What are you supposed to do once you acknowledge that you don't deserve to be loved? Is suicide the only way out of this hellish torment?

I feel like I'm stuck in a state between wanting to stop existing but also not wanting to die. Does that make sense? tbqh if there was a magical button that made me instantly vanish, including from other people's memories, I would press it immediately.

>>81696158 (OP)
you just keep on swimming :')

there is no point in living but there is also no point in dying
so you just keep on putting one foot in front of the other until you give out

>>81696158 (OP)
i took the hedonism pill, i just eat garbage processed food, scroll 4chan, and play video games all day. might as well squeeze every drop of dopamine out of this shitty existence before it's over

>>81696158 (OP)
Being loved by a woman isnt the only thing to do in the world. Maybe try to recenter your life around things you enjoy.

>>81696244
as much as i hate to admit it, i think you've got the right idea

>>81696244
I'm currently doing this kek.
>>81696262
I meant all encompassing love, not just by a woman. I unironically never once believed that I deserved to be with a woman but I did delude myself that I could and should cultivate love from friends/family. I don't believe that anymore though. I've slowly shed most of my friends and I feel bad that my family has to put up with me.

>>81696158 (OP)
Most people who are loved dont deserve it tho. Just look at dark triad abuse chads.

>>81696547
its hard to define who exactly is naturally "deserving" of what. i would argue they just played the game and got their prize. being a nice upstanding guy sadly isn't inherently good for anything but your own personal peace

>>81696244
>>81696295
it's gonna fail
>>81696158 (OP)
you deserve to be loved if you do the right thing, or maybe even in general just because youre human, if you try your best you should deserve romantic love imo, if you dont get it then its down to what women do and thats not your fault so i wouldnt sweat it, just fuck em at that point

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>>81696569
No one deserves anything dude. Take what you want or lie and cheat and steal to get what you want or dont. Give up or play a different game.

>>81696158 (OP)
I'm schizo maxxing. Trying to convince myself anime girls are real and that they could really love me.