Thread 81690821

honestly, the only thing that keeps me going nowadays is spite and hate
what keeps you going, robots?

>>81690821 (OP)
there is no alternative
what am i gonna do? die?
yeah, there is no alternative

>>81690821 (OP)
>what keeps you going, robots?
the uhhhh the got damn uhhhh......

>>81690821 (OP)
Dying sucks and I still have a tiny amount of hope/cope.

>>81690821 (OP)
Unironically, fitness and looksmaxxing. Not in the autistic frustrated incelish way, but in as a fun game kind of game. Routine is
>wake up
>coffee (which is good for you)
>take a big shit
>eat breakfast and suplements
>work
>farm compliments, flirt and mess with normies playing their own bullshit games
>go home
>eat
>nap
>shitposting, yt brainrot
>lift
>go to sleep
I look forward to the next day just out of curiosity and being eager to see myself in the mirror, check my body composition and look if im fatter, thinner or stronger. I also lurk dating apps, i get matches and compliments, occasional dates and fucking, some times temporary gfs. This is enough for me.

a band with no guitar most likely

>>81691025
do you consider yourself a narcissist, anon?

>>81690821 (OP)
i want to own goats and chickens and occassionally hunt with a bow, i want to be a mountain man

>>81690821 (OP)
The only reason I'm still alive cuz I'm too much of a pussy to kill myself

>>81690966
>>81691014
>>81691088
>muh dying is scawy!
lame

>>81690821 (OP)
ive tried to kill myself, failed and now i don't have the willpower to do it again

>>81691106
Things can be much more horrible so I'd prefer to game and goon rather than end everything, sounds boring desu.

>>81691048
Not really. I just like to fix objects and improve shit in general, its like a game for me. I used to be a gigaobese fat fuck and one day i thought "why not fix myself". Not gonna lie, the compliments and mire feel good, im not dumb, they just mean i did a good job

>>81690821 (OP)
I am being watched too closely to do something bad to myself, because of both a prior attempt and wellness check last month. So I am forced to endure existing in complete hell for a while longer.

>>81690821 (OP)
The knowledge that if I give up I'll be a disappointment to everyone.