I forced myself to have sex with a man last night. Not a trap or a femboy or anything. Just a regular, grown-ass man.
I had to close my eyes and try to shut him out to the best of my abilities. His awkwardly bulky proportions, his arm and leg hair, his deep grunts, his rough skin and wide shoulders, all these things made it incredibly difficult to achieve and maintain an erection but after a great deal of concentration I was able to cum in him.
The wave that washed over me after I finished was unbelievable. I pulled out, stood up, took one look at him and immediately felt dizzy. I went to the bathroom to quietly dry heave into his toilet but managed to refrain from actually vomiting.
He wanted me to stay the night and talk with him some more but I left briskly, rambling about having to get home to feed a dog I didn't actually have.

Last night was the lowest point of my life by far. I let loneliness get the better of me and deluded myself into believing that it's better to fuck someone you are not even attracted to at all than to continue withering away in isolation, and now I know from hard experience how ridiculous that line of thinking actually is. But being alone is still miserable and my luck with women is so bad it's pushed me here anyway.

I want to die.

This is how women think about sex with sub 8 men btw.

>>81711880 (OP)
kek
should've gone for someone more feminine, OP
ease into it

so what did we learn, kids?
no sex > sex with someone you're not attracted to

>>81711880 (OP)
scared of this
do you not have any attraction to men?
i crushed on guys in school but never sexed with one...

>>81711931
None whatsoever. I just have a really high libido and a strong craving for emotional intimacy, so much so that it will occasionally override orientation and I'll just take whoever I can get my hands on. I genuinely just hate being alone so much.

>>81711880 (OP)
Well, anon. It's like trying food. You need to try it like 10 times before you develop a taste for it. Just don't push yourself too hard to do it, or you'll just see it as punishing yourself.

Think of it like forcing yourself to eat a food you don't like. You're gonna hate it for a while. Sexual fluidity is severely underreasearched due to ethical concerns.

>>81711880 (OP)
>vbulky proportions, his arm and leg hair, his deep grunts, his rough skin and wide shoulders
Why would you fuck a man if this doesn't sexually excite you?
You have a bad set point for "not attracted to", it's at mid. It should be below zero, negative. This is why you made the mistake.

>>81711893
but for awareness, all the people complaining about dead bedrooms dont realize how much their wives and girlfriends hate having sex with them. if there was universal basic income, 99% of women would cease to have sex with the majority of normie mean, its all just a transaction so that they can get their bills paid and so on

>>81711954
>not attracted to men
>has sex with men

lmao OP you are a homosexual man

idk why we keep needing to explain this to r9ktards but heterosexual men do not have sex with other men lolllll

>>81711880 (OP)
LOL I dont think I could ever be desperate or horny enough to do this. Maube it's because I actually am not gay unlike you. I wouldn't even fuck an ugly chick. Rather die a virgin. This is the sort of thing animals do.

>>81711880 (OP)
>Just a regular, grown-ass man
You sure OP? Reading through your story, this guy sounds more like a faggot, just like you faggot

>>81711880 (OP)
I hooked up with two asian guys earlier this year out of curiosity and when we got to sex I was almost an animal, biting their ears while growling and pounding them in their bed and shit. They were pretty clean too, cuddled and held them tight after and came like a firehose too.

>>81711880 (OP)
LMAO
GO FOR A TWINK NEXT TIME FAGET LOLOLOLOLOL

>>81714379
Goddamn was it THAT good??

>>81715769
I screwed around with some girls before >inb4 leave reee and while that was nice, there was something entirely different with those two. I dont know if its some subconscious thing about taking another man like that or what but it did feel pretty amazing, and there really was not even any hesitation on my part. Cuddling for a while after was nice too, but either way those two asian guys made me cum harder than any woman so far has. Hell I thought I was bombing it with the first guy until we got to my car and he immediately started pawing my dick and wanted to kiss. You can call me a fag all you want, I am not even going to bother trying to convince myself I am entirely straight anymore because you really cant after something like that, and lord knows I wanted to destroy James Charles fruity ass for a while now. But at least for me it was good. Still ultimately want to marry a woman and have the whole wife and family and all that one day though.
>I will say though there is a big difference between genuinely being interested and only wanting it from being porn brained, for me I was always a horny bastard regardless