Anyone else been living their entire life on a mode where you're basically, through bullying or being shunned from social circles, not allowed to find women attractive or be attracted to women? Basically the moment you show any form of interest or desire towards girls, it bites you on the ass and is like a social suicide, and you get bullied over it, time after time all your youth and teens until you're mentally conditioned, by others and then by yourself as well, to not be attracted to women or find them sexually desirable. Or at least to play it off like that, because you can't really shut off a basic human need for companionship and sex. So you live like that most of your life because it's the only way to survive the school years and young adult years, and you're now left as a 30-something fucked up thing because of it, basically at any time you've come across an attractive girl you run a mental mantra on how you're not allowed to react or take notice of it, and any time you see some skin, through normal le comfy clothes or things like swimsuits etc, you just are not allowed to like it.

And that shit fucks you up mentally really bad and by the time you have realized how stupid that entire thing is, you have already self conditioned yourself mentally with this forced brainwashing and become completely incapable fo functioning around any attractive or sexually appealing women because of this entire thing. While society and other people still pretty much treat you like you are never allowed to be attracted to women unless you're in the 8-10/10 range

when I was really young, like in preschool I was hypersexual and would molest every other kid around me. eventually I got into big trouble for it, figured out what I was doing was bad and felt like the worst piece of shit about it. have never touched another person sexually since

>>81708714 (OP)
yeah thats literally me
thank kami sama for inventing anime
>>81708760
i forgive you