>>81666286If you had enjoyed it it would have been no problem but is the money really worth it? It beats being broke but from the john perspective, doing whore after whore, never knowing their name, never actually getting satisfied, it is just an empty existence. Sure, with a whore or prostitute you get straight to the point but then everything else from the small ways they try to pretend to be into it, the bullshit small talk, knowing you're just a client, repeatedly, different faces, same game. It is like being fed flavorless rice that has all the nutrients and minerals you need but it is lacking spice, variety, actual substance, you're just getting fed to survive. I don't mean to go on this rambling. I don't know how actual whores do it.
If your future husband is alright with you being a stripper, they might be alright with you having sold sex under very difficult circumstances. It is easy to say that you should have just gotten a job and done it the right way but apples to oranges. It isn't like you enjoyed it or did it because you wanted to do it. You only slept with 2 men and regretted it. If you had been a whore/prostitute for 2 decades straight, and slept with 2 thousand men that might be a completely different situation.