Should I just have enough self awareness to give up on life? Isn't it more insane to keep trying the same stuff that doesn't work.

>>81712866 (OP)
have enough self awareness to actually live life despite it all
fuck women, fuck men, fuck humanity as a whole - just do you, king

>>81712878
How? I can't make friends, I can't get a job, I'm struggling in school, I don't have qualifications for anything, I have a disorder there isn't a cure for, people don't like me, I am a disappointment and a burden to my family, I made everything bad for everyone, people I care about, I can't think like other people. I want to get a job but I struggle with everything. I want to do well in school but even when I try my hardest it's hard. I have issues with trauma, I can't forget anything. I Think I have ptsd on top of my disorder and ocd. I'm a low IQ mentally ill mistake an there's not a single day I don't wish I died

>>81713063
Even retards can get a job
Just stock shelves or be a fry cook, the forced proximity will guarantee you social connections

>>81712866 (OP)
Dont give up on life, join my army and lets go and rape the foids of the place I was born and have fun, whats the worst thing could happen, dying anyway, who cares we can live with purpose and do whatever we want, like not paying taxes to hoes welfare state.

>>81713063
you need someone to talk to man? i can drop my discord

People irl don't show me even the most basic human decency outside of school staff and teachers, peoplenwho worked with my parent, they don't even say hi back if I ever have to go there, they pretend they don't hear, neighbors don't say hi back, people even make fun of me outside even if I say nothing. It really hurts and I want to die. I'm ugly too so I guess that's why on top of my disorder, I am disgusting to look at

>>81713079
I'd rather die if that's all my life will be. Any jobs that are good require a degree and I'm struggling to get jt
>>81713084
I can't join the army because of their criteria

>>81713084
And even if I could it would be hell, it would be like gym class but worse, my disorder makes it hard to those physical activities

>>81713086
Thanks but you I'm not mentally well enough for friendships at all

>>81713162
I never said join the army, I said join my army of incel and rebellious betabuxer, everyone here have some condition, so it doesnt matter, we fight thru crafting, science, biochemical warfare, traps, using intelligence, we dont go running like sacrificial lambs, we are unorthodox warfare.

>>81713259
I guess I got worse at reading by doing nothing but browsing memes and 4chan for hours

>>81713259
Even if I said yes and it was all possible, it wouldn't be what I want. I just want to be like others. I don't know why I had to be born like this. I don't want to be an outcast or a rebel or anything bad. it makes me feel physically sick

>>81713329
Why do you want to be like others, the average normie is a garbage eating cuck, and Chad and Tyrone are big dick mentally retarded idiots, at least im happy of being who Im with all my peculiarities, fighting and not putting up with bs is the biggest pride of all.

>>81713364
Because I've been myself for a long time and it sucks and whatever cope I had doesn't work. It doesn't take much to figure out this is true. Normies are the least likely to commit suicide or have depression

>>81712866 (OP)
Yeah but then your destiny is going nowhere. It's more comforting for the mind to be busy even if its insanity, because deep down a part of you feels that maybe this time will be different.

>>81713439
My destiny was to die at birth but modern medicine prevented it. And my stupid parents didn't want to abort me despite that they should have. If my destiny is to die then my destiny is to die, thats what my destiny is , it's not going nowhere. And that sure as hell semms to be my destiny

>>81712866 (OP)
yes.
Accept who you are. I wish I had done this 10 years ago

>>81713504
That's probably the worst thing to do because you stop even desiring to improve

>>81713601
No it's not.
It's unironically the best thing you can do. Otherwise you keep pouring time and energy into false hopes. You make decisions that set you back. And eventually you burn yourself out.
Realize who you are. People don't change. The world isn't going to change. You'll be better off in the long run being aware of those three facts

>>81713639
And accept that this will be all my life is? Why would I continue then?

>>81713654
I'm not saying that you should just let yourself go and become a degenerate alcoholic or something. Doing positive things that lead to self-improvement is a good thing. It's more your reasons for doing them and your expectations. For example, if you go to the gym, despite hating it and for the sole reason that you expect it will improve your life, then you shouldn't do it. If you go the gym, like it, and do so because you recognize the health benefits of it then you should keep doing it.
>Why would I continue then?
That's what you need to figure out. Until then your biological programming will be in a tug of war with your mental anguish for as long as it can.

>>81712866 (OP)
When you're in a depressive state it feels like no matter what you do, nothing works and you can't get out of it. And each time you try and fail again you feel even more broken and like there's no way out. But there's so many things to try that I think it's worth it to not give up.

Practically speaking, if you have anything that gets in the way of being a fully functional human being, if you have a mental illness (you said you had ocd and ptsd), talk to a therapist, get help, get on meds, literally fucking anything to get over that, that should be your number one priority.

>>81713730
I can't figure it out dude I don't know how I'm really suicidal because of it I can't figure it out all my life
>>81713795
I know but medication makes it even worse because of what it does to your brain long-term. It zombifies you and hurts your cognition so bad. It's even shown in studies. I can't thunk on medication. I have gotten professional help before it's not a magic fix all pill like people think

>>81712866 (OP)
Well, what are you currently doing?
What do you want to do?

>>81713997
I'm in school