the letter I wrote today. How about you read it again.
LMAO fuck your letter I ain't reading that garbage

>>81662865
kek he thinks people read it

>>81662745
>How about you write a letter wise guy?!
>Proceeds to make a dozen posts throwing a temper tantrum instead of writing anything remotely close to a letter.
Dear Mike,
You're a fucking retard. Who also happens to have NPD. Not sure why everything is about balls, and cum with you. Maybe you are also homosexual? Maybe Maria is actually trans? Don't know. Don't really care. I think it's hilarious that in one breathe you will claim to have 20+ years of psychology experience. Then in the next try to.. *checks lore* "Dehydrate" yourself to death.. Yeah.. Maybe 20 years as a PATIENT!! Fucking dumbass. Maybe Maria left you cause you're so focused on having sex with men?

Why, THE FUCK, wouldn't they put the drugs on my desk? They gave me a disappearing cat, a UFO, altered all kinds of songs, artists names, hallucinations of the craziest shit like a spaceship coming into my room videos of light on my wall, altered all the maps of the world, gave me knife fighting skills, my mom and dad have gone completely fucking retarded, my brother is a soulless dick, when I'm making "homemade" drugs that DO NOTHING they remove them and replace them with fucking coffee,

AND

They literally put a bag of drugs on my bed. They just put them there. On my feet for me to pick up and put on a table. When I opened the bag there was my old medicine of CLONIDINE (which is suppose to be generic for Klonopin 1mg) and it turns out it's all of the sudden a heart pressure medication of .2mg. What the fuck is that shit? Why can they just alter that and be "Welp, there you go faggot. Mystery drugs that do fucking nothing because you don't have high blood pressure."

So yeah. put the real drugs labeled HYDROCODONE 10mg on my desk tomorrow morning. Or have them just spontaneuous appear here because that wouldn't be out of the norm now fucking would it?

>>81662804
Anon, no, it's true. I'm Mike's puppet-master spending all day concocting and spreading vile lies about him over the entire clear and darknet because I'm the devil. Mike's pure heart and nobel intentions make me absolutely crazy with envy and drives me to do all kinds of shenanigans to basically ruin his life in covert ways but I guess I've underestimated his superhuman ability to see through my deception, which infuriates me to the utmost degree.
Why can't I be perfect like he is?!?! Why God, WHY?!?!

>>81662865
>>81662871
Then stfu and stop making posts about me.

>>81662906
Dear liar narc,

I dont have npd and am not gay.

Swallow your own turds and die,

Mike

>>81662906
Still less posts than the narc obsessively posting about me and attempting to manipulate others view of me with his lies.

If he would stfu then there would be no need to reply. I would of only had 1 post today.

Mike, at one point you have to realize there's no "narc" stalking you or whatever and the truth is some people are just fucking with you because you're obnoxious

>>81663197
sounds exactly like something the narc would say

Hehehe my post got a double response. You know it hit extra hard when he does that.

>>81663355
>Hehehe my post got a double response. You know it hit extra hard when he does that.
lol indeed
I'm still trying my best for a Mike triple

>>81663369
I think if you phrase it as a letter that get's good results. Hits his programming just right. Like he needs to respond, but also reply to the letter post itself. Which causes a double response.

Alright guys enough Mike-posting for now. I just woke up with this shower thought that just came to me in my sleep.
Peter Thiel is a god and you have a moral obligation to invest in his company Palantir. Let me explain.
God-fearing normies are getting controlled to be on their best behavior via the meme of the all-seeing "god". But this meme doesn't work on non-believers like these pesky atheists and smug agnostics? How do we keep THEIR basic drive for evil in check? That's right, constant electronic surveillance and judging all their actions with AI based algorithms. You have to give them vague hints to let them know they're being watched but it has to be done in a way they believe they were able to see through the veil of deception for this to work effectively. We need this machine-God to put the fear of God back into the minds of these heathens since faith in God is on the decline in the population, making it harder to control the peasants, I mean, to help the population to resist the temptation to do evil shit like overthrow the ruling class or, shudder, see themselves as.... masters of their own lives!
Is there a more nobel motivation in investing capital than the betterment of the general population? I think not!
No wonder there are smear campaigns against Peter Thiel painting him as the Anti-Christ! We will NOT allow the population to be misguided by forces of evil that disguise themselves as forces of good! Not on my fucking watch!!!

>>81651221 (OP)
Where's the cute schizo did he leave?

Remember, pretending to be retarded still makes you a fucking retard. How many times does that have to be said?

>>81663801
>How many times does that have to be said?
I don't know. How many?

I recommend pretending to be morally opposed to trolling and making a huge soapbox of it, when really you're just disgusted at what passes for psyops these days while you're perfect crime-in' it instead. Got to make sure the rookies know their place enough to stay in line, but question it enough to provide great entertainment - while simultaneously progressing through the secret Chosen One elimination contests, of course.

I mean.. I guess they aren't truly elimination based if you're only forever relegated to court jester once you've failed spectacularly enough. Sorting process, morelike.

>>81664038
Sometimes they take themselves out, counterpointbeit. Though that's no responsibility of the producers.

MEDICATIONS, take them

Anon is right, honey. Pop that BlueChew and get over here. Nefarious plots always get me in the mood.

You probably won't notice but I removed you as a friend. Not because I dislike you or because I am mad or anything like that. I genuinely do not know if you even see the messages I send to you. I'm afraid. I don't want to have the thought that I'm bothering or pestering you anytime I send you a message. I'm afraid that I'll go to send you a message and I'll see that you unadded me. Again. I don't want to keep worrying about that. I don't won't to worry if I'm wasting my upload bandwidth to send you things you won't even look at.

I wish you all of the best and if we happen to cross paths again one day I hope we can do so on good terms. It's been real.

Can you guys take a chill pill? As IF anyone's reading these retarded posts on this basket weaving forum.

So my plan to make you guys stop following me around by posting weird shit didn't work, huh? Do I have to go full retard or what? Step back, give me space. I feel a big one coming and I don't want you guys get hurt.
Seriously tho, do I not get any credit for holding off on my explosive joke for last April fools'? I feel you guys owe me one but whatever.
Btw, you don't get to make me act like a good boy AND ostrish-size me simultaneously.

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https://youtu.be/xOapZcxi2P8?si=ANr93vKQYFy2MK_E
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Maria
Once I hear your voice tell me that you see me for me, know me and I trust me 100% over this place then I will let go of hear and then narc can say whatever he wants and I won't have to take care of it because we will be in communication again on discord voice/cam.

Us over all else.

>>81664148
No hard feelings on my side, anon. I've seen your messages sprinkled in like chocolate chips on a poop sundae and I was always delighted about them while eating around the copious amounts of poop. Don't stretch yourself out too thin, ok? You were going pretty hard on yourself the last time I've checked on you. Take care.

>>81663801
I guess I have difficulties grasping the core concept? I blame.. the teacher!

>>81664022
You think I'm joking? You think this was me TROLLING?!?! This is no laughing matter. This is serious business. It shall all be revealed in time. Patience, fren.

>>81664430
Mike have you drink any water this week?

>>81664619
His "suicide" by dehydration didn't work out and we're all shocked that he turned out to be an attention seeking liar. Again.

>>81664619
Wrong thread retard. Go back.

>>81664619
I am going to answer your question as if it was asked by her.

I feel I should and it's better to trust these waves instead of distrust them. It may be the only way home to shore.
Here is the answer to what you wanted to ask but couldn't.

I don't play by the world's rules and will answer the question you couldn't ask, but wanted to. The one you feel so much stronger than the ability to communicate.

I will be honest with you and tell you my truth. It's long but that why the truth is rarely communicated, taught by the world outside of us that there is a negativity to sharing that complete honesty.

But Im not writing to the world, now am I?

I'm writing to you...

So I'll tell the truth, my truth.

https://youtu.be/0-aZxeG1mas?si=SueXNU3Sa1Y2aHFj

>>81664861


https://youtu.be/ttum1g_-5PM?si=_ExUrHgprv0VqiKA

You know those filler questions?
The ones said with no feeling behind them and no care to what the answer even is?

"How are you?" "What are you working on?" "How has your day been?"

Everyone uses them and to be honest I detest them. Empty words for empty answers.

But then there are the times where they are asked honestly with the intent of truth behind them.

When feeling overwhelmed by feeling the power of that truth. Just outside of it and any question typed couldnt really ask what you truly want to ask. It would be too much to type and the fear of mispercievement high.

But still, something needs to be said because you want the truth. You care and want to say so. But would it be too much? Could you lose it because you were too much too soon? Too fast?

To ask the words you truly want to ask. The ones that reflect your truth and theirs. But typing anything else feels dishonest. It's not what you really want to ask .it feels wrong and you hate it. It's upsetting not being able to be honest, completely honest. Isolating and hurt.

But something has to be said. Because it matters, overwhelmingly so. There's so much you want to know, to ask, to say, but you feel the current circumstances won't allow a path forward if said. At least that what everyone outside of you says. Judges you for the way you feel, the way you love.

So with your heart heavy but full of care, you ask with a meaning behind those normally empty words

"How are you?"

Hoping to not be misperieved, judged, decided that because of your question and giving time and space to answer that it is thought to be disinterest instead of you truly caring, giving space for them as they said they needed to process.

>>81664906

https://youtu.be/acYvqt0iZOQ?si=ZbSuUwpAANrtu5Fi

Now the answer. What could I say? If I don't see you behind those normally empty phrases then even if I feel the same I may turn away misunderstanding you.

The answer? "How are you?". To be honest would type a lot. Too much. To say the truth. How you truly are, is too much and picking just a part of it feels like a affront. So the response chosen even if felt is enough is short and doesn't actually reflect your whole truth, that truth the other loves and doesn't see I'm your response. It pushes them away. It makes them think you changed and they lost you.

>>81664951
https://youtu.be/pvsQ1Mvnue4?si=nLWj0koIU8edE-oC

So I ask you,
Is that the question you have or is it what you felt is okay and "safe" to say, with hope my answer is somehow conveyed. Maybe relying on inference is all you feel you can do at this time.
Still why does is it so painful not to be able to say what matters, your truth, to be honest and talk in your voice. All you want is to feel safe and accepted. Maybe he will hear my question behind what I felt I didn't have any other choice but to ask. Maybe the response will show care for me. Understanding of me. That it will qualm and soothe that need to know, because you care, and just can't say it.

>>81651221 (OP)
Dear God

I hate you for making me a sea monkey and for giving me a tiny penis. You make my life even more difficult than it already is. FUCK YOU GOD!

-Sea monkey

>>81664989

https://youtu.be/bbm9Z25HyOw?si=k7kCXieNMwgxstWZ

You will never hear the truth unless you ask with your truth.

inference is an assumption on the other.

Only each other's voice is true

Can you hear mine?

>>81663367
>>81663367
Who was he talking about

>>81665014

https://youtu.be/QJlP4C2wr68?si=EsuA-Lx_Ck9c_2jd

I don't want to withhold my voice with you

I don't want to be unable to show you who I am

I don't care about the game,

I care about you.

And here we are, in this place.
Where we struggle to be seen and heard. Understood.
Perceivement left to be influenced by poison air.

Where feeling is not safe.

Where it is mocked, ridiculed, and used against me in larps, lies, manipulations, mischaracterizations, impersonations.

So let's act like I never said what I needed to say and you never asked what you needed to ask.

I'll withhold my voice, what I want to tell you.

I'll say the truth, but strip all emotion from my answer and give it to you hollow.

To answer your question alone,

I stopped for 2 1/2 days, total 58 hours.

I looked up some things and the pain scale was not correct. I am in very physically healthy condition and it would take 9-17 days and be much more excruciating as each organ fails over time.

>>81665084
The music i posted reflects how I feel.

Please listen to each song with each post.

telomere lateen ex

I was hit by a cyber truck

figure that one out

>>81665155
Sailing against the wind, against the storm, defying what others define as the end, going towards or away from an ex.

Maybe both

>>81665155
It is not a resistance to, but a persistence of

A form of faith in the one (your truth), despite everything and everyone else telling that it is wrong.

That it is dead, and it died for a reason. To divide that is illogical, to believe in that love despite all the voices around you screaming how wrong it is, how it can't be done, and even if it did happen it wouldn't be okay because it's not something the world around you will accept, that there's something wrong with you if you do accept it.

It died long ago, at least apart you could physically see and hear.

But you know it's real, so you sell forward, against the storm, against the wind. Until you find it. He has despite not seeing and hearing it, you know it's there. You know it's true because it's your truth.

Let the boat capsize, let the waters take me, drown and hurt, because without my truth I'm bound to that fate already.

Without my truth that's all it is. The life drowning gasping and searching for air that is farther and farther away as I sink.

>>81665275
Then with that depth of emotion, that depth of understanding not just of yourself but the truth in the other. The level of faith and strength of that faith held in belief of the other despite everything else.

You feel hurt because something meaningless impacted the other enough to cause them to flinch, and the fact that they became bothered enough by this thing feels mocking, and belittles how you feel.

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>>81665289
I can feel your anger. Upset. That kind that almost resembles shock, there are no tears and you feel numb. Stripped of all emotion from it. But still you recognize that you are incredibly upset, level 10 off the deep end really fucking upset, That kind that makes you shake uncontrollably but at the same time tense every muscle and cry out.
But it's confusing because there's no emotion to it right now, there's no feeling. Only numb. You dread when The hurt does come for you, but you recognize that it's already here It just hasn't made you hear the words yet that will Make the waves hit you. Push you underwater.

>>81665330
There's so much I want to tell you, I want you to know. I have that same feeling when said you feel porn is really harmful. That I agree with you. I have the exact same feeling and that I'm thankful you told me. Have that same feeling of wanting to put my foot down and say if you want to hear what I feel, which is pretty personal and I feel this is not the place to discuss it, I want to discuss it with our voices in a place that is only ours. That I don't like apologizing and having big discussions over text. But just like before if I say that, Even knowing that we feel the exact same way about each other, want the same thing with each other, that I have a fear that I absolutely detest and hate that you will misperceive what I I'm asking you to do by asking to talk to each other with voice, see each other, communicate and work through it with each other as close to in person as we have so that we can have the rest of what matters, each other.

So do I tell you what the silence feels like? Do I say any of those words in this place to you?

Or do I hold my tongue and say some filler words

Because that's all I am able to say despite wanting to say so much more

The way forward takes both of us communicating with each other.

There are things I need to do that you need of me. I want to do that for you, for us. And yes even for myself. Do you think I want to live with those faults? The ones I'm blind to for reasons known or unknown to me. Do you think I want to make you feel that way? I don't know how to express in words how much I love you and what I would do for you to make sure you are okay. What I would do to comfort you and love you.

And there's things I need of you. I need your communication, I need to hear your voice and to see you. I need your commitment, love, faithfulness, and priority. I need everything that we both wanted and told each other we wanted with each other.

I don't always know what to do

But I'm always willing to try for you

So I responded in truth to your words, those that the storm in My perceivement of your trip being
Erp onions (psi) op

So tell me who I can trust, how I can perceive these words truthfully and actually hear you when this is what is presented? That my feelings are reaction to not just the silence and distance, but what is seen from you, what is said by you.

We are both to blame. And again I don't feel heard and understood here and I personally have difficulty perceiving perspective through text form. I can understand how you don't understand how that can be when I can take something little and find your truth in it, see you past the silence. Understand how you feel when no words are said. Interpret a riddle, consisting of so little to see how you feel.

All I can say is it's always been that way With me having difficulty with perspective with text. Having assumptions consciously or even subconsciously because of past traumas that influence how I perceive what is written. I have a history of doing that, I have put a lot into trying to work through it and a lot has gotten better but I'm telling you that I have difficulty with it and losing you because of it is a high percentage.

I need voice and to see you. So I'm asking that this time you stick around and work through it with me so we can grow and get what we both want with each other. All that matters.

I'm not happy with certain decisions I've made. I don't know how to sincerely apologize in a way that you will hear me and see how I feel. To know I'm telling the truth and these are things that really bother me and I am not kind to myself when I think of them. I don't know What the words are that you will read and understand that if something is upsetting you that I did that it upsets me just as much. There's always circumstances and reasons at the time. But even when it's justified, if the action taken is something that upsets you then that is something I carry and I'm cruel to myself over. If I could go back and take a different action knowing what I know now I would have. Not because I hurt me, but that I hurt you.

I could keep confiding in you, but I think I want to end the night with asking you a question. Something for you to ponder with me and something I wish for with you, both ways.

What is acceptance?

>>81651221 (OP)
https://youtube.com/watch/jetFQ4-40vQ?si=s_30paLFkzwO1-Un

>>81663828
>>81664559
God damn you faggots are retarded.

>>81666213
Hey this how they treat me at work frfr and how my online friends/acquaintance treated me.