>having fun in a game
>brain suddenly remembers when my now estranged siblings and i huddled around dad's computer playing a game together when i was 8
>immediately lose all interest in my game and wonder how my life got here
I can't do this anymore. Lord I just want to go back and do things differently. I can be better. I know I can. Please.

I remember I was happy when older bro moved out and I got the PC for myself. Became a vidya addict after that.