Can we talk about this again? It's comforting knowing we're not alone. Let's discuss the psychological and spiritual nature of this rare type of autism. It's what I observed in myself and referred to as 'primal modality' as opposed to the much more commonly known Aspergers, and as others have pointed out, used to be diagnosed as ADD/ADHD and/or loosely referred to as "Pervasive Developmental DIsability- Not Otherwise Specified"

>>81686915 (OP)
I posted this thread before poorly summarizing PDD-NOS and Aspergers to point out the stark difference between two types of abnormal somehow both categorized as autism.

>>81686922
>>81686915 (OP)
And I can relate to this other poster in that, when reading Elliot Rodger's writings, there was a recognition that he thinks about himself in a similar manner as I had when younger, and also had the same type of writing style as I recalled when making private journal or blog posts during high school and college.

He or someone else also pointed out how Elliot had sensorimotor difficulties in crowded places- in high school hallways, at house parties, etc. where he wanted ot fit in and be sociable, while at the same time, find it had to even walk when there are constantly people moving around and blocking your path.

But as I've often reflected on 4chan, the main difference between my development and that of ER was that I developed self-awareness. After being in different schools and workplaces, plus actually talking to people and listening to they feedback, not emotionally reacting and taking everything as an insult, I figured out that the issue is actually me, I am very different, and appear strange to normals. Didn't get formally diagnosed with autism until 30 though,

>>81686977
Whereas Elliot likely had some kind of narcissism as well

I'm an autist NEET shut-in who hates socialising, but I crave sex. I fucked escorts in my 20s, but still never had an unpaid fuck at age 38.
My ideal fuck-buddy is an older woman who can't get pregnant, so I can creampie her constantly. Lots of kissing, massage and affection.
Sadly, I cannot get even that. My life is wasting away. Women stare at me sometimes, but say nothing. Sometimes a smile. I can't talk unless they talk. I get likes and matches sometimes, but they never lead to sex. I am unwilling and unable to date. I wish a woman would just take me to her bed.
Sadly gotten desperate enough to consider being sucked off by fags and topping traps. It's depressing.
Had five women claim to be DTF this year and they all ghosted me.

>>81686922
i'm the latter type and ive never seen anyone articulate that. i'm very cold, everyone dislikes me irl because i ignore people. i'm not very interested in sex either. don't really have any interests, i do the same shit daily.

>>81687194
>hate socialising, crave sex
This is the conundrum, because women always view attraction/dating/intimacy as a social activity. Men like us can be pretty much asocial in life, we don't get much enjoyment from conversating with people, but the utmost pleasure from just physically being with women that look and smell beautiful to us. I still can't wrap my mind around how complicated human society has made the whole thing, it should be just like a man and woman notice each other, if they are mutually attracted that can start hugging and kissing naturally. But no, you prude people had to make it so complicated, can't just be mammals acting organically, have to start talking and then tlakt and talk and talk and talk some more before maybe doing more than talking, or just making plans to talk some more another time at best, if even. It totally makes sense that you would just go find a woman who is selling what you want rather than go through the whole convoluted shpiel of "dating" in the current year.

>My ideal fuck-buddy is an older woman who can't get pregnant
I've fantasized and fapped to the rare examples in my life of women over 50 who still look attractive (to me) and many porn searches have been for the oldest MILFs who still have sexy legs and firm tits (not veiny thin legs and droopy ones). It's been a fantasy just as much as seeing a random woman outside and just fuckign each other right then and there no condom depe creamie no worries, just like the wild animals that we are.


>>81687402
We are figuring out who and what we are, a rare breed of starseed apparently.

>>81687194
>>81687402
I also want to ask you a seemingly unusual question here:

Do you like summer or winter better? And in general, are you happier when the weather is warm and you can be outside in a tee shirt, or do you prefer colder temperatures, don't mind putting on heavy jackets to go outside.

>>81687461
>This is the conundrum
Amen, anon. Basically the only thing that doesn't make me a schizoid is my sexual desire.
It is very frustrating that 'coupling' is still so complicated (even with fuck apps ruining everything by making women Chad-only).
It seems to be very much a woman thing to enforce this dating nonsense. Yet it's know that they will sleep with a Chad pretty quickly.
I think my thing for MILFs was there since my teens. I wanted an older woman to show me the ropes. But it never really happened. They seemed more 'forgiving'. Depressingly, I am now ageing up to be their contemporary.
>>81687477
I fucking hate summers. The heat is unbearable.
I love wearing my leather jacket when the weather is suitable.

>>81687477
i like winter only when i can chill inside in the warmth but mostly i dont like it. i hate being cold and i hate the lack of color outside. i don't like wearing bulky clothing or dressing in the cold or waiting for my car to heat up.
>>81687461
>We are figuring out who and what we are, a rare breed of starseed apparently.
i think our strain of autism has a relation to schizoid pd.

>>81687500
I feel miserable in the cold, and hate dealing with the logistics of coping with it using clothing and heaters just to make the reality less unbearable.
>>81687555
Which resonates with you, but on the other hand, I don't resonate at all with schizoid symptoms. What I've figured out so far is that the best way to live is, unironically and unabashedly, just being yourself, and excluding form this being any explaining yourself or apologizing your yourself. Of course now I do enjoy analyzing and exlaing things to myself and on autism forums like this, but when socializing with normies (in the uncommon setting sin which I do), and I would apologize if I was actually being an insensitive asshole and admittedly recognized that behavior.

I do have empathy and the capacity for very strong empathy, but a lot of times it seems like I momentarily forget that other people have feelings or just don't consider such things because I'm in my own head. This is not uncommon for autistic people, and is not a malicious behavior but more like a lack of attention to detail cause by our own mental functioning taking up all the ram in our brains, something like that.

>Hypersexual autism

>>81686915 (OP)
Im just done gooning to furry fart inflation porn, am i hypersexual?

I used to have major black and white thinking and would never have sex outside of a relationship. I broke up an extremely long-term relationship then decide to try casual sex and I went crazy with it. At my peak I fucked four men in one day. I kept a detailed document about all of my experiences as well and was very methodological about it. I treated it like a video game. Now I am black and white committed again and don't do that stuff anymore

you can talk about the fact that plants grow in germany, yes

>>81687895
No just a normal pervert

>>81687922
Sounds like the perfect romance novel

>>81687963
Kek
The Summer I Turned Slutty
Then the sequel The Summer I Turned Married
It'd sell normalfags are retards

>>81686915 (OP)
we're at a point where everything except autism is tried to be pigeonholed into an autism diagnosis be it actually diagnosed or by some tard on tiktok who self diagnosed themselves
>>81686922
the latter reads like npd, a bunch of self aware self hating fags

>>81687974
>self aware
>self hating
Not necessarily both or either, and there is a capacity to develop both, which I have myself experienced the transition. Self-awareness and self-love can be learned, I think anyone can reach that point, but the general default for that type is lacking self-awareness, and as for self hate or self love it really depends on your early family life and when you first start school that give you the foundational experiences that can foster self-loathing more often than not, and then maybe sometime years later they will gradually peel away the layers and build their own emotional self-concept independent of their history/memories or other's projections onto them.

>>81686915 (OP)
Hypersexuality has nothing to do with autism. I don't even know where you ppl come up with this shit

>>81688020
>there is a capacity to develop both,
This literally goes against any type of autism diagnosis

>>81688048
I have observed that autistic men tend to be either asexual-like or very preoccupied with sexuality. It's a polar split, no middle ground. This is most exemplefied in masturbation habits, autists 18-25 will either fap like crazy all the time, or rarely ever. Most normies will fap like once or twice a day or less but regularly.

>>81688053
It's like updating your mental/emotional software even though your brain and nervous system hardware is permanently autistic

I'm autistic and me and my first ever gf at like 8 years old used to hump eachother a lot, we almost had sex but chickened out because her mother was always close by.

not sure if it's the autism or that experience that made me hypersexual but i always want to cum multiples times a day

>>81687974
>we're at a point
Sadly, it seems that autism is WAY more common that normies thought.
It has been badly exposed in the fact that gutting the Western economy, and only leaving autist-hell service jobs, means that autists simply cannot work.
The prevalence of 'tism is made even worse with increasing delayed parenthood, due to financial reasons, and women wanting to whore around first.
Though it seems in burgerland they are going to set the autists up to fail and die starving. We need a fucking UBI and Keynes' 15 hour work week.

>>81688109
>I have observed that
Not that anon. I posted 81687194.
I'll add that despite my deep desire to have lots of sex. I don't jerk off, as I can't make myself cum.
I very much need a partner who desires me, in order to orgasm. I have wet dreams.
Only ejaculated once with an escort; with a lubed handjob. Never with PiV and rubbers.

>>81686915 (OP)
>>81686922
"Autism" since it became a "Spectrum" is completely meaningless, and therefore it should be treated as a meaningless category. There is no reason why different categories of autistic people should've been gotten rid of. Imagine if an astronomer said "Planets are a spectrum!" It's not even what spectrum means. A "Spectrum" is a plotted line of progression from one thing to the next. I can plot a communist on one end and a fascist on the other and plot all of the political positions in-between the two. I can do the same with a color spectrum. Autism is not a "Spectrum".
>>81688048
KYS nigger you're a failed normie larping on an incel forum go listen to your taytay faggot

>>81686915 (OP)
There is a difference between the kind of "Gooner" porn addict and a genetically hypersexual person. I've always been sexual, always liked girls, long before I knew about internet pornography. I barely even watch porn. I find using my imagination or reading stories to be far more satisfying.

I think that normies cannot understand us because sex for them is never about sex. It's always about validation, power, status, money. I like sex because it feels good and I want to make a girl have an orgasm. I want to love her and have fun. It's just a game where we both win in the end. Normies will never understand this, and it's why they are so neurotic about sex, and why everything is "Traumatic!!!!!" to them. Because they are low IQ, mentally soft, faggots.

Too bad you can't make this distinction because most people are retarded and can't handle anything more complex in their mental model.

Sadly, autists tend to be incels and we are very neurotic about sex (and life in general). It is said that unless we actually get a willing sex partner, before we get too far past our late-teens, which is highly unlikely these days with women now Chad-only, we are basically trapped with our neuroses forever. I'm almost 40.
I do think I could chill the fuck out a bit and fraud normiedom easier, if I had regular willing pussy. I'm so fucking uptight and pent-up. I can't do it solo.

>>81689234
I'm lucky I'm decent looking and got 2 gf's before i left high school, it's been 11 years since i last had sex because i don't leave the house anymore

>>81689352
Sadly, I went to boys schools. Then basically no school for my last 18 months.
Spent about six months in a unit for troubled kids. Met a cocktease girl there. Everyone thought we were going to hook-up (even her mother loved me), but she Friend Zoned me (never again). Five years later, she ballooned in weight and had some other asshole's kids.
Then I had two years in college. Full of foreigners that I had no chance with. Second year, had a girl who kept staring at me. Thought I broke the ice with her once, but she went back to staring at me and she dropped out late in the year. 15 years later, she'd had someone else's kid.
After college, it's basically been 20 years of NEETdom. My single year wage-cucking, I had no chance of pussy in that office. Was friends with the MILFy mother hen of the place, but no chance of pussy from her. Had a pathetic crush on a woman seven years younger who looked like Marisa Tomei. Of course she had a BF. Then there's the whole 'don't shit where you eat' and 'MeToo' things. I have basically no way to get pussy now.
Any women who liked me never told me. I always get the starers who never speak to me, let alone break the touch barrier with me.
Once heard reliably that a woman wanted to fuck my brains out when I was a teen. Even my parents knew about this. TFW it never happened. I could have dumped my inceldom and virginity in my teens, without having to use disappointing escorts in my 20s. My life is a missed chance at everything.

>>81688048
>>81688109
I looked it up (I actually created that thread) and autistics typically tend to either be Chris Chan tier sex pests or Issac Newton celibate nerds with no inbetween because the brain region responsible for sex drive is completely messed up. This was from Reddit though so take that with a grain of salt

>>81686915 (OP)
Gay autistic men tend to be a mixture of both. For me:
>I tend to be "sapiosexual" and don't want sex everyday, but when I do, it is animalistic
>I spend most of my days researching planes, art, computers, and literature, but frequently daydream about bathroom orgies
>I almost always only speak when spoken to or if I need something. But I can mask relatively well for a short period of time
>I know how strange I am, but I don't care anymore
>
>

>>81690438
Also an autistic fag but for the most part I am the latter of that picrel, sans the hypersexual part.

>>81686922
I feel like the former of picrel is autism when you are a child/teenager and still have a lot of hope for having friends/relationship and the latter is autism after you went through a lot of shit and just don't really bother with certain things anymore.

>>81690811
nah the hyperfocused autists I've known usually stayed like that and pursued careers in their own fixations.
As a latter kind of autist I never felt in common with the those hyperfocused ones.

>>81690924
I guess some stay that way.
I was like that but I got fucked over by relying on other people enough times that I just don't really care about them that much anymore.

I'm an autistic foid, everyday I goon to slash fiction generated by Chatgpt but other than that I get no sex or even attention from men because I am obese so I guess I am kind of hypersexual in that aspect. I normally get mocked and laughed at for my weight.

I have chris-chan tier autism not the cool aspergers kind.

>>81691170
is that you sems?

Those probably make up less then 1% percent of the population
Just goon your life away

Anyone else here is a 40 year old hypersexual bisexual virgin who has had very strong sexual desires since she was 3 years old?

>>81688749
>>81688349
>>81687461
>>81687194

>>81691325
Can I be your live-in sex slave?

>>81691421
Unironically maybe. Please show me a recent picture of your face.

>>81689492
Again. That has nothing to do with autism. Hypersexuality and hyposexuality are caused by c.s.a. are you gonna tell me "autism" is also caused by c.s.a.?

>>81687194
>I fucked escorts in my 20s
How was it? Satisfying? Worth the risks?

>>81688960
>I've always been sexual, always liked girls, long before I knew about internet pornography.
This is me, but then I later became a gooner once I'm no longer in school and not actually around women anymore, except as strangers in passing I see once and never again

>for them is never about sex. It's always about validation, power, status, money.
Same. As I often remark here, normie straight men baffle me because it sounds like they mainly only care about their dick and their ego, whereas for me its a deeply sensual experience of lusting for a woman's body. When looking at porn videos I basically skin through to the parts where I see her totally naked head to toe, and that's what I fap too. I don't buy into the story fantasy or "self-insert" as the male talent- I suspect that men who do this are the types who turn gay even form watching straight porn, cause they are focusing on dicks and imagining someone else's dick as their own.

>>81691575
What is csa?

>>81691669
>What is csa?
So you don't even know what ur talking about. No surprise

>>81690811
This I relate to. I tried to have friends and acquaintances, but they all drifted away anyway.
Since becoming an adult and NEET, I pretty much went full shut-in and don't bother. I just wish that I could get fucks.

>>81691325
I made the first and fourth posts.
I'd fuck your brains out, but it's obvious we're on different parts of the earth.

>>81691592
>How was it? Satisfying?
Useful, but not entirely satisfying. At least I could get some experience and lose my V-card.
The hope was that I'd graduate to fucking civilian broads, but I stayed NEET and went baldcel in my 20s also.
I could never get fully hard cum with them, and obviously rubbers are mandatory. Hated the clock-watching too. Could never relax.
Did it about 18 times over nine years and it just wasn't worth the 100+ a pop. Especially as I could never pop.
I went to my first escort in eight years back in February and she made me cum with a lubed handjob. Couldn't fuck her though.
This is why my hope is to find a post-fetile fuck-buddy that I could bareback and hopefully creampie, without any potential for 'unpleasantness'.
>Worth the risks?
Not in burgerland, so no stigma or paranoia about sting operations.
Technically illegal, but escort agencies exist (with online reviews) and technically you're 'paying for their time'.

>>81691669
>for me its a deeply sensual experience of lusting for a woman's body.
Same, anon. I hate that this sexual pleasure has been denied me for more than two decades.

>>81691669
>What is csa?
NTA. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Child_sexual_abuse
Don't know why they'd use an acronym and then be so unhelpful.

>autism is when I am a coomer
Autism is not a thing

>>81691325
What do you people think of this?

>>81691687
The only acronym I can think of is "child sexual abuse" and no, I was not sexually abused as a child, just born horny and feeling very aroused when I saw adult womens' bare legs 10 years before I ever felt an erection.

>>81692016
What we're finding out is that autism is actually multiple "things" categorized into the same disability spectrum, when in reality they can be totally different.

While it's true that, if you meet one autistic person you've met just one autist, but as we see there, there are some differing subtypes that have unique commonalities.

>>81691868
Autistic people tend to use common acronyms, slang and jargon the same way regardless of who they are talking to, it's called context blindness. This is one of many things I developed self-awareness of, and also is why I tend to be more verbose in my writings, but also playful, saying thing like pee pee and hanky panky.

>>81691817
When is the last time you hugged a woman other than family?

>>81692332
An escort in 2017. Possibly an ex-colleague in 2018, in our final meeting.
Last family hug was with a grandmother-figure at the end of February.
The family I grew up with, whom I used to hug, have all died. Feels bad, man.

>>81691806
How would you say it compares to just watching good high quality porn?

>>81692464
No contest. I would always prefer sex, however mediocre the paid version can be, over porn.

>>81692265
>no, I was not sexually abused as a child
18 to 50% of ppl blocked out their c.s.a. nobody is just "born horny". Dumbest shit ever but what should I expect coming here

>>81692939
oh crap maybe i was touched by a babysitter and that's why i started drawing women with big titties. i always thought that was just caused by 007 games.

>>81692939
I was born heterosexual