Thread 81697083

i split really badly on my fp andi. had a terrible episode i did something reallybad and hurtful and unforgiveable. after icalmed down i realized the damage ive done and i tried to apologize and explain that they triggered me but ohv thatsnot an excuse but they said they were gonna try to forgvie me and needed space soidid but just last month they told me they want nothing to do with me and they hate me and i ruined them. i understand that i respect their deicsioon. it hurts so badky i dont know how to live without them they were my entire world for three years now its all gone i dont see any reason in continuing my life and idont thinktheyre ever gonna come badk i keep trying ng to send them essays trying tofix things again but theyreignoring meidontknow what to do i want to try to move on but i fuckgingg cant no matter what i try idont wanna live without them ifeellike the only way out of this pain is to die theyweremy everrhthign theyweretheonltthingthatmademehappy

>>81697083 (OP)
I understood like, 30% of the post, tf happened op, wtf is a "fp andi"?

>>81697107
some troonblabber probably

>>81697107
>>81697319
It means favourite person it is a BPD term

>>81697083 (OP)
Let's see if we can shed some light on perspective

Has the other person been honest or were you pushed to do it to try to make sense of their dishonesty?

>>81697971
>Has the other person been honest or were you pushed to do it to try to make sense of their dishonesty?
god mike you always just GET IT you know? much love

>>81697083 (OP)
>no one will ever care this much about me

I'm not into passive aggressive shit.

In person, not hiding behind masks because of insecurities and assumptions based on past traumas.

Resolution is really simple to communicate and we can always fuck it out.

>>81697083 (OP)
Kind of wish I had someone caring about me like that. During bitch phases I'd simply lock her at home and wait it out.

>>81698200
To be clear. This post comes across dripping with passive aggressive shit.

If you got a bug up your butt with me then let's deal with it.

I would say let's talk it out here but we both know that my ability to trust a post to be who it says is degraded past repair.

So if her add me on discord using the one we talked on

If whoever add me on yours

>>81697971
Hi Mike, why up so late/early?

>>81698258
There's the reason I said I was excited for a first fight in person because there's an edge to it on both sides that tend to spark.

I love that shit.

>>81698285
Who am I speaking to?

>>81698301
The most random anon possible who is confused by how you always pop up at ungodly hours

>>81698309
I'm self-employed and self-reliant. I do whatever I want whenever I want. Naturally I'm a night owl.

I just finished building a new computer for my mom and am transferring data tomorrow so it's identical to what she had before.

>>81698331
Oh nice, things make more sense now, also good on you for helping your mom, you seem like a cool dude. I'm gonna fucking sleep because the sun is literally rising and i didn't see the hour, have a good day/night Mike

I also built my desktop case.

I stacked (2) thermal take w200 and (3)p200. My case is about 7 ft tall lol
https://www.thermaltake.com/core-w200.html

>>81698357
Here's the p200
https://www.thermaltake.com/core-p200.html

>>81698349
Family is a given and always comes first.

Sleep well.

>>81698200
I removed my assumption and stopped to listen to you.

When I read this in your voice, who I know you to be, I hear you better

>god mike you always just GET IT you know? much love

You feel seen with me.
The same as when you prayed for an
"endless summer"
With me

I hope it lasts this time.
It has to.

I will keep the course. I won't betray your trust.
I promise

why do all bpd people type like this
by all of them i mean actually all of them

>>81699182
You say as you take the same way

I do not believe in BPD as a physical diagnosis.

It is trauma response, and can be healed with consistency and stability. That person has to choose to do that. It takes persistence and allowance in the right thing. Some may never understand and thus never find it, some may understand and still never find it, somebody understand can be further harmed with the trust in the wrong thing.

But some may understand and find it and everything is okay again.

>>81697083 (OP)
Get fucked. Learn to stop blowing up on people. Sometimes you cannot fix things. So stop blowing shit up in the first place retard. Accept the consequences of your actions and fuck off with your woe is me shit.