>>81670363 (OP)Tell me about it.
Every time I let my true self out around a girl she gets mad at me for 'being negative'.
Like I can't talk about how our society is or the way that makes me feel with anyone, they get mad at me for not pretending everything is perfect when it isn't and being honest about finding people and society frustrating to deal with. Or worse, they think it's political. No, I hate the politicals more than anyone else. They are the absolute worst of us, and there's so, so fucking many of them now.
It's like everyone is in the grip of this pervasive, socially acceptable toxic positivity where you're not allowed to point out that some things are just kinda shitty. They don't want to see, they would rather live in denial. I can't do that shit.
Even goth and alt girls are like this. I figured those'd be the kind I can be honest about not liking society or people much with. But they're probably the worst for it.
I wish I could meet someone, start a nice little family, and just be myself instead of having to awkwardly avoid talking about the way I really feel all the time. I wish I could go out to dinner with someone and enjoy complaining about the people there and the socially acceptable things they do that are fucked, and have a good time laughing about how shitty people are together. I wish anyone would just once be like 'yeah man, shit kinda sucks, I get where you're coming from, it's okay to feel that way, I feel that way too.'