How do you guys cope?
if im myself im annoying
if im reserved im boring
if i share my interests im obnoxious
if im quiet im cold or rude
I tried making friends online for years and got nothing from that. I tried irl and still nothing

Either something is fundamentally wrong with me or human connection is a myth

Im always too much and not enough at the same time im fucking sick of it

I have 0 friends 0 dates the only thing i have going is my dream job and corporate america ruined that

Id genuinely rather be dead than just sit in an office for 40 hours a week. I dont think I can keep doing this shit.

Is this all thats left of life? Go to work come home prep for the next day? Watching coworkers leave me out of meetings? Be forced to act excited and happy about mandatory fun meetings? Listen to them talk about their vacation home in the fucking bahamas while I skip lunch to save money?

Get criticized for not showing up to optional meetings? Commute when I could do the job remotely?

Whats the fucking point of working 5 days to get 2 days off? Whats the point of trying for years only to still be rejected?

The moment you let rejections stop affecting you is the moment you start truly living

im sorry to hear all this fwen, i wish i could help but ive given up seeking people out. im so tired of being inadequate

>>81659900 (OP)
>or human connection is a myth
It mostly is just an ideal sold to you marketing of movies and television. Like Chuddha says just stop caring. What you want is an unobtainable fantasy. Most normalfaggot's "family & friends" are just codependent transactions of passive aggressive light bullying and exploitation because they can't handle life alone. Learn to like your own company to handle life solo or rope.