Sometimes I cope by telling myself o am dreaming and am going to wake up in a better normal world any minute now.

>>81711450 (OP)
Same, if I believe this and try you spend as much time asleep as possible then I can like to myself that the dreams are the real world. That's the only place I can see them anymore and the only place I am not in pain.

>>81711510
I get this. The happy dreams are so much greater than waking life because you forget all the weight of your actions and get to feel joy again. The only problem is when you wake up and your body aches from sleeping so much and feels filthy in your own sweat. And you realize all it is is an escape.

>>81711545
Yeah. That's when you force eat something small, go to the washroom, and drug yourself back to sleep. Only in sleep is there relief. The waking world has those you love that are lost who you'll never see again, asleep you can see them. Awake you have people who say they are your friend and promised to help you but didn't, or people nice to you who mock you behind your back. Asleep you have real friends you've never had. If only there was a way to stay in sleep indefinitely without dying.

>>81711600
>If only there was a way to stay in sleep indefinitely without dying.
I know I would choose that

>>81711620
We all would. Give me the dream world where I am surrounding by those who are important to me or give me death.